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Inspiration

Breathwork as Psychedelic Integration: A Teacher's Path

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Psychedelics Today
Oct 15, 2026
9 min read

From Psychedelics Today

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Psychedelic experiences are easy to have and hard to live with. The journey can open a door in an afternoon, but the work of walking through that door, making sense of what was seen and carrying it into an ordinary Tuesday, takes months or years and usually happens with very little help. This conversation, recorded for the Psychedelics Today channel, is about that unglamorous middle stretch. Its guest, Jonathan Schecter, is a Somatic Experiencing practitioner and breathwork facilitator who came to integration through his own unguided experiments with psilocybin, a marriage that fell apart under the weight of trauma, and a lifetime of being quietly tutored in breath by his father. What follows is a close reading of his path and his thinking, with an eye toward the ideas a reader can actually use: why integration matters, how the breath can reach non-ordinary states, and why the nervous system is the place to start.

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What does a show opening with a countdown that never happens have to do with integration?

The episode begins with a false start. A countdown is announced, then abandoned ("I guess we don't really need to do the countdown, actually"), and a few beats of music fill the gap before co-founder Kyle Buller welcomes viewers and introduces Schecter. It is a small moment, but it sets the register of the whole hour and a half: unhurried, a little self-aware, and willing to let the room breathe. That is roughly the posture Schecter describes bringing into his own sessions.

Schecter introduces himself as a Somatic Experiencing practitioner and breathwork facilitator who has spent about seven years practicing breathwork and training in various modalities. He calls Holotropic breathwork "the crown jewel" of that training, the one he has been working toward and is now completing. His client work, he explains, combines Somatic Experiencing, transpersonal psychology, and breathwork "to support them in their spiritual evolution." He also hosts a podcast, The Vital Point: Pathways to Integration, which covers "all things integration, from breath work to psychedelics."

How does a rave-scene DJ end up in a Tibetan monastery?

The arc Schecter sketches is not the tidy conversion story that the wellness world often prefers. He grew up near the edges of the party scene and spent his early twenties in Los Angeles's rave culture, working as a semi-professional DJ on what he describes as a real track toward going professional. Then came a spiritual awakening that he says arrived through Buddhism "in a very transpersonal way." It pulled him off that path entirely. He spent about a year living in a monastery in Tibet.

When he returned to the United States, the life he had planned did not hold. He married, and his wife's childhood trauma began to surface. In his telling, it culminated in her attempting suicide, and he had no idea how to support her or how to process his own feelings about what had happened. The marriage eventually ended after a long effort that included therapy. Through all of it, he was taking mushrooms a few times a year, often in secret, because she did not support it. He is candid about the approach: a few high-dose sessions in the dark, with journaling afterward and little else. "I didn't really have the context for working with the medicines therapeutically," he said, coming as he did from a recreational background.

That gap, between having the experience and having a container for it, is the hinge of the entire conversation. Schecter's shift was from wanting the experiences to feel significant to working on them deliberately. In his words: "I want to work with this more therapeutically. I want to figure out how to have these experiences actually mean something and kind of change my life." (Psychedelics Today, 2:56 into the conversation.)

Why did ice baths lead to breathwork?

His first entry point into breath was not, strictly speaking, breathwork. It was cold. During the divorce he encountered the same idea in a podcast, an Instagram post, and an article all within one day: that deliberately doing hard things you choose will prepare you for the hard things you don't. Schecter found the logic persuasive at a moment when he felt challenged on every front. Wim Hof's method, which pairs cold exposure with breathing techniques, became what he calls a gateway for many people. He says he was not even focused on the breath at first.

Family history complicates the story in a way he seems to enjoy. His father had practiced rebirthing breathwork, the method associated with Leonard Orr, for most of Schecter's life. When Schecter was a teenager taking a lot of acid and getting into trouble, his father tried to reach him: "you can get a lot higher doing breathwork and meditation." At sixteen, Schecter dismissed it. He could not believe breath could be as powerful as LSD. "Here I am now, right?" he says. He began experimenting with breathwork through online videos, "tinkering around," and discovered quickly how deep the practice could take him into non-ordinary states using only the breath.

Can breathwork reach the states psychedelics reach?

This is the claim that makes the conversation worth an hour, and Schecter is careful with it. He is not arguing that breath replaces medicine. He is describing what he found experientially: that the breath, used with intention, can open the same broad territory of altered perception that psychedelics do, and that the territory can be worked with rather than merely endured.

The method that gave him his first real footing was Neurodynamic breathwork, developed by Michael Stone, a long-time Holotropic facilitator who built a more accessible version of the work. Neurodynamic breathwork retains much of the principles and practices of Holotropic breathwork, the approach developed by Stanislav Grof. Schecter's current training in Holotropic work completes a lineage that runs from his first practice through Stone to its source. For readers who are new to the terms, the basic idea is consistent across these schools: sustained, often faster breathing shifts the body's chemistry and attention enough to bring up material from beyond ordinary waking awareness.

Schecter's emphasis, though, is on what happens after the state. Early in his own work he had been journaling and processing alone, without a guide, coach, or therapist. He now sees the value of preparation and of deliberate care before entering an experience and in its aftermath. The breath can open a door; the integration determines whether anything changes on the other side.

What is integration, and why does it take so long?

Integration is one of those words that gets thrown around in psychedelic circles until it means nothing. Schecter describes it more plainly: it is the process of taking what an experience showed you and building it into how you live. He explicitly connects this to the nervous system. When an experience overwhelms the system's capacity, the body needs a way to discharge and settle, and the practices he uses, from somatic tracking to breath, are aimed at helping the body complete what it started. The slowness is not a flaw. It is the nature of the work.

He also argues that the value of a process is not always visible in the moment. In a passage about working with people, he notes that there is value in the process even when you cannot see it, and that sometimes it takes a long time for the change to show. That patience runs against the grain of a culture that rewards the single dramatic session, and it is probably the most practical idea in the talk for anyone sitting with a difficult experience.

What role does music play in breathwork?

For a former DJ, the music is not a backdrop. Schecter currently supports facilitators at the Neurodynamic Institute through music consultation and playlist creation, and the conversation returns to music repeatedly, including a reference to an album by Jon Hopkins that comes up as a touchstone. Think of the breath session as a set: it has a build, a plateau, a release, and a landing, and the sound has to track the body's arc without pushing it. A DJ learns to read a room; a breathwork facilitator learns to read a nervous system, and music is one of the tools for doing so with care. Anyone who has ever felt a track take them somewhere they did not plan to go will recognize the principle.

What can a reader take from this conversation?

The most useful things Schecter offers are not techniques so much as orientations. First, do not treat the psychedelic experience as the whole event. The integration is where the change actually lives. Second, the nervous system is the practical starting point: if an experience has overwhelmed you, the body needs to be worked with before the mind can make sense of it. Third, find a container. The early years of self-guided journaling taught him the limits of going it alone, and his later training shows what a structured practice can add. Finally, let the work take the time it takes. His own story, from a teenager who rolled his eyes at his father to a practitioner now training in one of the deepest breathwork traditions, is a reminder that the path is seldom linear.

Where to go from here

If this conversation is the first time you have encountered breathwork as integration, start with the ideas rather than the techniques. Read up on the difference between Neurodynamic and Holotropic breathwork, and on how Somatic Experiencing approaches the body's stress responses. Consider what preparation and aftercare would look like for your own experiences, and whether a trained facilitator or therapist could hold that space with you. Schecter's own podcast, The Vital Point: Pathways to Integration, extends many of these threads with other guests, and the Psychedelics Today channel offers the full conversation for anyone who wants the complete hour and a half. The most honest takeaway from Schecter is also the simplest: the breath is powerful, but the meaning is made afterward, slowly, with care.

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[0:01] It's a big countdown.

[0:06] >> [music]

[0:07] >> I guess we don't really need to do the

[0:08] countdown, actually.

[0:10] >> [music]

[0:15] [music]

[0:21] [music]

[0:27] [music]

[0:37] >> All right. Welcome everybody to

[0:40] Psychedelics Today. My name is Kyle

[0:42] Buller, one of the co-founders here at

[0:43] Psychedelics Today. And welcome by

[0:46] Jonathan Shecter. Jonathan, welcome to

[0:48] the show. Really excited to have you

[0:49] here.

[0:51] >> Yeah, thanks for having me, Kyle.

[0:53] >> Yeah, I feel like it's been a long time

[0:55] coming. I've been on your podcast a few

[0:57] times, so I'm glad we were able to get

[0:59] you over here as well.

[1:01] >> Yeah, I appreciate it.

[1:02] >> Yeah.

[1:03] Jonathan, I know you're a Somatic

[1:04] Experiencing Practitioner. You just got

[1:07] your certification in Holotropic

[1:09] Breathwork. Congrats on just finishing

[1:11] up that training.

[1:12] Um,

[1:13] introduce yourself. Who are you? Who's

[1:15] Jonathan?

[1:16] >> Yeah, so like you mentioned, uh, Somatic

[1:19] Experiencing Practitioner and, uh,

[1:21] Breathwork Facilitator. I've been

[1:23] practicing Breathwork and getting

[1:25] certified in various modalities over the

[1:28] last 7 years. And, uh, Holotropic is

[1:32] kind of the crown jewel to me, uh, to to

[1:35] finish that off. But, yeah, I do a lot

[1:37] of work with, um, clients, uh, doing

[1:40] Somatic Integration, combining the

[1:42] Somatic Experiencing and Transpersonal

[1:44] Psychology, as well as Breathwork to

[1:48] support them in their spiritual

[1:50] evolution. And as you mentioned, I also

[1:53] have a podcast called The Vital Points,

[1:56] um, where we talk about all things

[1:57] integration,

[1:59] um, from breath work to psychedelics and

[2:01] kind of everything everything in

[2:02] between.

[2:03] >> Yeah, and for those listening,

[2:05] definitely check that out. You've had

[2:06] some really great conversations and and

[2:08] guests on.

[2:09] >> Yeah, lately, uh, you know, a couple

[2:11] there's definitely been some

[2:12] cross-pollination, you know, I I found

[2:14] Pierre Bouchard through you and

[2:17] psychedelics today. So, he's been on the

[2:18] podcast a few times and um, just

[2:21] wonderful to be existing in the space

[2:23] here.

[2:24] >> Yeah, yeah.

[2:26] Can I Let's do some like little

[2:28] backtracking and explore. How did you

[2:30] get involved in, you know, non-ordinary

[2:32] experiences, psychedelics, and and

[2:35] breath work? What's what's your path

[2:36] been?

[2:37] >> Uh, it was definitely recreational at

[2:39] first. Like, I had a lot of recreational

[2:42] type experiences through, like, high

[2:45] school and kind of after that. I was

[2:47] involved in the rave scene in LA in my

[2:50] early 20s. And then

[2:54] had this kind of spiritual awakening

[2:56] where I discovered Buddhism in a very,

[2:58] like, transpersonal way. Um, and that

[3:01] led me to um,

[3:04] sort of take a right turn in my own

[3:06] career and my life. I went from being

[3:09] like a semi-professional DJ and way well

[3:12] on the track to going professional to

[3:16] living in Tibet, um, in a monastery for

[3:19] about a year.

[3:21] And when I came back to the states,

[3:25] um,

[3:27] I got married and then my, uh, my wife

[3:32] at the time

[3:33] uh, started to have a lot of

[3:35] childhood trauma that started to emerge.

[3:39] And, um,

[3:40] which kind of culminated in her

[3:44] attempting suicide.

[3:45] >> Mhm.

[3:46] >> And I had no idea how to deal with not

[3:50] only the situation and and supporting

[3:54] her, but I really didn't understand how

[3:57] to

[3:58] um process or deal with my own feelings

[4:01] and emotions around what had happened as

[4:03] well.

[4:04] And so, kind of in secret cuz she was

[4:07] not really supportive of it, um I

[4:09] started working with mushrooms a couple

[4:10] of times a year, did the very, you know,

[4:13] sort of clichéd like 5 g in the dark um

[4:16] a few times because I didn't really have

[4:18] the context for

[4:20] working with the medicines

[4:22] therapeutically coming from a more

[4:24] recreational background.

[4:26] But when that marriage kind of fell

[4:29] apart, um

[4:31] you know, after some after a lot of

[4:33] trying and therapy and and also some of

[4:36] the

[4:37] experiences that I was having um with

[4:39] psilocybin,

[4:41] um I really made an effort to say, I

[4:45] want to I want to work with this more

[4:46] therapeutically. I want to figure out

[4:49] how to

[4:51] um have these experiences like actually

[4:53] mean something and and kind of change my

[4:56] life. And so, I dropped into a lot more

[5:00] ceremonial spaces, started to hear this

[5:02] word integration thrown around a lot.

[5:06] Didn't really understand it at first. Um

[5:09] and then it was breathwork, you know,

[5:12] starting to do breathwork as integration

[5:14] for those experiences,

[5:16] um that really

[5:18] led me deeper into working intentionally

[5:22] with integration.

[5:24] >> Yeah. What was your entry point into

[5:26] breathwork? Was it like working with

[5:28] holotropic breathwork right away or were

[5:30] you exploring some other breathwork

[5:32] practices?

[5:33] >> Initially, it was Wim Hof, which I think

[5:35] is definitely like a gateway drug uh for

[5:38] breathwork for a lot of people, um

[5:40] mostly because of the cold plunging

[5:42] actually at first. Like I wasn't really

[5:43] even focused on breathwork. It was more

[5:46] so There was one day I remember

[5:49] seeing like I saw something on

[5:51] Instagram, I was listening to a podcast,

[5:55] and I read it all in one day where they

[5:57] were talking about doing ice baths. And

[6:00] at the time I was going through this

[6:01] really messy divorce, and the message

[6:03] that I had seen in all three of these

[6:05] different mediums was um doing ice baths

[6:09] will help you

[6:11] um do hard things because if you are

[6:13] doing something that's challenging

[6:16] um that you have a choice over, it'll

[6:18] help you when you don't have a choice

[6:20] about doing challenging things. And at

[6:22] the time I was like, "Well, I feel

[6:24] really challenged in my life right now.

[6:26] So, if this is going to help me deal

[6:27] with that, I'm all for it." And

[6:30] then on the side of it was like this

[6:32] breathwork thing.

[6:33] And ironically, breathwork has sort of

[6:36] been around me uh for most of my life.

[6:39] My dad um has been practicing like

[6:42] rebirthing breathwork, Leonard Orr's um

[6:45] practice for for most of my life. And

[6:47] even when I was a teenager and taking a

[6:50] lot of acid and getting into trouble, he

[6:52] tried to sit me down and say

[6:54] "Hey, like I know that you think this is

[6:56] the answer, but you can get a lot higher

[6:59] doing breathwork and meditation."

[7:01] And when I was 16, I didn't I I couldn't

[7:04] hear that, you know, I just rolled my

[7:06] eyes and was like, "You don't know what

[7:08] you're talking about, old man." And um

[7:11] you know, I I just couldn't believe

[7:13] that, you know, breathwork would be as

[7:16] powerful as LSD. Um but, you know, here

[7:19] I am now, right? So, I started I started

[7:22] practicing breathwork just, you know, at

[7:24] first like doing YouTube videos and just

[7:27] trying to tinker around with things and

[7:30] quickly discovered how deep it was in in

[7:33] reaching non-ordinary states through

[7:34] just the breath. And that really led me

[7:37] down a path of exploring different

[7:39] modalities, um um, different teachers,

[7:42] and and just trying to find what worked

[7:44] for me. The first one that that really

[7:46] did was neurodynamic breathwork, which

[7:48] developed [clears throat] by Michael

[7:49] Stone. He was a long-time holotropic

[7:51] breathwork facilitator and kind of made

[7:54] a version of it that was a little bit

[7:56] more accessible

[7:58] uh for people,

[8:00] but still based a lot on the principles

[8:02] and the the practices of holotropic

[8:05] breathwork of of Stan Grof's work. So,

[8:07] that that kind of really kickstarted me

[8:09] on my own path.

[8:11] >> Yeah, yeah. Thanks for sharing all that.

[8:13] When you were talking about like, uh, I

[8:15] guess eating those 5 g in silent

[8:18] darkness, and you said it wasn't

[8:19] necessarily therapeutic, like did you

[8:22] feel like there was any sort of like

[8:23] benefit there, or like you kind of more

[8:26] categorize that as like recreational, so

[8:29] it didn't sound like, you know, wasn't a

[8:30] very internal journey where you were

[8:32] doing work, or what what was going on

[8:34] there for you?

[8:35] >> Yeah, it was definitely therapeutic in

[8:38] its own way. I just didn't have any

[8:40] framework or any like guidelines for

[8:43] what I was doing, right? Like I didn't I

[8:46] didn't understand that there were

[8:48] intentional practices that one could do

[8:52] around that work. So, for me it was like

[8:55] journaling afterwards, you know, or

[8:58] trying to process the the experience all

[9:02] on my own without, you know, any sort of

[9:04] guide or coach or, you know, therapist.

[9:07] Um, whereas now, you know, I understand

[9:10] like the benefit of doing preparation

[9:13] and and really being intentional about,

[9:15] you know, um, taking care of myself

[9:17] before I go into those experiences, and

[9:19] then in the aftermath, definitely,

[9:21] right? So, yeah, it was it was more just

[9:24] like

[9:25] me knowing about Terence McKenna and

[9:28] saying, "Okay, this is what you're

[9:29] supposed to do if you want to have a

[9:31] spiritual experience

[9:33] um or a therapeutic experience around

[9:34] this." Not knowing that there were um,

[9:37] other,

[9:38] you know, more specific frameworks that

[9:40] one could apply.

[9:42] >> Yeah, yeah. And so when you heard about

[9:44] like breathwork being like really

[9:46] powerful and psychedelic, can you

[9:48] remember like what your first breathwork

[9:50] experience was that felt really

[9:52] psychedelic that really kind of like

[9:54] turned you on to and be like, "Oh well,

[9:55] no, there's there's something here."

[9:57] >> Yeah, yeah, I remember cuz I I had been

[10:00] I had sat in a few ayahuasca ceremonies

[10:03] at this point and I remember the first

[10:06] time kind of dropping into a really deep

[10:10] non-ordinary state that

[10:13] you know, a lot of a lot of people that

[10:14] I work with kind of call it the void.

[10:17] Um,

[10:18] sort of like this void state where

[10:19] you're outside of space and time

[10:22] and

[10:23] just feeling like I was looking around

[10:25] in the space going, "Oh, this is really

[10:27] familiar to me."

[10:29] >> Mhm.

[10:29] >> I've I've I've been here before but

[10:31] really being really astounded that I

[10:35] would I reached it strictly through

[10:37] breathing whereas every other time that

[10:39] I had experienced this, you know, there

[10:41] had been a major psychedelic

[10:44] involved.

[10:45] And so quickly

[10:47] I started to replicate that and kind of

[10:49] practice it and put it to music. You

[10:52] know, I was I was playing music that you

[10:54] know, I was hearing in ceremonies.

[10:57] Just like a lot of you know, sort of

[10:59] budding psychonauts, you know, I my

[11:02] musical choices were changing and I was

[11:04] listening to a lot of medicine music and

[11:07] so started to kind of program the

[11:10] breathwork and the music to align with

[11:13] each other all on my own not knowing at

[11:16] first that there were you know, full

[11:18] kind of modalities like holotropic

[11:20] breathwork where that arc is you know,

[11:23] very similar, right? The music is

[11:25] following the trajectory of this

[11:27] non-ordinary

[11:28] consciousness experience. And so when I

[11:31] you know, like I said when I first

[11:32] discovered

[11:34] Michael and and neurodynamic breath work

[11:37] the

[11:39] it was actually really difficult to

[11:41] focus on during that first breath work

[11:44] experience because everything that I was

[11:46] experiencing

[11:48] was what was in my head that I had been

[11:51] trying to figure out. How do I do this?

[11:53] How do I get this from a single person's

[11:56] experience to something that I could

[11:58] support other people with or

[12:01] share with them? How could I scale this

[12:04] out? And then here I was in this

[12:06] container where it was all like I was

[12:09] the participant and it was such a

[12:11] revelation to me. So like literally

[12:13] right after I did that first experience

[12:15] with him I emailed him and said this was

[12:19] amazing. This is exactly what I'm

[12:20] looking for and he said oh, that's

[12:22] really cool. We're just starting our

[12:24] first facilitator cohort in a few months

[12:28] and I signed up pretty much on the spot.

[12:35] >> Amazing. You've been [clears throat]

[12:35] with it ever since. How long ago was

[12:36] that?

[12:38] >> That was

[12:40] I started doing the training with him in

[12:42] 2019. So we kind of graduated during the

[12:45] end of the you know, during COVID.

[12:47] >> Okay. The pandemic.

[12:48] Yeah.

[12:49] >> Yeah and and been doing neurodynamic

[12:52] breath work facilitating that since

[12:54] 2020. Then I went and I started doing

[12:59] some more clinical work and because of

[13:01] that what what felt like I needed to

[13:03] kind of broaden my toolkit.

[13:06] So I did the oxygen advantage program

[13:09] for more functional breathing and to

[13:10] learn more nervous system regulation

[13:12] type techniques and then have been doing

[13:15] holotropic breath work for the last

[13:17] three years as well.

[13:19] >> Yeah. What I guess like it sounds like

[13:21] you have like a lot of training in all

[13:23] sorts of different breath work. Like how

[13:25] do you kind of like conceptualize breath

[13:27] work? So I know that it is an umbrella

[13:29] term and there's like these different

[13:31] practices maybe for different reasons.

[13:33] >> Yeah. Yeah, that's a great question. So,

[13:35] especially for the kind of context of

[13:38] psychedelic integration, um I'll start

[13:40] broad and kind of wide and then like

[13:42] move inwards. So, we've been talking

[13:44] about like the more holotropic

[13:47] um states, holotropic being this term

[13:49] coined by Dr. Stan Grof, um meaning

[13:52] moving towards wholeness in the same way

[13:54] that a plant would move towards the

[13:56] light, um that there's this part of our

[13:59] psyche that orientates towards

[14:01] wholeness,

[14:02] um and that that movement can be

[14:05] accelerated

[14:06] um and supported during

[14:09] um psychedelic or non-ordinary um states

[14:11] of consciousness, whether that be

[14:13] breathwork, uh medicine work, um you

[14:16] know, Kundalini yoga, meditation, all

[14:18] there's all different types of um these

[14:20] experiences. So, the breathwork can be

[14:24] the vehicle for the the experience in

[14:27] and of itself, right? Um just like the

[14:30] dream shadow breathwork that you

[14:31] practice, um which is in that same kind

[14:34] of uh Grofian lineage, um we're

[14:37] breathing in a way that's inducing a uh

[14:39] reliable non-ordinary uh state

[14:42] experience.

[14:43] And then the the second kind of category

[14:46] that I would

[14:47] bucket breathwork in is using the breath

[14:50] to affect the nervous system.

[14:52] >> Mhm.

[14:53] >> Um to re- to regulate both into the, you

[14:56] know, parasympathetic into that rest and

[14:59] and uh and digest kind of state, or

[15:02] sometimes into, you know, more active um

[15:05] you know, moving more towards the

[15:07] sympathetic um for resilience, for

[15:11] building your capacity to to work in

[15:14] those states. And I think that this is

[15:16] really important for psychedelic work

[15:18] because psychedelic work is inherently

[15:21] dysregulating. Like, it's going to do

[15:23] things to your nervous system,

[15:26] um especially when big emotions come up

[15:28] or, you know, big energy shifts um that

[15:31] can feel overwhelming, that can feel,

[15:34] you know, kind of scary or, you know, um

[15:37] challenging to work with. So, having

[15:40] tools to help to regulate yourself and

[15:43] stay grounded in those uh experiences

[15:48] um and and training your nervous system

[15:49] to be able to to to work with those

[15:52] experiences, I think is is super

[15:53] valuable for people that are doing

[15:56] psychedelic work.

[15:57] And then to like

[15:59] narrow it down even more, I would say

[16:01] that there's breathwork for awareness

[16:04] itself. Right? So, being able to just

[16:07] simply be with whatever material is

[16:11] coming up.

[16:13] Um to to be able to

[16:16] uh

[16:16] be with the insights and that

[16:19] expansiveness that can happen in a

[16:21] psychedelic state, but also to be able

[16:23] to just simply sit with maybe those

[16:26] powerful emotions,

[16:28] um

[16:28] the material that may have been

[16:30] repressed or

[16:31] um unknown before the the the the

[16:34] journey itself, and just to be able to

[16:37] like simply be and observe that. So,

[16:39] that's tied in with somatic awareness,

[16:42] um with meditation, but, you know, there

[16:44] there are breathwork practices around

[16:46] that and arguably, one would say

[16:48] meditation is a type of breathwork.

[16:51] >> Right? Yeah, I think it's you know, I

[16:52] think a lot of meditation does come down

[16:54] to like becoming aware of the breath,

[16:56] right? And just like kind of slowing

[16:57] down and

[16:59] Oh, there it is.

[17:01] >> Yeah.

[17:02] Exactly.

[17:03] >> Yeah.

[17:03] >> Yeah, so so breathwork, you know, I

[17:06] think is ap- applicable across a pretty

[17:08] wide spectrum

[17:10] of um use cases, especially for for

[17:13] psychedelic work.

[17:14] >> Yeah. And I think I don't know. I guess

[17:17] we're probably both pretty biased here,

[17:18] but like it does seem like a really

[17:21] important tool kit to have for the

[17:23] preparation, for navigation, and for

[17:25] like integration.

[17:27] Um I'm curious like when you talked

[17:29] about like using breathwork for

[17:32] integration and like you having some of

[17:34] those like experiences with it, like

[17:37] what made you realize that was like a

[17:39] beneficial tool to start to like use

[17:42] breathwork as like an integrative

[17:43] practice?

[17:45] >> Like us for me, especially back then, it

[17:48] was just realizing that there was only

[17:50] so much time

[17:52] that I could spend in an altered state

[17:55] from a psychedelic. Like I can't I can't

[17:58] take ayahuasca like every day or, you

[18:01] know, mushrooms. Like I I have to be a

[18:03] little bit more um

[18:05] you know, selective with the time that

[18:07] I'm choosing to go into those ceremonial

[18:10] altered spaces. So, to me it felt like

[18:14] really really great to just have more

[18:16] time in the space. Um to have like more

[18:19] time to explore

[18:22] um or to work on the material that had

[18:24] been coming up. And even for instance,

[18:27] you know, before we hit record, um

[18:30] we were talking about I I just finished

[18:31] a 10-day holotropic breathwork retreat.

[18:35] And about a month ago I had a

[18:38] a medicine experience that was really

[18:40] deep and and, you know, I've been

[18:42] working on integrating some of the stuff

[18:44] that's come up. So, during my first

[18:46] breathwork session,

[18:47] um you know, last week, the material

[18:51] that came up was like pretty much just a

[18:53] direct continuation of not only what had

[18:57] come up in my mushroom journey, but like

[18:59] what I'd been working to integrate, you

[19:01] know, since then. So, it just really

[19:03] gave me another chunk of time to

[19:06] continue to explore that, to deepen it,

[19:09] and to, you know, just continue to let

[19:12] it unfold, right?

[19:14] >> Yeah. And when you say it was like a

[19:15] continuation, you know, I think there's

[19:17] a lot of folks that have heard this like

[19:19] breath work can be psychedelic and

[19:21] there's a lot of kind of like skepticism

[19:23] there. I was one of those folks as well.

[19:26] Um what do you mean by that? Like how

[19:28] can like, you know, breath work help

[19:31] with the continuation of an experience

[19:33] or

[19:35] is it similar to psychedelics?

[19:38] >> Yeah, absolutely. I mean, I think you

[19:39] have posted some articles about, you

[19:42] know, the the research being done that

[19:44] that holotropic types of breath work can

[19:46] be,

[19:47] um you know, equivalent to about a, you

[19:49] know, medium dose of psilocybin. Um

[19:52] there's certainly some other research

[19:54] that suggests that similar parts of the

[19:58] brain are being affected, um

[20:00] specifically like the default mode

[20:01] network. Um you know, less activity

[20:04] going into that. So that there's similar

[20:08] um kind of neural pathways being

[20:10] affected um with breath work as um you

[20:14] know, as psychedelics, specifically

[20:17] psilocybin and and LSD. Um

[20:20] so yeah, for me

[20:23] it's interesting because whenever I feel

[20:25] like

[20:27] I've got breath work figured out,

[20:31] there it seems like there's another

[20:32] layer that peels off. Like for instance,

[20:35] there is there is a

[20:37] you know, often often within breath work

[20:40] you know, you know, Grof's kind of motto

[20:43] is make it bigger. And then within

[20:45] holotropic breath work, the they say the

[20:48] healing is happening through

[20:49] intensification of the symptom. So

[20:52] you're you're encouraged when

[20:54] something's coming up, when you feel an

[20:55] emotion, like breathe into it. Try see

[20:58] if you can make it bigger. Like

[20:59] whatever's happening, just amplify it,

[21:01] right? But one of my mentors

[21:04] said to me one day, um

[21:07] you know, this is also a receiving

[21:09] practice.

[21:10] So, rather than pushing, can you just be

[21:13] with whatever's happening?

[21:15] >> Yeah.

[21:15] >> And I had this really profound

[21:18] breathwork experience after that because

[21:21] I got to a point where

[21:24] it was sort of a crossroads in the

[21:25] experience where I'm like, okay, this is

[21:27] normally where I would start to push and

[21:29] make it bigger and like try to make

[21:32] something happen.

[21:34] And instead I was I you know, I heard

[21:37] her words and I was like, okay, I'm just

[21:38] going to lay back, I'm going to receive,

[21:40] I'm just going to open to whatever is

[21:42] happening.

[21:43] And I dropped into this space that felt

[21:45] so deep

[21:47] that I really had very little reference

[21:51] point for what was happening. And when I

[21:54] came out of it, the only thing that I

[21:56] could compare it to was

[21:59] that sort of deconstruction that happens

[22:03] in the 5-MeO-DMT experience.

[22:05] >> Mhm.

[22:06] >> Where you're like your your self kind of

[22:09] deconstructs and you just join into this

[22:11] unity sort of consciousness um, and stay

[22:15] there for a while. And I was so just

[22:18] blown away by, oh, I really thought, you

[22:22] know, after I've had hundreds of these

[22:24] experiences and facilitated, you know,

[22:26] quite a bit that I really understood

[22:28] what was happening. But here I was in

[22:31] like a space that felt brand new and

[22:33] really, really intense.

[22:35] >> [snorts]

[22:36] >> I think that's just the thing with

[22:38] working with non-ordinary experiences

[22:40] and states, right? Like it's like once

[22:42] we think we got it figured out Nope,

[22:44] there's something else there as well.

[22:47] >> Yeah, and and Grof, you know, Grof very,

[22:51] um, has extensively cataloged kind of

[22:53] what happens in non-ordinary states. So,

[22:56] that was another reason that I really

[22:58] kind of gravitated towards holotropic

[23:00] breathwork. And you know, Grof you know,

[23:02] according to his cartography of the

[23:04] psyche, there's these sort of three

[23:06] buckets of experiences that can come up.

[23:09] Um, the bi- anything biographical, the

[23:12] perinatal, anything that happened during

[23:14] the breath the birth process, and then

[23:16] the transpersonal.

[23:18] So, the transpersonal is really where

[23:20] things can

[23:22] um the lines between what what's

[23:23] happening in the psychedelic space and

[23:25] the breathwork space can really blur

[23:27] together. I've had

[23:29] um you know, past life experiences

[23:31] within breathwork, um

[23:34] you know, experiences of encountering,

[23:36] you know, deities or different, you

[23:38] know, entities, different energies.

[23:40] Um even like connecting to more of an

[23:43] archetypal, you know, kind of energy,

[23:45] whether that's

[23:47] um you know, feeling grief or pain for

[23:50] the collective, for humanity,

[23:53] um or

[23:54] you know, within my own like family

[23:56] lineage. Um things that just, you know,

[23:58] aren't quite easily explainable through

[24:02] uh you know, our western psych-

[24:04] psychological understanding.

[24:07] >> I think that's what turned me on to like

[24:08] that framework, too, right? It's like

[24:09] some of the other breathwork practices,

[24:11] like I think just didn't come with like

[24:14] that cartography of the psyche that

[24:15] could like really hold everything to be

[24:18] like, oh, this is what it's like, you

[24:21] know, possibly going on. Um and I think

[24:23] like having that was always like really

[24:26] beneficial.

[24:27] Um I'm curious, you know, as you were

[24:29] talking about this like concept of like

[24:32] making it bigger, and then like, you

[24:34] know,

[24:36] having this other experience of like not

[24:38] making it bigger, like how have you been

[24:41] kind of I guess thinking about that,

[24:43] right? Cuz there's a lot of emphasis on

[24:45] catharsis, whether that's in the

[24:47] psychedelic space, and also in the

[24:49] breathwork space, and I'm guilty of that

[24:50] as well. But, I've done a lot of

[24:52] reflecting on this over the years, too,

[24:54] and I think I've really kind of like

[24:55] shifted my perspective there, and it

[24:57] sounds like you have too, so I'm

[24:58] wondering like is catharsis always

[25:00] needed? Should we always seek catharsis?

[25:03] Should we always make it bigger? You

[25:04] know, I know Stan's got that quote, um

[25:06] the full expression of a negative

[25:08] emotion is the funeral pyre of that

[25:09] emotion. You know, and it's like we want

[25:11] to make it bigger to like feed the fire

[25:13] to just like completely burn it out, but

[25:16] is that always appropriate?

[25:18] >> [laughter]

[25:19] >> I love that you're bringing this up.

[25:20] It's uh

[25:22] it's something I've been thinking about

[25:24] a lot, and even you know, within this

[25:26] last uh retreat there were a couple of

[25:29] sessions where

[25:31] my experiences were very internal

[25:34] even though there was a lot of like a

[25:37] lot of emotion coming up, a lot of um

[25:40] sort of internal like self-driven

[25:42] catharsis. And then there was a couple

[25:44] of experiences where I was working with

[25:46] facilitators. There was a there was a

[25:48] lot of external things happening, a lot

[25:51] of big like, you know, physical

[25:54] processes.

[25:56] And after um

[25:59] you know, after the the last two, which

[26:01] were really really big,

[26:03] um you know, I had peers approaching me

[26:06] sort of in the integration circle saying

[26:08] like wow, you really did a lot of good

[26:10] work today.

[26:12] And I'm sitting there going I did I did

[26:14] good work even when you couldn't see it

[26:16] or it wasn't happening externally. Like

[26:19] what why why do we put so much emphasis

[26:22] on those big cathartic uh moments where

[26:27] um

[26:28] but to

[26:30] to to answer your question a little bit

[26:31] more directly um I think that sometimes

[26:35] it's a process.

[26:37] And for me there's there's there's

[26:39] discernment around

[26:42] is this something that I need to make

[26:44] bigger or something that I can just sit

[26:45] with. And I've had that I've had those

[26:48] experiences recently with medicine and

[26:51] with breathwork, you know, in my recent

[26:54] in my recent medicine journey,

[26:56] um

[26:57] when it came time to do the booster,

[27:00] I was in the middle of processing this

[27:03] absolute terror and just trying to get

[27:06] this terror out of my body, and there

[27:08] was no way that I wanted to take any

[27:11] more medicine.

[27:13] But after that wave kind of passed,

[27:16] I started to feel this like there's this

[27:19] little voice inside that was like, "Hey,

[27:20] you're already here.

[27:22] Like let's go. Let's go further, you

[27:25] know?"

[27:26] And

[27:27] I talked about it with my facilitator.

[27:30] And ultimately, I decided that

[27:33] this was a good like not taking more was

[27:37] a really good lesson for me because in

[27:39] the past, I would have just been like,

[27:42] "All right, let's just take as much as

[27:43] possible. Let's go as big as we can."

[27:46] And so that there was value in like

[27:47] staying where I was, which was, you

[27:50] know, very deep already. Like I didn't

[27:53] need to push any further.

[27:55] Um

[27:56] and

[27:57] you know, then then the experiences that

[28:00] I've shared with you about the

[28:01] breathwork,

[28:02] um

[28:03] I find for me personally,

[28:06] there's it's learning to listen and have

[28:09] that inner discernment. And when there's

[28:11] something that is going to continue to

[28:14] develop and get bigger,

[28:18] I can't really ignore

[28:20] that internal message. It might start

[28:22] really, really far away

[28:24] and be like a little, little, teeny,

[28:26] tiny whisper.

[28:27] And in the breathwork, what that's

[28:28] looked like is like,

[28:30] "Okay, I hear something.

[28:32] I don't necessarily want to pay

[28:33] attention to it, but it's there." And

[28:36] then it might evolve into, "I'll take

[28:38] care of this by myself."

[28:39] >> Mhm.

[28:40] >> Like I'll give myself some self-touch,

[28:42] for instance.

[28:44] And then it's like, "Nope, that's it's

[28:45] doing it." And then like, "Okay, well,

[28:47] I'll reach out and hold my sitter's

[28:49] hand." Is that going to do it?

[28:52] No. And so, like it it's it'll continue

[28:54] to develop until,

[28:56] you know, it reaches that that funeral

[28:59] pyre, you know, kind of moment or or

[29:01] process. But sometimes that takes a a

[29:04] lot of time and it might take multiple

[29:06] sessions to really learn to trust that

[29:10] voice. Um you know, certainly I I know

[29:13] that that's been my experience and and

[29:16] I've talked to lots of other people and

[29:17] and clients I've worked with where it's

[29:19] like

[29:20] it might not happen the first time. It's

[29:22] so It's so challenging for us to ask for

[29:25] help sometimes, you know, or or or trust

[29:28] that in that inner discernment. So,

[29:31] um I think that's the great thing about,

[29:33] you know, framing it in that model of

[29:35] the inner healer or that movement

[29:37] towards wholeness that we were talking

[29:38] about is like

[29:40] um

[29:41] even, you know, even psychosis

[29:43] can be this you know, this this this

[29:46] opening, this this movement towards

[29:47] wholeness and ultimately

[29:51] I'm not there with my clients to say,

[29:54] "No, no, you need to do this more or

[29:55] less." I I trust in their inner healer.

[29:58] I trust in their unfolding process and

[30:01] I'm there to support them in that. So,

[30:03] that was another like real um you know,

[30:07] keeper moment with with one of my

[30:09] mentors is she said, "Look, I I trust

[30:11] your inner healer until you trust your

[30:13] inner healer." And that's what I'm here

[30:15] for.

[30:16] >> Yeah.

[30:18] I guess like on that topic of

[30:19] discernment, like

[30:21] what if people are getting like messages

[30:24] that

[30:25] that maybe they shouldn't be listening

[30:26] to, right? Like how do you like really

[30:29] distill discernment and like really know

[30:31] what to to listen to? You know, you're

[30:32] bringing up psychosis and it's making me

[30:34] think about like

[30:36] some folks I used to work with with

[30:37] early episode psychosis and like some of

[30:39] that stuff that they were receiving

[30:42] wasn't always necessarily like positive,

[30:44] right? And there was a part of me that

[30:46] wanted to like show up and be like, you

[30:47] know, this inner healer, healing inner

[30:49] healing intelligence, this like more

[30:52] kind of like spiritual emergence

[30:53] framework, and then all of a sudden it's

[30:55] like, wait a minute, but is this stuff

[30:57] that people should be listening to all

[30:59] the time? And you know, psychosis I

[31:01] think is the extreme end, but you know,

[31:03] I know that sometimes that paranoid

[31:04] thinking um and you know, really kind of

[31:07] like difficult emotions and feelings can

[31:09] come through in psychosis and

[31:10] breathwork. But yeah, I think it's the

[31:13] question of discernment, like what do we

[31:14] listen to?

[31:16] >> Mhm.

[31:17] It's such a good question, right? And

[31:20] it

[31:22] I guess I would say

[31:24] at least in my own experience, sometimes

[31:26] this journey isn't linear.

[31:28] You know, like I've I've gone through

[31:30] those experiences, too, where like, man,

[31:32] I wish I could go back and and change

[31:34] some of the decisions that I made,

[31:36] especially around medicine work. Um you

[31:39] know, but

[31:41] the even though some of those

[31:42] experiences have been really

[31:44] challenging, and maybe I would have been

[31:46] better off

[31:47] uh taking a different decision at the

[31:49] time,

[31:50] it led me to exactly this moment.

[31:53] And there's a lot of gifts and things

[31:54] that I've been given and and I've

[31:57] learned through sometimes really

[31:59] challenging processes. And I and I think

[32:02] that that's a human

[32:03] thing, especially for us facilitators,

[32:06] where we want to help. You know, you see

[32:08] someone struggling, and and the impulse

[32:10] is like, oh man, it would it would be so

[32:13] much easier if they just did it this

[32:15] way,

[32:16] but that's not their journey.

[32:18] You know, and and at the end of the day,

[32:19] I can just be there to support them

[32:22] through, you know, not only the

[32:24] the beauty and the like the bliss and

[32:26] the ecstasy, but the the challenging

[32:28] things, as well.

[32:30] >> Yeah. Yeah.

[32:31] Um

[32:34] I had a question, just slipped my mind.

[32:36] Um maybe it'll come back. Um, but yeah,

[32:39] the it's it's so nuanced at times, too,

[32:41] right? Like I was just actually chatting

[32:45] with somebody a little bit before this

[32:46] around um like spiritual emergence

[32:49] processes, and I was reflecting on my

[32:51] own, and I think it took about like 5

[32:54] years to like really work through that

[32:56] experience. And I think about it, I'm

[32:59] like, I don't ever want to go through

[33:00] something like that again, and I don't

[33:02] ever wish that upon anybody.

[33:05] Um, but as you're saying, right? Like, I

[33:07] don't think I would actually be doing

[33:08] any of this work if I didn't go through

[33:10] that process.

[33:12] Um, and in some way it's like,

[33:13] retrospectively, you know, I've had time

[33:16] to sit and integrate with it, and

[33:17] breathwork was a huge part of

[33:19] integrating those those really

[33:21] challenging experiences.

[33:23] Um, but it was like, yeah, if I didn't

[33:26] go through that, like I don't know if

[33:28] I'd actually be doing this work. I think

[33:30] my life would have taken a totally

[33:32] different turn. But it was like such a

[33:35] silly thing. I was like reading this uh

[33:37] I was doing an independent study on

[33:39] warriorship in my undergrad, and there

[33:41] was a a stupid quote. It was like, you

[33:43] know, life's like a tea bag. It dips you

[33:45] in hot water to see how strong you are.

[33:47] It was like a lightning bolt moment, and

[33:48] I said, "Oh my god, that's it. This is

[33:50] what this whole process has been. I've

[33:52] been the tea bag, just submerged in hot

[33:55] water.

[33:56] Um, and I'm like, oh, okay. Like, that's

[34:00] I think why all this stuff has happened

[34:02] to me." But yeah, I don't wish that upon

[34:03] anybody, you know, it's also terrifying

[34:05] to be stuck in a process like that.

[34:08] >> Right. Right. Yeah, I remember feeling

[34:10] angry for several years whenever I'd

[34:13] hear these sort of platitudes of like

[34:15] everything happens for a reason, or, you

[34:18] know, like I'd be like, "Who the hell

[34:20] are you to tell me that?" Like, you

[34:21] know, and and I still I still feel

[34:23] really strongly about just what you're

[34:25] saying, that that these journeys and

[34:28] dark nights of the soul, or, you know,

[34:30] spiritual emergencies that we go

[34:32] through,

[34:33] um

[34:34] it's really important not to,

[34:36] um

[34:38] not to take other people's judgments or

[34:41] opinions as the gospel, that really it's

[34:43] it's up to us to find our own truth, and

[34:47] it's been so important for me to have

[34:49] people around me that share that view,

[34:52] and you know, can reframe it for me.

[34:55] Like, even within this last medicine uh

[34:57] journey that I had, which was

[34:59] the intention that I had going into it

[35:01] was

[35:02] healing some of the the trauma around,

[35:05] um you know, a psychedelic experience.

[35:08] And, um

[35:11] having facilitators around me that I

[35:14] could talk to, and elders even, that

[35:16] were like

[35:17] yeah, this is this is this was an

[35:19] initiation for you.

[35:21] Rather than oh, this was horrible, or

[35:24] this was this, this was that. Um you

[35:27] know, one of one of my elders you know,

[35:29] I was and I didn't even describe it to

[35:32] him in detail, but he said

[35:34] you know, you're

[35:35] you're like a a snake shedding its skin,

[35:37] and that's when the snake is the most

[35:39] vulnerable, is right in that moment

[35:42] after the skin comes off.

[35:44] Um so, yeah, I I I I think that for me,

[35:47] and just like just what you're saying um

[35:50] I wouldn't I would not be here. I would

[35:52] not be doing the type of work that I'm

[35:53] doing. I I would not have the

[35:56] understanding of trauma that I do. I

[35:58] definitely wouldn't have done

[36:00] the Somatic Experiencing program, which

[36:02] was another 3-year, you know, training.

[36:05] >> Um cuz I thought I understood trauma.

[36:08] And I understood complex trauma, but I

[36:09] didn't I didn't know what trauma

[36:11] actually was, you know, what shock

[36:13] trauma does to somebody. So, the for me

[36:16] being able to sit with somebody that's,

[36:18] you know, experienced PTSD, or

[36:22] um you know, has an anxiety disorder, or

[36:24] like severe depression, which to me all

[36:27] stems back to trauma.

[36:30] Now, it's it's a real blessing and it's

[36:32] a real gift and I wouldn't have been

[36:33] able to do that with how without going

[36:35] through my own,

[36:37] you know, initiation process. And just

[36:39] like you said, I wouldn't wish that on

[36:41] anyone, but I remember

[36:44] I remember talking about it one day and

[36:47] I said, you know, if I could go back and

[36:49] change it, I wouldn't. And I like

[36:51] literally had to stop myself and do like

[36:53] an internal check of, am I being serious

[36:55] right now? Am I am I posturing, you

[36:58] know, to to sound cool or to sound like

[37:00] I know what I'm talking about? And, you

[37:02] know, when I looked inside, I was, no,

[37:04] I'm wow.

[37:06] I've I've gotten to this point where I

[37:07] can say that to myself and really mean

[37:09] it of like, well, I wouldn't change

[37:10] this. This is this is just a part of my

[37:12] journey.

[37:14] >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, and that takes I think

[37:16] a lot of work to get there, you know, to

[37:19] actually just like accept what what has

[37:22] happened. Um, you know, you're bringing

[37:23] up like somatic experiencing.

[37:26] Um, and I think I actually like brought

[37:27] this up with uh Peter Levine when I uh

[37:29] chatted with him.

[37:31] And I I this goes back to this whole

[37:33] catharsis thing. You know, I

[37:35] in one of his books, I forget what book

[37:37] it was, he was talking about how

[37:39] um, during like the Esalen period,

[37:42] anything I think it was like he said,

[37:44] quote unquote, the primal therapies that

[37:46] came out of Esalen actually created more

[37:49] trauma for people. It retraumatized

[37:51] people

[37:52] um, because of like all this catharsis.

[37:54] Has your like training in somatic

[37:56] experience kind of like, I don't know,

[37:59] shed different light on this type of

[38:02] work, whether it's in psychedelics or

[38:03] like holotropic breathwork where there

[38:05] can be that big catharsis?

[38:08] >> Yeah, and it's such a great this is such

[38:10] a great topic um, because that was that

[38:13] was me in the beginning of SE training

[38:15] was coming in as a breathwork

[38:17] facilitator. That's that's how they let

[38:19] me in, you know, SE training they don't

[38:21] just let anybody in. The majority of the

[38:23] people are therapists and um

[38:26] I was a working

[38:28] breathwork facilitator working at a

[38:29] residential treatment and could could

[38:31] prove that. And so they were like,

[38:33] "Okay, you're qualified to to enter this

[38:35] program." But at in the beginning it

[38:37] felt very polarized. Like on the one

[38:40] side, you've got this make it bigger,

[38:42] you know, burn it all down, Grofian kind

[38:45] of perspective. And then on the other is

[38:46] Peter Levine's titration and you know,

[38:50] um like take it slow and and and and it

[38:53] really was challenging for me at first

[38:56] to find how do these two systems work

[38:58] together?

[39:00] What really helped me, honestly, was my

[39:02] advanced year of of SE training

[39:06] um with Raja Selvam

[39:08] uh who really talked about how um in in

[39:12] Raja was the the first teacher that

[39:14] Peter invited to teach SE back when he

[39:17] started to scale it out. Now there's

[39:19] like probably I don't know, 50 or 60

[39:22] different, you know, people on their

[39:23] teaching staff. Um but he said, "You

[39:25] know, I feel like

[39:27] um I feel like SE practitioners are too

[39:30] afraid nowadays to get in there. Um you

[39:33] know, somebody's coming to you because

[39:36] they want to be able to get on the

[39:37] airplane next week. They don't have a

[39:39] year to learn how to track. Um so like

[39:42] don't be afraid to get in there with

[39:44] them and like work on the the emotion,

[39:46] which is at the you know, yes, we're

[39:48] working with sensation, but what's

[39:50] underneath that sensation? What's

[39:51] causing that sensation? It's emotion,

[39:53] right? Um and so being able to like get

[39:56] in there and and be with the root of

[39:58] that. And so to me, it really gave me a

[40:01] lot of permission to um to make it

[40:05] bigger in its own way. Like maybe not

[40:07] taking it to the extreme of of

[40:09] holotropic breathwork, but to to not shy

[40:12] away from like being with my with my

[40:16] client and allowing things to come up

[40:20] when they were coming up organically.

[40:22] And I think that's a big part of SE is

[40:24] like not pushing for catharsis, but also

[40:28] being able to develop enough resiliency

[40:31] in the nervous system where these big

[40:33] experiences can emerge and then being

[40:36] able to hold that.

[40:38] And not and you know, and I've seen it

[40:40] I've seen it in other SE practitioners

[40:42] not to be like a snob or anything, but

[40:44] where they're like oh like they're

[40:45] starting to back away from it from the

[40:48] intensity

[40:49] and I think because of the breathwork

[40:51] experience, I'm like no, this is this is

[40:53] where some good stuff's going to emerge

[40:55] if it's happening organically like let's

[40:57] let's let it happen.

[40:59] >> I think you bring up like a good I mean

[41:01] I maybe this is pointing to the you

[41:04] know, the facilitator the practitioners

[41:06] nervous system. You know, you're talking

[41:07] about like the client's nervous system,

[41:09] but how much of that is actually within

[41:11] us? How much can we hold, right? Before

[41:14] we start getting like anxious or scared

[41:16] of like this is too much, right? Like

[41:18] how much is that really on us and our

[41:20] nervous system and and how we're like

[41:22] co-regulating with somebody.

[41:24] >> 100% 100%. I think the more that we can

[41:27] be regulated, the more that we feel safe

[41:31] holding the space and and helping them

[41:33] to co-regulate, that's just going to

[41:35] create more safety for for our clients

[41:38] and um

[41:39] yeah, that's that's where my work has

[41:41] been kind of moving towards in the last

[41:44] year especially. Um I have a training

[41:46] that's coming up in November that's

[41:48] specifically designed for facilitators

[41:51] and clinicians on how to integrate some

[41:53] of these tools with you know, it within

[41:55] clinical work and within people that are

[41:57] doing you know, ketamine assisted

[41:59] psychotherapy or other working with

[42:00] other psychedelics because because of

[42:02] exactly what you're saying. Like it's so

[42:04] important for us to be regulated and and

[42:07] be present um so that we can hold these

[42:10] things that that coming up within their

[42:11] experiences.

[42:13] >> Yeah. What does that training look like?

[42:15] >> Um it's 3 days um and kind of

[42:19] kind of follows the the reverse of the

[42:22] of what I shared. Um so it starts with

[42:23] awareness and somatics.

[42:25] Um then we move into nervous system

[42:28] regulation, first down regulation

[42:31] um for grounding, for stabilization, but

[42:34] then up regulation to help clients that

[42:37] maybe want to experience psychedelics,

[42:39] but might feel overwhelmed or flooded if

[42:42] they went right into that. So giving

[42:44] them like either a little taste of a

[42:46] non-ordinary experience or even just

[42:48] stressing the nervous system a little

[42:50] bit, you know, the giving them that sort

[42:52] of like hormesis type of um you know,

[42:55] stress, right? Like in the same way

[42:57] that, you know, going into a sauna or an

[43:00] ice bath can help with um improving

[43:03] nervous system resiliency.

[43:05] Um having a little bit What I found

[43:08] especially in a clinical setting is

[43:10] giving someone whose nervous system is

[43:13] really like has a low capacity or gets

[43:17] flooded really easily,

[43:19] um giving them that little experience of

[43:21] expansion, but then coming back into

[43:25] regulation um helps the the nervous

[43:28] system start to reorganize and and and

[43:30] expand and feel a little bit safer

[43:33] moving into, you know, some territory

[43:35] that might feel otherwise unsafe. And

[43:37] then the last day we're doing um like a

[43:39] full neurodynamic experiential

[43:42] um kind of experience. So

[43:44] it's um it's in person in St. Paul and

[43:47] online at the same time. And um because

[43:50] we're doing it in Minnesota, we've

[43:52] gotten it approved for 14 CEUs um there

[43:55] in the state.

[43:55] >> Nice.

[43:56] >> Um I don't know how that works with

[43:58] people doing the online um exactly, but

[44:01] that was that was part of my vision was

[44:02] like I want this to be,

[44:04] you know, eligible for for CEs for for

[44:07] the people taking it.

[44:09] >> [snorts]

[44:09] >> Yeah, which can be important. I know a

[44:11] lot of renewals are coming up and I'm in

[44:13] that boat and need to try to knock out a

[44:15] bunch of credits before renewal happens.

[44:19] Um

[44:20] yeah.

[44:21] Uh

[44:22] Yeah, and I

[44:24] you've been having some like really

[44:26] funny uh threads recently about this

[44:28] topic, I feel like, too. So,

[44:31] um

[44:33] What are some of your haunted houses

[44:34] right now on [laughter] the on this

[44:36] topic?

[44:37] >> Yeah, that was the that was a funny one,

[44:38] right? Like well,

[44:40] you know, I think something that has

[44:43] been

[44:44] a big thorn in my side or a big, you

[44:46] know, this really grinds my gears types

[44:48] moment is, you know, folks that get like

[44:51] a weekend, you know, sort of go through

[44:53] a weekend training and then they're

[44:55] jumping into doing, you know, deep work

[44:57] with people. Or even, you know, and I've

[45:00] I've had this experience myself where,

[45:02] you know, you have a

[45:04] a deep psychedelic experience and the

[45:06] medicine says, "You're you're a shaman,

[45:08] like start serving medicine." And

[45:11] um I I get the appeal of that,

[45:13] especially like coming right out of a

[45:15] big peak experience, but what I've, you

[45:17] know, what I've said to clients is like,

[45:19] "Hey, you're actually choosing a really

[45:20] challenging

[45:22] path for yourself by doing this because

[45:25] it's it's um

[45:28] it's really necessary, if you're doing

[45:30] this type of work, to continue to do

[45:32] your own work for yourself. Like, if you

[45:34] look at holotropic breathwork just as an

[45:36] example for their training, you know,

[45:39] the the minimum that you can complete

[45:41] that program in is like somewhere within

[45:43] 2 to 3 years. And Grof the Grofs set it

[45:47] up that way because

[45:49] of the importance of doing your own work

[45:52] in this process, right? Um

[45:55] like that you really need to continue to

[45:58] to do your own work. Um so, yeah, that

[46:02] that's definitely a haunted house for me

[46:04] is like, you know, people that um have

[46:07] that sort of

[46:09] that that that vigor and that enthusiasm

[46:11] for holding space, but maybe haven't

[46:13] explored their own

[46:15] um shadows and like dark corners

[46:18] um or their their edges themselves and

[46:21] are trying to hold that for other

[46:22] people. Um and breathwork especially,

[46:24] well, I guess I guess all of this work

[46:26] it it can

[46:27] it seems really it you know

[46:30] I'm sure you've you've had this

[46:32] experience as well where, you know, you

[46:34] go through a session with someone and

[46:36] nothing happens externally. You know,

[46:39] they're like sort of laying there and

[46:41] you know, nothing nothing adverse

[46:43] happens, right? And so it's easy it's

[46:45] easy to get into that space of like, oh,

[46:47] I can do this. I've done it 10 times

[46:49] before, right? But then what happens

[46:51] when something does come up?

[46:53] You know, are you are you able to hold

[46:55] that space and support that person

[46:58] through a very tender and delicate time?

[47:01] And I think you probably see it much

[47:04] more than I do with the people that you

[47:06] talk to.

[47:07] Um you know, there there are adverse

[47:09] experiences that are happening for

[47:10] people because of the lack of

[47:13] facilitator training.

[47:15] Um

[47:16] you know, and and it's it's it's

[47:18] something that I feel very passionate

[47:20] about of like, hey, we we really need to

[47:22] be doing our own work and taking care of

[47:24] ourselves if we're going to be helping

[47:26] and supporting people through these

[47:27] spaces.

[47:29] >> Yeah, and I don't know yeah, it's I

[47:32] mean, it's obviously been something I've

[47:33] been thinking about for all these years

[47:35] like being in the education space and

[47:37] running training programs and you know,

[47:39] I always remind folks that like when I

[47:41] started on my breathwork journey, I

[47:44] didn't start off thinking, I want to

[47:45] facilitate this, right? It started off

[47:47] with like, whoa, this is super powerful

[47:50] and I want to keep learning about this.

[47:52] And I think I trained for over 4 years

[47:56] before even thinking about putting on

[47:58] like a small workshop for my friends.

[48:01] You know, I was like, I'm going to start

[48:02] small. I have no idea like how this is

[48:04] going to go, but I'm just going to kind

[48:05] of do it slowly. And that's like what my

[48:07] teachers really recommended, you know?

[48:09] Like Um and I feel so fortunate enough

[48:12] to to have studied with Lenny and

[48:15] Elizabeth because, you know, they also

[48:17] had so much mentorship and like such

[48:19] like a slow personal type of experience

[48:22] there. Um but, you know, it was like 4

[48:26] plus years of my own process of like

[48:28] just doing it and um

[48:31] not thinking like, "Oh, I want to go run

[48:33] and and facilitate this right away." But

[48:35] it's it's tough now, you know? It's like

[48:36] we do live in a culture where it's like

[48:39] that's more money, it's more time,

[48:41] things are like getting more expensive

[48:43] at times. We have like lived in this

[48:45] culture of like, you know, quick short

[48:47] certificate programs and just wanting to

[48:49] learn things right away and and apply

[48:51] it. But then also being very real and

[48:54] thinking like this you can't rush this

[48:55] work, you know? You also have to sit

[48:57] with it. You have to like really devote

[49:00] your energy to it and, you know, still

[49:03] like what I've been like

[49:05] studying this stuff for about like 20

[49:07] years at this point and

[49:10] I sometimes have no idea what the [ __ ]

[49:12] I'm doing. You [laughter] know? I'm just

[49:14] like every time I think I like I'm like,

[49:16] "Okay, yeah." And then I'm like, "Uh

[49:18] that one threw me for a loop. I don't

[49:20] know what just happened there."

[49:22] Um

[49:22] or like, "Yeah, like just you know, I

[49:26] cuz this work is alive, too. I mean,

[49:28] that's my perspective.

[49:29] >> Right.

[49:30] >> We're working with like this energetic

[49:32] field that feels alive and we could do

[49:35] the best prep we can do with folks. And

[49:37] I've seen this, you know, like over and

[49:40] over again where it's like, "Okay, like

[49:42] I knew somebody very well and I knew

[49:46] their story. I did some work with them."

[49:48] And then

[49:49] you know, would never expect a spiritual

[49:51] emergence process to unfold for for for

[49:54] a person, you know, and it's like

[49:57] we've done you know, we could have done

[49:58] everything right and still something is

[50:00] going to erupt. And I think that's what

[50:02] makes this work so interesting and like

[50:05] I always remind folks that that want to

[50:07] work in this field. It's like you know,

[50:09] what's what's your comfort level of

[50:10] uncertainty the unknown and chaos

[50:12] because you're certainly going to get it

[50:14] in this work in some way, shape or form.

[50:17] Maybe not right away, but but it does

[50:19] come eventually.

[50:21] >> 100%. I love that. You know, yeah, you

[50:24] you just

[50:25] you can't know everything that's going

[50:27] to happen.

[50:28] And sometimes it's just okay like being

[50:31] willing to

[50:33] to sit in really difficult and

[50:36] uncomfortable uncertainty and still kind

[50:38] of hold that space within yourself.

[50:41] Um

[50:43] it's one of the things I've really

[50:44] appreciated through the whole tropic

[50:46] training experience is like every time

[50:48] something has come up within me that I

[50:50] feel scared to talk about um where I

[50:52] feel like if I share this

[50:55] they're going to go

[50:57] okay, you can't do this work [laughter]

[50:58] anymore. Like you you got to go you got

[51:01] to go back to the beginning or you know,

[51:04] um and I you know, and I I'm

[51:07] I feel brave enough to share it with

[51:09] someone or I'll be in a consult and I'll

[51:11] be like hey, this is what's been coming

[51:12] up and it feels so scary to share. And

[51:16] you know, people just look at me and

[51:17] they go yeah, like you're a human being

[51:19] or oh, I feel that way too. We feel that

[51:21] way all the time. You know, you well,

[51:23] what do you do? You you just keep

[51:25] breathing. You sit with it. Like you you

[51:28] you you're you have the capacity to hold

[51:30] it and maybe can part like put it over

[51:32] here until after the clients are gone

[51:36] and then we will all sit and unpack it

[51:38] and and work on it together. So no one's

[51:40] ever no one's ever like shunned me or

[51:42] you know, that that fear that I have of

[51:44] like oh, you know,

[51:45] if you you if I'm if I'm honest, they're

[51:48] going to kick me out of this program. Um

[51:50] It's never happened.

[51:52] >> I remember one of the first workshops I

[51:53] did with Stan. I was like so excited and

[51:56] I was like, "Oh man, this is going to be

[51:57] great." And then they're doing kind of

[52:00] like the pre-check-ins and then they're

[52:03] they're calling some of the folks up to

[52:05] to chat with Stan and I hear my name

[52:07] called and I'm like, "Oh man, am I

[52:09] getting kicked out of here?" Cuz I was

[52:11] like thinking about what I put down on

[52:12] my health form, right? And put down like

[52:15] near-death experience, spiritual

[52:17] emergence, and you know, I remember he

[52:19] was sitting down like just asking me

[52:21] questions about it. I'm like, "Oh man,

[52:24] like am I going to get kicked out of

[52:25] here cuz I have this, right?"

[52:28] But yeah, that wasn't the case. And I

[52:29] think it's important that we

[52:32] are able to create those containers to

[52:34] like, you know, explore that, all of it,

[52:37] right? Without a lot of the judgment

[52:39] because we are human and like, you know,

[52:42] we're going to we're going to mess up,

[52:43] we're going to have mistakes. I mean,

[52:45] life's going to happen, things are going

[52:46] to happen to us and, you know, to be

[52:49] able to have that space of curiosity and

[52:52] and humility to be like, "Yeah,

[52:54] I might have messed up here. Like this

[52:55] is what's going on for me and

[52:58] >> Yeah, it's it's cool to be in spaces

[53:00] where

[53:02] maybe like maybe you don't know

[53:06] that the people that are holding the

[53:08] space and and are there to take care of

[53:10] you,

[53:11] like you could go so much farther

[53:15] than maybe you're even comfortable or

[53:17] that you know is inside of you,

[53:20] you know, like those are those moments

[53:22] where

[53:23] I feel really great and I feel really

[53:25] grateful to be in those spaces of like

[53:27] when someone's taking a little extra

[53:29] time with me.

[53:31] When I feel ready to go, for instance,

[53:33] after a session and the facilitator's

[53:36] like,

[53:37] "Hey, let's just hang out here for a

[53:38] minute."

[53:41] You know, taking that extra like little

[53:43] pause

[53:44] where something else that really did

[53:46] want to emerge, but I was trying to

[53:48] maybe like rush out of there and you

[53:50] know, not not deal with it.

[53:53] And to me like that's where the SE has

[53:55] really helped me a lot is like having

[53:56] that kind of somatic awareness of like

[53:59] when that's happening.

[54:00] Um

[54:02] and and to be able to um

[54:04] to invite those moments. Like, hey,

[54:06] you're you are free to go if you want,

[54:08] but like

[54:09] maybe let's just hang here for another

[54:11] few breaths.

[54:13] >> Well, and you talked to like earlier

[54:15] about like this almost being like a

[54:17] process, right? And it's like sometimes

[54:20] we're not always like aware of the

[54:22] process or curious about it. Like when

[54:24] you were uh telling uh me that story, it

[54:27] just reminded me of a

[54:29] an experience I had where I was trying

[54:30] to rush out and the facilitator like was

[54:32] like, "We're only like an hour and a

[54:33] half in. Like you're like, you know,

[54:36] like maybe just sit and listen to like a

[54:38] little bit more music to see like what

[54:40] happens there." And I could feel like

[54:42] the anger bubble up, be like, "You know,

[54:44] don't tell me like what my experience

[54:46] should be like. Like I feel like I'm

[54:47] done. I want to go draw." And then I was

[54:50] actually like glad they challenged me.

[54:51] And you know, this is somebody I had a a

[54:53] relationship with, so I feel like they

[54:55] they could challenge me in in that

[54:56] setting.

[54:57] Um

[54:59] and a really profound experience

[55:01] unfolded after that. Um

[55:04] like something that was just so so

[55:07] weird. It kind of just like rippled into

[55:08] my like day-to-day. Um but I was like,

[55:12] man, like would it have happened if I

[55:14] didn't you know, listen and sit with it,

[55:16] right? And like follow the process

[55:18] instead of being like, "No, I'm just

[55:20] like getting antsy and I just want to

[55:21] like go draw versus like, "Oh, yeah,

[55:24] [snorts] maybe there is something else

[55:25] here." Um which has got me thinking more

[55:28] about like you know, we talk about

[55:30] breathwork as breath being the main

[55:32] thing. And like I almost see breath as

[55:34] just like an adjunct to this internal

[55:37] process that's going on. And it's like

[55:39] we can use the breath in all sorts of

[55:41] different ways to amplify that process,

[55:44] but there's so much else going on

[55:46] internally that like, you know, I don't

[55:48] think we always need to focus on the

[55:50] breath as well. It's like how do we get

[55:52] focused and more curious about those

[55:54] internal cues and processes, right? Like

[55:57] what's going on in my body? What's that

[55:59] feeling? Like what happens if I move it,

[56:01] you know? Movement. And like I'm sure

[56:03] have you experienced it? Like you know,

[56:05] not even doing deep breathing, but it's

[56:06] just moving your body in a different

[56:08] way. Like really starts to like shake

[56:10] something else up.

[56:12] Um

[56:12] >> Yeah.

[56:13] I I what you just shared, I can't agree

[56:16] with it more and um I say it all the

[56:18] time of like, yeah, calling it breath

[56:20] work is sort of misleading. It's like a

[56:22] it's a red herring, you know?

[56:24] Um

[56:25] and you know, I've seen it it's it's

[56:27] funny cuz like it's it's actually helped

[56:30] me

[56:31] um like doing this work has helped me

[56:33] believe more in that model of growth,

[56:37] you know, that of the inner healer and

[56:38] of inner healing intelligence because

[56:41] I've experienced it myself and I've seen

[56:43] it tons of times with clients where

[56:47] something begins to unfold where the

[56:49] breathing

[56:51] couldn't have been the reason that it

[56:52] happened. Like like we haven't been

[56:54] breathing long enough or the breathing

[56:57] hasn't even started yet. We're still in

[56:58] the you know, the relaxation meditation

[57:01] before the actual breath work begins.

[57:05] >> Yeah.

[57:05] >> I'm always off in the [laughter]

[57:07] relaxation. I'm already like gone. I'm

[57:09] like, yeah.

[57:10] >> Yeah. And you know, and especially like

[57:13] for me going into more clinical work and

[57:15] doing shorter sessions, it it helped to

[57:18] to to strengthen my my faith and my

[57:20] belief in that model is like, okay, like

[57:24] it's one thing to say like, hey, we're

[57:25] going to do holotropic breath work and

[57:27] we're going to breathe for 3 hours and

[57:29] probably something's going to happen

[57:30] within that, you know, that time frame.

[57:32] Well, you're giving yourself a huge

[57:33] amount of time. But, like

[57:36] okay, we're going to breathe for 5, 10,

[57:38] 15 minutes, and some and people have

[57:41] these profound, deep experiences.

[57:45] That's a beautiful thing, and like to me

[57:47] that that really that really points

[57:50] [snorts] to one of the the foundations

[57:52] of of the doing this work, which is

[57:55] giving yourself permission.

[57:57] You know, some people would call it

[57:58] surrender. I think permission's like a a

[58:00] nicer way to say that, right? There's

[58:02] something internally where we're we're

[58:05] giving ourselves permission to be with

[58:06] whatever happens, you know, like a an

[58:09] affirmation that I often give to my

[58:10] clients is like, I am here now with

[58:12] this.

[58:14] And it and it's really applicable when

[58:15] something big and intense is happening

[58:18] within the the breath work experience,

[58:21] but so many of them have come back to me

[58:22] and said, you know, like I was in the

[58:24] doctor's office, and my appointment was

[58:27] an hour late, and there was a crying

[58:29] baby next to me, and like they're going

[58:31] on, and they're like, and I just came

[58:33] back to my breath, and I'm here now with

[58:35] this. And just being able to like be

[58:38] with what's happening instead of being

[58:40] like,

[58:41] I [clears throat] just wish this wasn't

[58:42] happening right now, you know?

[58:45] >> Being with this tough and

[58:47] >> [snorts]

[58:48] >> really tough thing to do, right? Cuz

[58:49] yeah, we always we always want things to

[58:51] shift, or we have expectations around

[58:54] things being a certain way versus like

[58:56] yeah, what does it feel like to just to

[58:58] to be with?

[59:00] >> Yeah.

[59:02] Yeah, absolutely.

[59:04] >> So, going back, um you said you were

[59:07] going to be become a professional DJ, or

[59:10] you were you were doing some DJing. And

[59:13] music is obviously like a huge part of

[59:15] of, you know, psychedelic work and

[59:17] breath work. Um who are some of like

[59:20] your top artists that you like for some

[59:22] of this work?

[59:23] >> Ooh, here's a great question. Um well,

[59:26] Byron Metcalf,

[59:28] um

[59:28] >> OG space.

[59:30] >> OG,

[59:31] um you know, kind of legendary shamanic

[59:34] practitioner and percussionist.

[59:37] Um East Forest is another artist that I

[59:40] really, really love.

[59:42] Um

[59:43] there's a there's a

[59:45] a composer that I been using a lot. Um

[59:49] you know, the the within Holotropic

[59:51] especially for people maybe that haven't

[59:53] experienced it. There's a there's a

[59:55] particular arc to the music. The first

[59:57] hour is very tribal and you know,

[1:00:00] shamanic, a lot of like indigenous kind

[1:00:03] of drumming and um things like that. And

[1:00:05] then the second hour is very like

[1:00:07] typically like cinematic. There's a lot

[1:00:09] of

[1:00:10] um it can be like kind of classical, but

[1:00:12] the music's very evocative and and

[1:00:15] emotional. And there's a composer named

[1:00:17] JT Peterson that I've been um

[1:00:20] like using a lot of his stuff during

[1:00:22] that that kind of second kind of peak

[1:00:25] breakthrough.

[1:00:27] Um

[1:00:29] James Asher is another one that he's

[1:00:31] worked a lot with Byron.

[1:00:33] Um

[1:00:35] and then um I've been doing a lot of

[1:00:37] music lately for for CAP. Um so just um

[1:00:43] artists like

[1:00:45] Carbon Based Lifeforms,

[1:00:48] um Robot

[1:00:50] Koch. I don't know if I don't know

[1:00:52] exactly how you say his name. It might

[1:00:53] be Koch, but

[1:00:54] um it's like k o c h.

[1:00:57] Um

[1:00:58] is is

[1:00:59] uh

[1:01:00] that's a that's a really cool artist. Um

[1:01:04] yeah, like really exploring other pieces

[1:01:06] of it. And this is this is like one of

[1:01:09] my passions. Um I I do mixing and music

[1:01:12] curation for other facilitators

[1:01:15] um cuz it takes a long time and it's

[1:01:17] such an important part of the process.

[1:01:19] >> Yeah.

[1:01:20] >> And I've I've been blessed to, you know,

[1:01:21] be able to apply some of those DJ skills

[1:01:23] to, uh,

[1:01:25] you know, different different, uh,

[1:01:27] genre, so to speak.

[1:01:28] >> Yeah, yeah.

[1:01:30] Um,

[1:01:31] I'm curious, like,

[1:01:33] thinking about those

[1:01:35] four phases of Do you guys do four

[1:01:38] phases in Holotropic Breathwork? I

[1:01:39] always forget how it like differs from

[1:01:41] like what I've learned in Dream Shadow.

[1:01:43] >> Yeah, it's pretty much three, but it

[1:01:45] could I mean, you could you could parse

[1:01:47] it out a little bit more depending on

[1:01:49] what you're doing.

[1:01:50] >> Yeah, yeah. Um,

[1:01:52] what is like a favorite song for each of

[1:01:56] those phases for you that you that you

[1:01:58] really like? I know I I didn't I didn't

[1:02:01] prep you for this, but I'm

[1:02:02] >> I know. I'm like I'm pulling I'm pulling

[1:02:04] stuff up,

[1:02:05] uh,

[1:02:06] This is good. Um,

[1:02:11] Okay, for the first phase, I mean,

[1:02:13] shoot, there's so many. Um, but a really

[1:02:17] great song that I like is, um, the

[1:02:19] Clozee remix of Biome.

[1:02:22] Um, but any I mean, there's so many

[1:02:25] James Asher or, uh, you know, Byron

[1:02:28] Metcalf. There's a there's an EP that

[1:02:30] they did together a couple years ago

[1:02:33] that I've used every song on it. It So,

[1:02:36] if you like if you if you put in James

[1:02:38] Asher and Byron Metcalf, um, that's a

[1:02:42] really, really great, um, space to to

[1:02:46] explore. And then the song I've been

[1:02:48] really digging on lately,

[1:02:50] it's called Khan, k h a n, by The Sid, t

[1:02:56] h s i d h. And it's like it's like

[1:02:59] throat singing and bagpipes,

[1:03:01] um, which sounds like kind of weird, but

[1:03:04] it's so good.

[1:03:06] Um,

[1:03:07] for like the middle,

[1:03:10] mm,

[1:03:11] there's a really great artist named, um,

[1:03:14] A. Shamaluev,

[1:03:16] uh, music. It's all one word. Um and he

[1:03:19] just came out with this really great

[1:03:21] album called Tree of Life that's got

[1:03:24] like a lot of really beautiful like peak

[1:03:27] um kind of emotional

[1:03:29] um things on it. I mentioned JT

[1:03:32] Peterson.

[1:03:33] Um there's a song called Aquarius I've

[1:03:35] been using a lot of. Um and then um

[1:03:40] some of the music from like The Expanse

[1:03:43] um the the TV show I've been throwing

[1:03:46] that in there. Max Richter is another

[1:03:49] >> like stuff, yeah.

[1:03:50] >> Yeah, and he's he just came out with a

[1:03:52] new song called um

[1:03:55] What's it called?

[1:03:57] Uh

[1:03:58] one second.

[1:04:00] Now we can sing. There's a Now we can

[1:04:03] sing edit that's really really great. Um

[1:04:06] that's on my new like my latest set.

[1:04:09] And then

[1:04:11] uh the last section

[1:04:13] man, so many so many There's so many

[1:04:16] good directions that one can go here. Um

[1:04:19] There's an artist called Holly Kenniff.

[1:04:22] Um Amidst the Tall Grass, that's a

[1:04:25] really great song.

[1:04:27] Um

[1:04:30] Oh, there's this really cool um

[1:04:32] like kind of choir a cappella band

[1:04:35] called Stanford Talisman that has a

[1:04:37] version of the Cherokee Morning Song

[1:04:40] that's fantastic.

[1:04:42] Um but it's all it's all like a

[1:04:43] cappella.

[1:04:45] >> Yeah.

[1:04:45] >> Um

[1:04:47] give you one more. Uh Bergamot

[1:04:50] Beginnings by P Cuzzuma.

[1:04:52] And uh anything Jon Hopkins I mean I I

[1:04:55] can definitely get down with uh quite a

[1:04:58] bit.

[1:04:59] >> [snorts]

[1:05:00] >> Sweet. Thanks for all that. Yeah, it's

[1:05:02] always nice to hear like what other like

[1:05:04] folks are using for their playlists and

[1:05:07] like what what's inspiring you.

[1:05:09] >> [clears throat]

[1:05:09] >> There's one song I I really keep coming

[1:05:12] back to. We kind of break it up into

[1:05:14] four different categories. We have like

[1:05:15] the beginning, just like the activation,

[1:05:18] then we move into like that more

[1:05:19] cinematic, and then there's that other

[1:05:22] third phase, which it's like the

[1:05:24] homecoming. Um and I think about that

[1:05:26] with like a lot of movie scores, but

[1:05:28] a song by Aaron miss, song of the sun.

[1:05:31] Um that's

[1:05:33] it's I don't know. For me it's like

[1:05:35] really beautiful.

[1:05:36] Um and love like a lot of Sigur Ros in

[1:05:39] there, but that can get tricky cuz a lot

[1:05:40] of people know Sigur Ros.

[1:05:42] >> Um yeah.

[1:05:43] >> Yeah, but their stuff is really

[1:05:45] provocative a lot of the time.

[1:05:49] And then yeah, James Asher and all those

[1:05:52] folks are really great for the beginning

[1:05:53] of a lot of that.

[1:05:56] >> Yeah, the EP is called Focal Point. And

[1:05:58] there's like four songs on it, and all

[1:06:00] of them are just bangers.

[1:06:02] >> Um nice.

[1:06:04] >> [laughter]

[1:06:06] >> Yeah.

[1:06:07] >> And so you said you kind of

[1:06:09] have a service where you create

[1:06:11] playlists for folks, right?

[1:06:13] >> Yeah, yeah. I mean it it you know, for

[1:06:15] [snorts] certification for a lot of

[1:06:17] these programs, holotropic being one of

[1:06:18] them,

[1:06:20] um

[1:06:20] you know, part of part of the

[1:06:21] certification process is putting

[1:06:23] together your own set. And um

[1:06:26] when I was with when I started doing

[1:06:27] neurodynamic and we were all talking

[1:06:30] about doing that, um someone was like,

[1:06:32] "Yeah, I'm going to

[1:06:34] pay somebody on Fiverr to put this

[1:06:36] together for me." And that was where I

[1:06:38] got my start. I was like, "Well, I could

[1:06:40] do that much better than somebody on

[1:06:42] Fiverr." Um

[1:06:44] and it's you know, I've I've been

[1:06:45] branching out and doing more work with

[1:06:47] not only breathwork facilitators, but

[1:06:50] psychedelic um facilitators because

[1:06:53] you know, a lot of people um use Spotify

[1:06:56] for sessions, and I just feel like

[1:06:58] that's so limiting um for your clients,

[1:07:03] especially with certain medicines. I

[1:07:04] mean, there's

[1:07:06] I get it if you're doing a psilocybin

[1:07:07] session and it's you know six plus hours

[1:07:11] that can be really tough but you know

[1:07:13] for things like ketamine cannabis

[1:07:15] assisted breath work

[1:07:17] you know other shorter sessions

[1:07:20] if you're using Spotify in my opinion

[1:07:22] you're just kind of limiting your

[1:07:23] creativity

[1:07:25] what if you want to use a song that like

[1:07:26] the first half of it sucks but you know

[1:07:29] the second half is great or looping

[1:07:31] things or you know I'm mixing out early

[1:07:34] I mean that that mix now that you now

[1:07:36] you can mix within Spotify and it's

[1:07:38] gotten a little bit better

[1:07:40] but it's terrible yeah and plus like

[1:07:42] what if you know what if the what if it

[1:07:43] goes out and also like just from an

[1:07:46] ethical perspective like supporting the

[1:07:48] artists that are supporting your

[1:07:50] facilitation and the the healing of your

[1:07:53] clients

[1:07:54] so yeah I do

[1:07:56] curation and and actual mixing for for

[1:08:00] facilitators I'm actually just finishing

[1:08:02] up

[1:08:03] like a

[1:08:04] working with a cap facilitator

[1:08:07] doing like a six set

[1:08:11] you know kind of

[1:08:13] package for them so you know that we

[1:08:15] talked and and they're brand new and I

[1:08:17] said well how many sessions do you think

[1:08:19] you're going to have with clients and

[1:08:20] they said well probably six is going to

[1:08:22] be like the standard so you know we came

[1:08:25] up with six different piece you know

[1:08:27] two hour sessions for them then it kind

[1:08:30] of goes from really gentle in the

[1:08:32] beginning to you know a little bit more

[1:08:35] uh provocative let's say a little bit

[1:08:36] more energy

[1:08:38] as they're getting used to the the the

[1:08:40] medicine and to support them in in doing

[1:08:42] their work

[1:08:44] >> yeah I typically try not to use Spotify

[1:08:46] do use it every once in a while I

[1:08:48] usually try to purchase the music use

[1:08:51] like mix or some other sort of like DJ

[1:08:53] software so then you can like also run

[1:08:55] high flac files or lossless files but

[1:08:58] the one thing I I noticed like um

[1:09:01] you know I'll put playlist together and

[1:09:03] then Spotify will take just music off,

[1:09:06] right? And then it's like you have a

[1:09:07] playlist and then they just like remove

[1:09:09] a track and then you're just like, well,

[1:09:11] what just happened there, you know? Like

[1:09:12] I really really liked that track and now

[1:09:14] I got to like, you know, go figure out

[1:09:16] what to go use next and they screwed up

[1:09:18] my flow here.

[1:09:19] >> That's right.

[1:09:21] >> Yeah. Yeah. What what what's like a

[1:09:23] hang-up for folks when it comes to music

[1:09:26] in your opinion?

[1:09:28] >> Um

[1:09:29] that's a great question.

[1:09:31] Um

[1:09:32] well, what I find the most with my

[1:09:34] clients, and I love them to death, but

[1:09:36] sometimes they want to like sort of

[1:09:38] shoehorn things in. Like um you you have

[1:09:42] all these songs and maybe they really

[1:09:44] they are really meaningful to you and

[1:09:46] like the work that you've done.

[1:09:48] And

[1:09:50] I have songs that I've been trying to

[1:09:52] find the right set, the right, you know,

[1:09:54] for the right place for them, maybe for

[1:09:56] a year or two. And every time I start a

[1:09:58] new set, I'll like be like, okay, this

[1:10:01] is the time I'm going to use this song.

[1:10:03] And then as the as the the whole set of

[1:10:05] music unfolds, it just doesn't fit. And

[1:10:10] so it's like just being willing to not

[1:10:13] shoehorn things in,

[1:10:15] um just trusting like

[1:10:17] this is just one session for someone.

[1:10:20] That song will find a place somewhere

[1:10:22] further down the road. Um

[1:10:25] I think that's definitely like a

[1:10:28] a sticking point for people. But for

[1:10:30] most of the people that I work with,

[1:10:31] it's just the sheer amount of time that

[1:10:34] one can take,

[1:10:35] um you know, finding the right music and

[1:10:38] being able to put it together. A lot of

[1:10:40] the people that I work with, like they

[1:10:42] they have they have busy practices. They

[1:10:45] have 10 other things that they need to

[1:10:47] be doing and they might not have the

[1:10:48] time or the desire to learn the software

[1:10:53] like you and I have or, you know, they

[1:10:55] they they they're like, oh yeah, I can

[1:10:57] do this myself." And then they realize

[1:10:59] like 6 hours into it that they're only

[1:11:01] like a quarter of the way done.

[1:11:03] >> It's I mean it's a tedious process,

[1:11:05] right?

[1:11:05] >> Absolutely.

[1:11:07] >> You have to listen and then you have to

[1:11:08] think about like how to put all this

[1:11:09] stuff together and like how things flow.

[1:11:12] I mean, I haven't gotten so into like

[1:11:14] mixing key, which I feel like I should

[1:11:16] probably start learning a bit more.

[1:11:18] Um do you do that like all the whole

[1:11:19] >> Yeah, yeah. Um I do I do definitely pay

[1:11:22] attention to that. Um

[1:11:24] uh

[1:11:26] Matt Xavier's book, The Psychedelic DJ,

[1:11:28] was really um helpful

[1:11:31] in that for me in terms of explaining

[1:11:33] how like staying in certain keys can

[1:11:37] help the participant kind of go deeper

[1:11:39] into

[1:11:41] um the material that's coming up um

[1:11:44] because you're you're you know you're

[1:11:45] not shifting the energy like so

[1:11:47] drastically. Um so yeah, I definitely do

[1:11:49] pay attention to that, but it's not like

[1:11:52] something where you know, sometimes a

[1:11:54] key change can be really helpful or

[1:11:57] appropriate, right? So it's just you

[1:11:59] know, it it can definitely help. Um

[1:12:02] yeah, there there's some sort of art to

[1:12:04] it. And to me like coming from the rave

[1:12:06] scene,

[1:12:08] it it's like applying that same process

[1:12:10] that the DJ has where they're working

[1:12:13] with the energy and the room and

[1:12:15] you know, somewhere between you know, a

[1:12:17] few hundred to a few thousand people,

[1:12:20] but then like you know, sort of

[1:12:22] distilling that down into a one-on-one

[1:12:24] experience or you know, a small a small

[1:12:27] group. But it's the same it's the same

[1:12:29] principle. It's like working with the

[1:12:30] energy, like allowing this this bed or

[1:12:33] this boat that can hold the space and

[1:12:36] kind of help help the journey continue

[1:12:39] on.

[1:12:40] >> Yeah.

[1:12:41] >> It's it's a

[1:12:41] >> Thinking about like think think about

[1:12:43] DJing to like a large group. Like do you

[1:12:45] ever do any live mixing to like kind of

[1:12:47] read where the person's at or like

[1:12:48] what's your theory on that? Cuz I know

[1:12:50] sometimes people are like, you know, we

[1:12:52] don't know where somebody is at and so

[1:12:54] we're just going to create like a

[1:12:55] pre-recorded type of mix here and that's

[1:12:58] just the arc of the journey or you know,

[1:13:01] do I kind of know where somebody's at

[1:13:03] and can I help to like impact them in

[1:13:05] that way?

[1:13:07] >> Yeah, another another huge like kind of

[1:13:09] like debate point, you know, like

[1:13:11] um you know, there's there's some like

[1:13:13] in the holotropic world for instance, if

[1:13:16] if the music's really bothering you

[1:13:18] there's there's a good reason for that.

[1:13:20] It's like, yeah, work with it more. Um

[1:13:22] during this recent retreat, one of the

[1:13:24] facilitators um I overheard this the the

[1:13:27] person next to me. Um

[1:13:29] you know, they called the facilitator

[1:13:30] over and they said, "I really hate this

[1:13:33] song." And he said, "Show me how much

[1:13:35] you hate it. Like hate it more. Like,

[1:13:38] you know, make it bigger, right?" So

[1:13:39] sometimes there's something like there's

[1:13:41] some material that's coming up and

[1:13:43] within the holotropic model, we we work

[1:13:45] with that. Whereas in a psychedelic

[1:13:48] space, you know, depending on trauma and

[1:13:50] things like that, it it might be

[1:13:51] appropriate to change or to switch. But

[1:13:54] yeah, I do think there's a there's an

[1:13:55] attunement that's happening um between

[1:13:58] the facilitator and it's a skill.

[1:14:00] Um and yes, I do like to do uh live

[1:14:03] music or live mixing um when I'm working

[1:14:06] with clients.

[1:14:08] Um

[1:14:09] again, just exercising that attunement

[1:14:12] and that trust in the inner healer.

[1:14:14] Um

[1:14:15] and you know, uh

[1:14:17] like I like I mentioned Matt Matt

[1:14:18] Xavier's book has has been really

[1:14:20] helpful for that. Um it really helped to

[1:14:23] give me some confidence as far as like

[1:14:25] oh, other people are doing this or

[1:14:27] wanting to do this too. Like I'm not the

[1:14:29] only crazy person that feels like DJing

[1:14:32] and space holding uh has some overlap to

[1:14:35] it.

[1:14:36] >> [laughter]

[1:14:38] >> Definitely yeah, definitely seems like

[1:14:40] there's a lot of overlap at times so um

[1:14:43] yeah, thinking about music you hate, my

[1:14:45] one teacher would sometimes play polka

[1:14:47] music and it would drive [laughter]

[1:14:48] everybody insane. And it was like

[1:14:51] everybody would just be like, "Please do

[1:14:53] not play polka music, you know?"

[1:14:55] But you're right. I mean, it would

[1:14:57] elicit like strong responses and

[1:14:59] sometimes help to like deepen somebody's

[1:15:01] process

[1:15:03] at times. And then, you know, what And

[1:15:06] like, yeah, you know, it's like if anger

[1:15:08] is coming up, it's like, is that an

[1:15:09] emotion like you typically get in touch

[1:15:11] with and like is it important to

[1:15:13] actually feel that anger right now?

[1:15:15] >> Yeah.

[1:15:16] But

[1:15:17] Is this feeling familiar to you? Yeah.

[1:15:20] >> Yeah.

[1:15:20] >> Uh Stan you know

[1:15:22] >> I like that. Show me how much you hate

[1:15:23] the music.

[1:15:24] >> [laughter]

[1:15:25] >> Uh you know, it's funny like in in

[1:15:27] several of Stan's books, he talks about

[1:15:29] when he talks about music, he talks

[1:15:31] about this song called the Balinese

[1:15:33] Monkey Chant.

[1:15:35] Um and it's such a like uncomfortable

[1:15:38] piece of music for so many people. Like

[1:15:40] one of my mentors was like, I was like,

[1:15:42] "Oh, I'm going to put the Balinese

[1:15:43] Monkey Chant on my certification set."

[1:15:46] And she said, "Don't you don't you

[1:15:47] dare."

[1:15:48] >> [laughter]

[1:15:48] >> And I'm like, "But Stan Stan talked

[1:15:51] about it in the books.

[1:15:52] I wanted to use it."

[1:15:54] >> I mean, I I do get it. Like I think we

[1:15:56] do have to like be a little ethical or

[1:15:59] not a little. We we should be ethical

[1:16:01] and

[1:16:02] you know, think about like what is like

[1:16:04] really challenging for folks, right?

[1:16:06] Like especially when it comes to

[1:16:07] psychedelics, like I have been in those

[1:16:08] spaces where the music was just too much

[1:16:10] and it actually like really elicited

[1:16:13] like really bad trips for people.

[1:16:15] And then like thinking about like what

[1:16:17] is our intention to have

[1:16:19] this like why do I want to use this

[1:16:21] piece? Is it just because I want to use

[1:16:22] it or does it serve a purpose here? Um

[1:16:26] and so, yeah. It's like I think as much

[1:16:28] as like we are kind of like joking

[1:16:30] around here with like bad music,

[1:16:32] especially in breathwork, like it is

[1:16:33] really important to be ethical around

[1:16:36] music placement, think about like trauma

[1:16:38] and safety and and all that.

[1:16:39] >> Absolutely. And intention, like you

[1:16:41] said, you know, there was I remember

[1:16:43] when I was putting my certification set

[1:16:45] together, there was a there was a

[1:16:47] Tibetan like, you know, Tibetan monk

[1:16:51] um like chant that was so meaningful to

[1:16:53] me, and I'm a Tibetan Buddhist

[1:16:55] practitioner of like for the last 20

[1:16:57] years, and you know, I knew that what he

[1:17:00] was talking about, even though it was in

[1:17:02] Tibetan, was this like beautiful like

[1:17:04] prayer for offer- offering whatever

[1:17:07] comes up in the session or in the you

[1:17:10] know, in my experience to the to the

[1:17:13] enlightenment of all beings. And I

[1:17:15] thought,

[1:17:16] "God, there's there's nothing there's no

[1:17:18] nothing more like right on the money

[1:17:20] than than this for for the work that

[1:17:22] we're doing."

[1:17:23] And I had shared that with with uh the

[1:17:25] person helping me, and she said, "Yeah,

[1:17:28] that's the reason you can't use this

[1:17:30] song,

[1:17:31] cuz you're you now you're trying to like

[1:17:32] create something. You're like you're

[1:17:35] trying to guide the experience in some

[1:17:37] certain direction, and that's that's not

[1:17:40] what we do here, right?" So, you know,

[1:17:44] to to your point about intention, yeah,

[1:17:46] just doing not doing is you know, one of

[1:17:49] the ways that I've heard it put.

[1:17:51] >> Yeah, yeah, I think [snorts] that comes

[1:17:52] from Tav.

[1:17:53] >> Yeah, from Tav Sparks.

[1:17:54] >> Yeah, yeah.

[1:17:55] >> Absolutely.

[1:17:57] >> Yeah, when you feel like you want to do

[1:17:58] something, maybe the most appropriate

[1:18:00] thing is to not do something, which uh

[1:18:02] means seems really counterintuitive at

[1:18:04] times, right? But And obviously, there's

[1:18:07] a lot of nuance there, too, right?

[1:18:09] >> Absolutely.

[1:18:11] >> [laughter]

[1:18:12] [gasps]

[1:18:12] >> Yeah.

[1:18:13] Jonathan, well, I know we're over uh our

[1:18:16] hour mark, but this has been super fun.

[1:18:18] Um and really enjoyed the conversation.

[1:18:21] >> Likewise.

[1:18:22] >> Yeah, so any kind of closing thoughts,

[1:18:24] anything that's still kind of like

[1:18:25] percolating that wants to be shared with

[1:18:28] the the audience?

[1:18:29] >> Hm, no, I think we covered so much. Um I

[1:18:32] would just say, you know,

[1:18:34] you and I touched on it a while ago, and

[1:18:37] I've seen it so many times is the the

[1:18:40] skepticism

[1:18:42] especially with people experience with

[1:18:44] psychedelics for the power and

[1:18:47] profundity of the breath. And look, like

[1:18:49] I've talked about my own medicine

[1:18:51] experiences here like I'm no, you know,

[1:18:53] like

[1:18:55] I'm no stranger to psychedelics either,

[1:18:57] but

[1:18:58] don't don't write off how impactful the

[1:19:01] breath can be not only as

[1:19:05] a support for your own integration and

[1:19:07] preparation, but like just as its own

[1:19:09] vehicle into exploring these spaces and

[1:19:13] um

[1:19:14] it's it's one of the it's one of my joys

[1:19:16] in life actually is like having that

[1:19:18] person go through their first experience

[1:19:20] when they're like or just breathing how

[1:19:23] intense is this going to be and then

[1:19:24] like seeing them on the other side with

[1:19:26] that like whoa, what was that? You know,

[1:19:29] yeah, yeah, so

[1:19:32] you know, that would I guess that would

[1:19:33] be my parting gift, you know, is just

[1:19:35] like don't write it off until you tried

[1:19:36] it.

[1:19:38] >> I think it's an important reminder.

[1:19:39] Yeah, cuz I think it is easy to write

[1:19:41] off and

[1:19:43] you know, and again like not always I

[1:19:45] guess sitting there and having to rate

[1:19:46] the quality of the catharsis and

[1:19:48] everything like that because some of the

[1:19:50] profound experiences are also like I

[1:19:52] remember like after the pandemic, you

[1:19:54] know, we weren't able to like do this in

[1:19:56] person. I was like, oh man, I have so

[1:19:58] much stuff to release and like

[1:20:01] nothing came up and I was like getting

[1:20:04] really pissed and I'm like I thought

[1:20:05] this is going to be like so like I

[1:20:07] thought I was just going to let all this

[1:20:08] like emotion out and I fell asleep.

[1:20:11] >> Mhm.

[1:20:12] >> And then I realized I was like

[1:20:14] we've just been in a heightened state

[1:20:16] for the past 2 years. Nervous systems

[1:20:18] are just completely shot.

[1:20:20] I think I actually just needed to sleep,

[1:20:22] you know, and like and I needed that

[1:20:24] time to rest and that's also really

[1:20:27] beneficial.

[1:20:28] >> Very valuable.

[1:20:30] >> Yeah, didn't need to be anything really

[1:20:31] crazy. We were just living crazy 2

[1:20:33] years, you know? It's like

[1:20:35] >> That's right. That's right. Um yeah, it

[1:20:37] it goes back to like that that surrender

[1:20:41] and that permission, right? Like um

[1:20:44] you know, often often the way that I

[1:20:46] describe breathwork in comparison to

[1:20:48] like say psychedelics is that feeling

[1:20:50] that I would get

[1:20:52] um trying to go off the high dive as a

[1:20:55] kid. You're climbing the ladder and the

[1:20:57] pit in the stomach starts to like kind

[1:20:59] of like get bigger and then you're

[1:21:01] standing on the on the diving board

[1:21:03] being like, "Am I really going to do

[1:21:05] this?"

[1:21:06] And with psychedelics, like there's kind

[1:21:08] of like a hand that's pushing you off

[1:21:10] the edge. There's no choice but to like

[1:21:12] kind of try to let go. With breathwork,

[1:21:15] you it's more of a skill. It's like I

[1:21:18] I'm the one that has to jump off.

[1:21:19] There's nobody helping me here. Um

[1:21:22] and so yeah, just just learning to to to

[1:21:25] surrender and and to give yourself

[1:21:27] permission to to go into that experience

[1:21:30] and um

[1:21:32] yeah, sometimes we fall asleep, you

[1:21:33] know, like you said and and to your

[1:21:35] point, it's like, "Man, if you can fall

[1:21:37] asleep in that room with that music and

[1:21:39] people, you know, go going into their

[1:21:41] own processes, then the body probably

[1:21:43] really needed it." You know, and and

[1:21:46] every once in a while we have these like

[1:21:47] yogic sleep type experiences and

[1:21:50] sometimes people are like upset cuz they

[1:21:52] paid a lot of money for a workshop and

[1:21:55] then, you know, I I remember somebody

[1:21:57] saying, "You You know how many years

[1:21:59] yogis like train to get into those

[1:22:01] states? [laughter] Like,

[1:22:03] you did it in like one afternoon. That's

[1:22:05] great, you know?"

[1:22:09] >> Remember, yeah, healing rest is also

[1:22:11] healing,

[1:22:12] >> That's right.

[1:22:13] >> doesn't always need to be big.

[1:22:15] >> That's right.

[1:22:16] >> Where can people find you?

[1:22:18] >> Um my website is pathwaays to

[1:22:20] integration.com.

[1:22:22] Um I'm pathwaays to integration on

[1:22:24] social media platforms,

[1:22:27] YouTube, Um I have a school site Uh um

[1:22:30] that's school.com {slash} pathways

[1:22:33] integration. It's free to join. We do

[1:22:35] breath work online there, and there's a

[1:22:37] lot of recorded practices. And then you

[1:22:39] mentioned my my podcast at the top of

[1:22:41] the hour,

[1:22:42] um the vital point pathways integration.

[1:22:44] So, wherever you find your podcast.

[1:22:46] >> Sweet. [snorts] Well, thank you,

[1:22:47] Jonathan. Thank you, everybody, for

[1:22:49] tuning in and hanging out. Um and then

[1:22:52] just some last quick reminders here on

[1:22:54] our end at psychedelics today before we

[1:22:55] wrap up. Um I think we do have like

[1:22:58] another couple seats left for our

[1:23:00] upcoming advanced shadow work and

[1:23:02] psychedelic integration course. So, if

[1:23:03] you're interested in digging into the

[1:23:04] shadow, um definitely check that out

[1:23:06] psychedeliceducationcenter.com.

[1:23:09] Um and then we are also putting on a

[1:23:11] conference in Breckenridge in a few

[1:23:12] weeks. So, if you all want to come out

[1:23:15] to our vital conference, there will be

[1:23:16] some of our vital alum presenting, some

[1:23:18] other presenters. It'll be a small

[1:23:20] little intimate gathering, really great

[1:23:22] networking. I'm more of a fan of the

[1:23:24] small intimate conferences than these

[1:23:26] big super conferences where it's

[1:23:28] overwhelming. So, if you want to come

[1:23:30] out, say hi, come up to a beautiful

[1:23:32] Breckenridge. I think it's actually

[1:23:33] starting to snow here right now um up in

[1:23:36] the high Rockies. So, you can check that

[1:23:37] out at psychedelics today.com. So,

[1:23:40] thanks everybody for tuning in.

[1:23:41] Jonathan, thank you again for the fun

[1:23:42] conversation. Really enjoyed it.

[1:23:44] >> Yeah, thanks for having me.

[1:23:46] >> Yeah, take care, everybody.

[1:23:50] >> [music]

[1:23:56] [music]

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In this conversation, Jonathan Schecter describes integration as the work of taking what a psychedelic experience showed you and building it into how you live. He connects it to the nervous system, arguing the body needs to settle and discharge what an experience stirred up before the mind can make sense of it.
Neurodynamic breathwork was developed by Michael Stone, a long-time Holotropic breathwork facilitator, as a more accessible version of that work. Schecter says it retains much of the principles and practices of Holotropic breathwork, which comes from Stanislav Grof's work.
Schecter describes finding that breath, used with intention, can reach deep non-ordinary states, including ones he compared to the territory psychedelics open. He does not present breathwork as a replacement for medicine, and he emphasizes that what happens afterward is where the change is made.
Holotropic breathwork is a practice rooted in the work of Stanislav Grof. Jonathan Schecter, who is completing his training in it, calls it the crown jewel of his breathwork training and describes it as a method for reaching non-ordinary states through breath.
Schecter says he learned to value deliberate preparation before an experience and care in the aftermath, rather than journaling alone with no framework. He recommends finding a structured container, such as a trained facilitator or therapist, and allowing the integration process to take as long as it needs.
Somatic Experiencing is a body-based approach to trauma and stress that Schecter practices. In his client work he combines it with transpersonal psychology and breathwork to support integration and spiritual evolution.
Jonathan Schecter is a Somatic Experiencing practitioner and breathwork facilitator who founded The Vital Point: Pathways to Integration podcast. He has practiced breathwork for about seven years, is a certified Neurodynamic Breathwork facilitator, and is completing training in Holotropic breathwork.

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