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Inspiration

Chanting as Home Base: Faith, Thought, and the Restless Mind

Krishna Das
Krishna Das
Oct 8, 2026
9 min de lectura
Ver · 7

On a Thursday night satsang recording, Krishna Das starts by apologizing for talking too much. "I don't usually like to talk so much at night while we're here," he says, joking that everyone has been "yapping all day," so he is squeezing his own talking into the evening. Then, in a long, loose, funny and unexpectedly candid stretch, he lays out what chanting has done for him over decades: not a cure for the mind, not a switch that turns thinking off, but a steady place to lean when the mind is running its usual show. The recording, a workshop he gave at the Ram Dass Legacy Retreat in Maui, Hawaii, in 2022 and republished on his channel in October 2026, moves through four ideas that are worth slowing down for: faith that comes from experience, the "movie of me" that never stops, the small amount of control we actually have over our thoughts, and the mantra as home base. Along the way he tells a hard story from Kainchi, the Himalayan town where he first sat with the guru he calls Maharaji, Neem Karoli Baba, and where he learned, in a single brutal day of singing, what a mantra could do when there was nowhere else to go.

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What does chanting change if the thoughts keep coming?

The most striking thing Krishna Das says is also the most modest. He does not claim that chanting makes the mind quiet. He claims something narrower and, to him, more important: the moods have changed around the chanting, and the chanting itself has stayed the same. "I've seen the way that chanting has remained the same while my life has changed all around it," he says. What changed, in his account, is how often the heavy states arrive and how long they stay.

He describes those states with a precision that will be familiar to anyone who has sat with them. "When you're sitting in one of those moods or one of those states, you can't do anything with it," he says. "You can breathe, and it doesn't go anywhere. You can chant all day and nothing happens." That honesty matters. He is not telling listeners that the practice will feel good on demand. He is saying that the practice works over time, through a slow change in how the mind relates to what passes through it, and that in the middle of a bad state, chanting may feel like it is accomplishing nothing at all.

Elsewhere in the recording he admits to the same ambivalence about his own progress. "I still consider myself a beginner," he says. "Really, I do." It is a useful correction for anyone who imagines a long-time teacher has achieved a permanent calm. He is describing a practice, not a destination.

Why does faith have to come from experience, not belief?

Krishna Das draws a line that many spiritual listeners will want to hold onto. The faith he means is not the kind you are asked to accept on authority. "Faith is based on experience," he says. "It's not blind faith. Nothing blind faith is useless, and destructive and dangerous." What he calls faith or confidence is what comes "from actually having the experiences yourselves, of the truth of the thing, in your own life, in your daily life."

His own origin story is the clearest illustration. He had read a few books, including the Autobiography of a Yogi and the Gospel of Ramakrishna, and he found them compelling. But he did not know in his heart whether any of it was real. Then, in America, before he had ever been to India, he heard that a man had just returned from there and went to see him. "The moment I walked into the room where he was, without a word being spoken, I knew that whatever it is I was looking for was real," he says. "Something just the light went on. Oh, it's real. And then the next thought was, it's in the world. It can be found." That man was Ram Dass.

The sequence matters to the argument. The faith did not arrive as an idea he adopted. It arrived as a direct recognition, and that recognition gave him something to practice from. He describes the difference this way: "it's faith or understanding, real understanding, that allows us to make a deal with ourselves to do the practices that we need to do to train ourselves to let ourselves be free of the stuff that rules us."

He also points to the change in his daily life as the evidence he trusts. "I joke around a lot that I mope around less now, and that I miss it," he says. "Both things are true. Sometimes I mope around just for fun." The moping has not vanished. It has simply become something he can notice and sometimes enjoy, rather than something that owns him.

How much control do we really have over our thoughts?

This is the part of the talk that will hit hardest. Krishna Das describes a constant internal production, in which each of us "wake[s] up in the morning and start[s] writing, directing, producing, and acting in the movie of me all day long." What am I doing now? Will they like me? Should I wear this? Will that happen if I do this? "It never stops," he says. "I don't know if you've noticed that."

Against that backdrop he makes a precise claim about agency. "We don't get much vote about what thoughts pass through our consciousness," he says. "The only vote we get is that moment when we become aware that something's got us." That is the whole opportunity, in his account. We cannot choose which thoughts arrive. We can, at the moment of noticing that we have been taken, choose to let go, even if only for a second.

"The only vote we get is that moment when we become aware that something's got us. And at that moment, depending on a lot of different factors, we can choose to let go of that for just for a second." (Krishna Das, satsang recording, 2022 Ram Dass Legacy Retreat workshop, Maui)

He is candid that the release is usually temporary. "These things usually come back," he says. They are not defeated; they are simply loosened. The difference that practice makes is in what happens next. "If we've done practice, if we're accustomed to letting go, those things float through and they don't grab us the same way." The thought still appears. It just no longer has the same grip.

What happened at Kainchi that taught him to chant as a refuge?

The story at the heart of the recording comes from Kainchi, where Krishna Das first experienced this directly. He tells it with dark humor. Neem Karoli Baba, he explains, learned that one of the Indian singers had made advances toward a Western woman in the satsang. The guru sent all twenty of the men away, loaded onto the back of a truck with their belongings and driven to the train. One of the Indian devotees turned to him and said, "Baba, you just kicked out the kanas. Who's going to sing now?" The answer, as Krishna Das recounts it, was him.

He was not ready. "I hardly played harmonium," he says. "I hardly knew any melodies." And there was no end date. "We only had one instruction: sing. There was nothing about for how long or when we might stop. It was like eternal damnation." He sang, in his words, "Krishna, Krishna, all day long," for eight, ten, twelve hours a day.

What happened next is the reason the story matters. The mind did what minds do under boredom and pressure. "The mind starts to get very creative in moments like that when you ask it to pay attention," he says, laughing about replaying his life from age three. But over a couple of weeks, something shifted. He began to notice thoughts arriving and passing, and he was not the one producing them. "A thought means something with content, you know, that you usually think," he explains. "But I wasn't thinking the thought. The thought was just going through." It was, he says, "the first time in my life that I was ever freed from that oppressiveness of the constant thinking and emotions."

How does a mantra become home base?

The phrase that ties the whole talk together is his description of the chant itself: "Har Krishna was home base. The mantra was home base." The thoughts kept coming and going, but he was not chasing them and not fighting them. He was leaning back into the sound, relaxing into it, letting it keep going underneath the noise.

This is the practical teaching in the recording, and it is more humble than it sounds. Krishna Das is not asking listeners to empty their minds. He is describing a place to return to, again and again, every time the movie starts. The return is the practice. Each time you notice you have been carried off, you can come back to the name, and the next time it takes a little less effort to notice. His own timeline of change, from the first weeks in Kainchi to the decades since, is the slow proof that repetition does something even when it does not feel like anything is happening.

He ends the recording still in conversation with the room, taking questions and letting the group talk among themselves. The tone throughout is warm, funny, and unpretentious. He is not offering a system. He is describing, with unusual specificity, what the chant has done for one person's mind over a long life, and inviting others to test the same thing in their own days.

Where to go from here

If this talk stayed with you, the most direct next step is to return to the recording itself and listen to the Kainchi story and the passages on experience and faith in full, since much of their force comes from his pauses and laughter. For readers who want to follow his work further, his own website lists upcoming events at krishnadas.com/events, a suggested reading list he often refers to at krishnadas.com/kds-library, and a newsletter sign-up at krishnadas.com/sign-up. The best way to test what he describes, though, is the one he keeps returning to: pick a phrase, return to it when the movie starts, and notice over time whether the thoughts still grab you the same way.

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[0:02] So, um, [clears throat]

[0:04] I don't usually like to talk so much at

[0:06] night while we're here. So, since

[0:08] everybody's yapping all day, so

[0:11] we're just taking this time to squeeze

[0:14] all the talking in for me.

[0:18] What we'll do is we'll take questions

[0:20] and we'll talk we'll discuss among

[0:23] ourselves.

[0:29] So,

[0:33] it's usually the bmachis in the back

[0:34] that are making noise.

[0:38] [clears throat]

[0:40] Betum

[0:42] bet.

[0:47] [laughter]

[0:49] Oh, it's great to have K here, you know.

[0:59] Romesh was telling you the story this

[1:00] morning about

[1:03] how we came to Maharaji, how we actually

[1:05] met him and what he didn't mention is

[1:08] that KK didn't tell us that story till

[1:12] about four or five years later.

[1:16] So luckily

[1:19] he didn't tell us what really happened

[1:20] that day, you know. And should I refresh

[1:24] you or do you already you understand?

[1:29] >> Are you alive actually? I mean and and

[1:33] cognizant.

[1:34] >> Yes. Okay.

[1:36] Just checking since there are bodies in

[1:38] the room.

[1:41] >> I'm starting. Where's the lasagna?

[1:47] Okay.

[1:53] You know, I think more than anything

[1:54] what we uh th those of us who met

[1:58] Maharaji in the body and or not who

[2:02] consider ourselves to be his devotees, I

[2:04] think what we share is

[2:08] uh more than anything the way we see our

[2:11] lives,

[2:13] you know,

[2:16] uh the way we see

[2:19] our day how we see ourselves in the in

[2:22] relation to

[2:24] uh all the stuff that happens to us in a

[2:27] life

[2:29] raas once said you know I think more

[2:31] than anything what we share with people

[2:33] is our faith in Maharaji

[2:36] and that faith is based on experience

[2:38] it's not blind faith

[2:41] nothing

[2:42] blind faith is useless you know and and

[2:45] destructive and dangerous

[2:50] But faith or confidence is what comes

[2:53] from actually having the experiences

[2:56] yourselves of of of the truth of the

[2:58] thing in your own life in your daily

[3:01] life.

[3:04] You know, I joke around a lot that uh

[3:07] that I mope around less now and that I

[3:10] miss it.

[3:12] And it's true. Both things are true.

[3:15] Sometimes I mope around just for fun,

[3:17] you know?

[3:19] I just walk around the house and go,

[3:21] "Oh, This is

[3:26] cuz it feels so natural to me.

[3:30] It's everybody has this unique natural

[3:32] state."

[3:35] [clears throat]

[3:36] But really,

[3:38] you know, from the chanting, I've been

[3:39] chanting a long time and it seems I

[3:42] still consider myself a beginner.

[3:46] really I do. I mean

[3:48] uh

[3:53] but I I I I've seen the way that

[3:56] chanting has

[4:00] remained the same

[4:02] while my life has changed all around it.

[4:11] Um,

[4:17] I don't know quite how to explain that

[4:18] other than to say that

[4:21] all those

[4:23] long periods of being in heavy negative

[4:26] states of mind, they just don't seem to

[4:29] arise as much or as often as they used

[4:32] to. And when they do, they don't seem to

[4:33] last as long.

[4:35] That's a big thing [clears throat]

[4:37] because when you're sitting in one of

[4:39] those moods or one of those

[4:42] states, you can't do anything with it,

[4:44] you know? It's like you can't

[4:47] you can't move it. You can't you can

[4:49] breathe,

[4:51] you know, and it doesn't go anywhere,

[4:53] you know. You can chant all day and

[4:56] nothing happens, you know.

[5:00] >> It's what we do at the other moments

[5:03] when we have a vote.

[5:05] that affects those moments when we don't

[5:08] seem to have much of a vote,

[5:11] which for a lot of us is a lot of the

[5:13] time.

[5:15] How do we get a vote?

[5:18] How do we get a vote on how we go

[5:20] through the day, right?

[5:25] We wake up in the morning

[5:28] and we start

[5:30] writing,

[5:32] directing, producing, and acting in the

[5:36] movie of me

[5:38] all day long.

[5:41] What am I doing now? When am I going to

[5:43] do they like me? They won't like me. I

[5:44] won't like this. I'll wear this. I won't

[5:45] wear this. I'll do this. Well, if I do

[5:47] this, will that happen?

[5:50] It never stops. It never stops. I don't

[5:53] know if you've noticed that.

[5:57] I'm just going to turn my phone off.

[6:02] Oh, senior moment. I already did.

[6:07] So, um,

[6:12] what when we chant, we're

[6:15] we're chanting what they call the names

[6:17] of God in India, right? I don't know

[6:20] about you,

[6:22] that doesn't really fly with me. I don't

[6:26] know what God is. I don't even know if

[6:27] there really is a God, a God up there in

[6:31] the sky running the show.

[6:35] I know there's love and I know there's

[6:37] love because of Maharaji.

[6:41] That's the only thing I know.

[6:50] Because I know that it changes

[6:54] the way I go through my day. It changes

[6:56] the way I think about myself and think

[6:57] about others

[7:06] because

[7:08] I remember what it was like before. I

[7:10] didn't know that. And by the way,

[7:13] the moment I knew that was the very

[7:16] first moment that I met Ramdas

[7:19] in America. I didn't hadn't been to

[7:21] India yet. I didn't know about Nim

[7:23] Kuroli Baba.

[7:25] But I heard there was this guy who just

[7:27] came back from India. And so I went to

[7:30] see him. And the moment I walked into

[7:32] the room where he was, without a word

[7:35] being spoken, I knew

[7:38] not a word was spoken. And I knew that

[7:41] whatever it is I was looking for

[7:44] was real.

[7:48] Now, this is back in the, you know, the

[7:51] 1700s. You know,

[7:54] there wasn't a yoga studio on every

[7:56] corner and there wasn't books on this

[7:58] all day long. There was like two

[8:00] books, three books I had read. One was

[8:02] autobiography of a yogi, Gospel of

[8:05] Ramach Krishna and I think Zen and

[8:07] Japanese culture. And that was it.

[8:14] And you know, they were nice books,

[8:17] but they were books and I wasn't, you

[8:20] know, they seemed cool, but I didn't

[8:24] I liked it a lot. Uh, but I didn't you

[8:27] didn't I didn't know in my heart if it

[8:30] was real. And when I walked into the

[8:32] room with Ramdas, I knew that

[8:34] immediately. Something just the light

[8:36] went on. Oh, it's real. And then this

[8:40] next thought was, it's in the world. It

[8:43] can be found.

[8:51] So that's that was it. That's that's

[8:54] faith. That was my experience. And from

[8:57] that experience, I got

[9:00] faith.

[9:08] And it's it's faith or understanding,

[9:10] real understanding that allows us to

[9:13] make a deal with us ourselves to do the

[9:17] practices that we need to do to train

[9:19] ourselves

[9:21] to

[9:24] let ourselves be free of the stuff that

[9:26] rules us.

[9:30] We don't get much vote about what

[9:31] thoughts pass through our consciousness.

[9:36] The only vote we get is that moment when

[9:39] we become aware that something's got us.

[9:47] And at that moment, depending on

[9:51] a lot of different factors, we can

[9:53] choose to let go of that for just for a

[9:56] second. I mean, usually these things

[9:57] come back. They're not a big depression.

[10:00] You just don't say, "Go on, get out of

[10:01] here." And it laughs at you.

[10:05] But if we've done practice, if we're

[10:07] accustomed to letting go,

[10:11] those things float through and they

[10:13] don't grab us the same way. In fact, the

[10:16] very first time I experienced this

[10:18] directly was in Kenchi.

[10:21] Um,

[10:22] Maharaji had uh, one one of the Indian

[10:25] Kanan walls had uh, kind of come on to

[10:28] one of the western women in the satsang

[10:30] and Maharaji found out about it. And so

[10:33] all 20 of these guys were loaded on a

[10:36] back of a truck with all their stuff

[10:37] driven down to the train and sent back

[10:39] home to Bindalan.

[10:41] And one of the Indian people said,

[10:43] "Baba, you just kicked out the kanas.

[10:45] Who's going to sing now?"

[10:48] Guess.

[10:49] So all day long we had to sit there, you

[10:52] know,

[10:53] it was horrible.

[10:58] Unbelievably horrible.

[11:01] I mean,

[11:03] first of all, I hardly I hardly played

[11:05] harmonium. I hardly knew any melodies.

[11:08] So I would just sit there go

[11:19] And you know we only had one instruction

[11:23] sing.

[11:25] There was nothing about for how long or

[11:29] when we might stop.

[11:32] It was like eternal damnation.

[11:35] [laughter]

[11:40] Krishna Krishna all day long

[11:45] and so there I was you know and uh

[11:49] uh the mind starts to get very creative

[11:52] in moments like that when you ask ask it

[11:54] to pay attention you know so I'm going

[11:56] while I'm singing I'm replaying my life

[11:59] from let's see when I was three wow yeah

[12:02] I remember that hat I had when I was

[12:03] three that was cool yeah it was like

[12:05] this harrishna

[12:08] and this kept going on and on and on and

[12:10] on.

[12:14] After a couple of weeks of pretty much

[12:16] like 8, 10, 12 hours a day,

[12:21] I would be singing and

[12:24] I would notice a thought coming through

[12:28] and it would go

[12:30] and it I wasn't thinking it.

[12:35] It was a thought. A thought means like

[12:41] something with content you know that you

[12:44] usually think but it I wasn't think I

[12:47] wasn't thinking the thought was just

[12:49] going through and Har Krishna was going

[12:51] on and Har Krishna was home base the

[12:54] mantra was home base and I was leaning

[12:57] back into it and relaxing and it was

[13:00] just going on and the thoughts were

[13:02] coming and going and it was the first

[13:05] time in my life that I was uh

[13:10] ever freed from that oppressiveness of

[13:13] the constant thinking and emotions and

[13:16] on and on.

[13:19] There was a second time actually but it

[13:21] was actually before that and of course I

[13:23] was on a thousand micrograms of acid.

[13:28] I was lying in my bed and

[13:32] I'd been like I don't know out in the

[13:34] lawn playing with the dog for the last

[13:35] 10 hours and [laughter]

[13:39] I don't know what. And then I went home.

[13:40] I went inside and I lay down in the bed

[13:42] and I was kind of just gazing out the

[13:44] window like

[13:50] what is that?

[13:52] Something was coming towards me

[13:57] and I I I didn't know what it was. I

[13:59] could feel it though it was coming and

[14:01] it was coming closer and closer closer

[14:03] and clos.

[14:08] And I was thinking

[14:10] and I was thinking

[14:14] and then it started to leave.

[14:18] No, don't go. Don't go.

[14:22] And then it was gone and I was just

[14:27] and then another one, right? And they

[14:30] started coming. It took a while, but

[14:32] they started coming more quickly and

[14:33] more quickly and leaving more quickly

[14:35] and quickly. And then after a while, I

[14:36] was just back. I was me again.

[14:41] And I saw me as just this group of

[14:43] thoughts that I that I that are me. And

[14:48] when they're not there, they're not

[14:49] there. But I am

[14:52] me is not there but there's presence

[14:54] you're there.

[14:56] That was a that was a big thing. And so

[14:58] later on but it's different when you

[15:02] don't take 1,000 micrograms of acid as

[15:04] you can imagine. and it might be a

[15:05] little different

[15:09] and it's it was a deeper experience

[15:12] because it was happening in real time

[15:15] kind of you know and I was chanting

[15:19] and

[15:21] the thoughts were going through by

[15:23] themselves and I was just good watching

[15:28] them go

[15:30] and we had to I would have never had

[15:32] that experience if Maharaji hadn't

[15:34] forced us to sing.

[15:36] He forced us to sing. We didn't want to

[15:39] sing. We wanted to look at him. That's

[15:40] all we did. We

[15:43] stared at it. That was our practice.

[15:48] And he pretended to like it. He would

[15:50] sit there and throw fruit at us and

[15:52] smile and laugh. That's what we did.

[15:56] I mean, that's all we ever wanted to do

[15:58] also.

[16:00] So when we were asked to like sit around

[16:03] the corner in this little room and chant

[16:05] for many many hours, it was like

[16:09] being banished to inner darkness.

[16:12] It was terrible.

[16:14] But because of that, I actually was

[16:17] forced to have that personal

[16:20] understanding of the direction that this

[16:23] stuff moves us.

[16:27] So that's why when we when I share this

[16:29] practice with people, I I just simply

[16:31] share it the way I do it. You know,

[16:33] other people share it different ways. I

[16:36] don't I sh I say sing, pay attention.

[16:41] When you notice that you're dreaming and

[16:43] fantasizing and remembering and blah

[16:45] blah blah, just come back to the

[16:46] chanting.

[16:48] The moment you notice you're gone or

[16:52] you've been gone, you're actually back.

[16:56] If you think about that, that's kind of

[16:59] miraculous.

[17:01] Why does that happen?

[17:03] How come why don't we just aren't we

[17:05] gone forever? Well, most of us are.

[17:13] Well, they say that, you know, a thought

[17:15] has a certain amount of energy and it it

[17:18] gets dissipated and then it releases

[17:20] you. you it this thought disappears

[17:23] dissipates and you're back drops you

[17:25] back into your true nature for a

[17:28] billionth of a second.

[17:31] So when we chant we keep repeating these

[17:33] names we keep coming back to these names

[17:35] which we don't know what they mean but

[17:37] that's the way it's supposed to be. You

[17:40] can't know the meaning the real meaning

[17:43] of these names on the intellectual or

[17:46] emotional level.

[17:48] These names of our true being which is

[17:51] beyond thought, beyond emotion,

[17:57] the the mind, the intellect can't ever

[18:03] grab that.

[18:05] But we can know within what that is

[18:08] eventually

[18:10] because it's not outside of us. It's our

[18:12] true nature. It's our own hearts. We're

[18:15] calling the names of our own beings, our

[18:17] own hearts.

[18:24] [cough and clears throat]

[18:35] So when we chant, we simply pay

[18:38] attention. And I know that sounds kind

[18:41] of

[18:43] boring.

[18:45] But everything comes from that.

[18:48] You know, if you're trying to get

[18:49] through a door on the other side of the

[18:50] room, you kind of have to walk towards

[18:52] it. You can't walk in this direction and

[18:55] expect to go through that door. So,

[18:57] paying attention is moving in the right

[18:59] direction.

[19:01] And when you go through the door of

[19:04] attention, you there's a lot of stuff on

[19:07] the other side of the door, but you

[19:09] don't see that on this side of the door.

[19:11] And no one can tell you what's going to

[19:13] be on the other side of the door.

[19:16] It's not a very good simile, but it

[19:18] makes a little sense.

[19:21] Everything you need to know is within

[19:23] you. Everything we need to know is

[19:25] within us. Nobody has to give us

[19:27] anything. You don't have to be initiated

[19:30] and and by anybody uh never mind.

[19:36] All you have to do is sit down and be do

[19:40] some practice. Start paying some

[19:42] attention.

[19:44] Everything comes from that.

[19:56] Anyway, let's uh take some questions and

[19:59] stuff if you have any. I will pretend I

[20:02] have answers.

[20:05] There's a a microphone that'll go

[20:06] around.

[20:08] >> You can ask anything and I can refuse to

[20:11] answer.

[20:21] >> I think you're right by the speaker. So,

[20:23] >> yeah. Stand up.

[20:26] >> So, on my lanyard it says, "By his

[20:28] grace."

[20:29] >> Hold. Hold it a little closer.

[20:30] >> On the lanyard here, it says, "By his

[20:32] grace."

[20:32] >> By his grace. Yeah. Mhm.

[20:34] >> Is that Maharaji?

[20:35] >> Yeah, we're referring to Maharaji.

[20:37] >> Yeah.

[20:37] >> Yeah, that's a good question.

[20:40] Everything I do refers to Maharaji.

[20:43] By his grace is also the name of a book

[20:46] written by one of Maharaji's great old

[20:48] devotees named Dada. Dada Mukerji.

[20:54] Dada was too much. He was so

[20:55] extraordinary. He was a a communist

[20:59] economics professor.

[21:03] In India, communism is a little

[21:04] different. It's more of a economic thing

[21:06] rather than a social thing.

[21:09] And uh

[21:11] one day uh

[21:15] Dada was home with some of his friends

[21:17] and uh Dada's wife

[21:20] he was putting her shoes on to go

[21:23] outside and Dada said, "Where are you

[21:24] going?" And she said, 'Well, I heard

[21:27] that there's a saint that comes to the

[21:29] little house across the street and I

[21:32] wanted I heard he's there and I was

[21:34] going to go see him. Good.

[21:37] Dada wasn't interested in saints.

[21:40] So, she went she goes out and she walks

[21:42] across the the street and there's this

[21:44] little mud hut, very poor person's house

[21:47] and it's no light inside, very dark. So

[21:49] she bends down and goes in and she sits

[21:53] down and and the the person who was sitt

[21:55] the saint was sitting on a little cot

[21:58] and he looked at him called her by her

[22:00] first name. Camala go home

[22:06] and she she how did he know my name?

[22:11] And she didn't move right and a couple

[22:13] of minutes later he looks back at her. I

[22:14] said go home your husband's friends are

[22:17] waiting for their tea.

[22:20] I'll come tomorrow.

[22:23] So she didn't know what to do. She had

[22:24] to leave. Right? So she goes back to her

[22:26] house and

[22:28] daughter says to her, "Why are you back

[22:30] so soon?" And she tells him what

[22:32] happened and he got curious, right? So

[22:34] the next day

[22:36] he walks across the street with his wife

[22:38] and they walk into this little house and

[22:40] this saint stands up, grabs his hand and

[22:44] starts walking out of the house across

[22:47] the street to his house. And as he's

[22:49] walking and pulling Dada along, he says,

[22:52] "From now on, I'll be staying with you."

[22:56] [laughter]

[22:57] I mean, think about that. you met some

[23:00] homeless guy in the supermarket

[23:05] and you go back out to your car and he's

[23:06] sitting in the front seat and he says

[23:08] from now on I'll be staying with you.

[23:11] [laughter]

[23:14] Well, you know, they knew he was a

[23:16] saint. So they kind of said okay well

[23:19] and so he sat down and then some of the

[23:22] people from across the street came in

[23:24] and sat down and then some of the ladies

[23:26] came and they started preparing food and

[23:28] more people started arriving and food

[23:30] was prepared and prasad was given out to

[23:33] everybody and and that was that he left

[23:37] and came back he kept coming and going

[23:38] and

[23:40] then daughter became a devotey just like

[23:43] not just like that but over years

[23:45] there's another book called the near and

[23:47] the dear by Dada which is so great and

[23:50] in it he

[23:53] talks about his friends that he met the

[23:55] other older devotees and and his basic

[23:58] premise is that he never learned

[24:00] anything from Maharaji everything he

[24:02] learned about love and devotion was from

[24:04] the devotees who had already been with

[24:06] him for some time and it's just you

[24:10] really have to you can really taste it

[24:13] is there a question in the back a hand

[24:15] we scratching or something. No,

[24:18] disappeared over here. Somebody

[24:21] >> those books, by the way, are available

[24:24] uh online. Is that correct?

[24:27] >> Yeah,

[24:27] >> they are available online.

[24:29] >> They're available

[24:30] >> as iBooks and also from Amazon, I think.

[24:32] Right.

[24:33] >> Yes. Okay, there you go.

[24:36] >> I think you have some of one of them at

[24:38] least.

[24:39] >> Go ahead. Oh. Um, you said yesterday and

[24:43] then

[24:44] >> the microphone hold it like this.

[24:46] >> Okay.

[24:49] >> You said yesterday and today that when

[24:52] you saw Ramdas, um, you knew that

[24:57] what you've always wanted existed.

[25:02] Was it love? What was it that you always

[25:04] wanted? I don't

[25:05] >> I don't I don't know how to describe it.

[25:07] >> I figured,

[25:08] >> but [laughter]

[25:12] But I can tell you nobody had to tell

[25:13] me.

[25:14] >> Yeah.

[25:14] >> That I what it was.

[25:16] >> I hear you.

[25:17] >> And that's what it feels like.

[25:19] >> Yeah.

[25:19] >> It's like when you fall in love,

[25:20] somebody has to tell you, "Oh, I heard

[25:23] you fell in love today." Oh, really? I

[25:24] didn't notice,

[25:26] >> you know.

[25:27] >> Yeah.

[25:28] >> It's You fall into whatever that is.

[25:32] >> Good. Thank you.

[25:33] >> You're welcome.

[25:45] Hi Krishna.

[25:46] >> Hi.

[25:46] >> Hi. Um

[25:49] question. I'm

[25:51] struggling a little bit with um as far

[25:54] as spiritual practice. I'm having a bit

[25:56] of a problem with doing it right. Um

[25:59] which I'm sure no one else struggles

[26:01] with.

[26:02] Um, [clears throat]

[26:06] I'm developing a really good

[26:08] relationship with a lot of people at the

[26:10] Christian Temple where I live. And my

[26:12] spiritual practice is very slowly but

[26:14] surely progressing.

[26:16] >> To what? From what?

[26:18] >> I Well, from being a drug addict to

[26:20] being a non-drug addict. I don't know.

[26:22] >> That's a good direction to go.

[26:24] >> It's certainly saved my life.

[26:25] >> It's cheaper.

[26:26] >> It's cheaper.

[26:29] >> And there's [clears throat] job

[26:30] security. So

[26:31] >> yeah.

[26:32] >> Um

[26:34] so my question is um I'm trying to fit

[26:40] in. Um you know I really try to

[26:44] incorporate people from temple. I like

[26:45] to have them come over and let's have a

[26:47] feast at my house and let's have kan and

[26:49] all this kind of stuff but they're like

[26:50] no I can't come over because you have

[26:52] dogs and you know all the rules with the

[26:55] Krishnas

[26:56] >> right

[26:58] >> are really um creating a wall

[27:03] and I can't break it down because they

[27:05] just keep rebuilding.

[27:06] >> Why do you want to?

[27:09] >> Maybe it's not the way you're supposed

[27:10] to go.

[27:12] >> But I love the Gita. I love the

[27:14] scripture. I love the saying the the

[27:17] talking of Praabada,

[27:18] >> right?

[27:19] >> But I also love these people and I want

[27:20] them to come to my house without

[27:22] freaking out because I have a dog.

[27:24] >> I mean, the little things, the little

[27:26] you know, I can't

[27:27] >> Well, you have two choices.

[27:28] >> Okay.

[27:29] >> Get rid of the dog.

[27:31] >> Nuhuh.

[27:32] >> Or uh, you know, just go to the temple

[27:34] and enjoy yourself. What's the problem?

[27:38] I think you're looking for a little

[27:39] security of a of a satsang, which is a

[27:42] very good thing to look for.

[27:44] Perhaps you're not looking in the right

[27:45] place for you.

[27:47] You're not finding it. So maybe you

[27:49] should look somewhere else.

[27:52] They they have their tradition which

[27:54] they teach, which they share, which they

[27:57] believe in. And they don't accept other

[27:59] ways of doing things. Period. That's it.

[28:03] So either you do it their way or you

[28:04] don't do it with them. There's no

[28:06] halfway.

[28:08] So that's it. What are you going to do?

[28:14] travel with you.

[28:15] >> Yeah, right.

[28:20] [applause]

[28:21] >> My dog is very small.

[28:23] >> I'm allerg [cheering]

[28:26] I'm really allergic.

[28:28] >> She's No, no, no. She's hypergenic.

[28:30] >> I just got more allergic.

[28:31] >> 5 lbs.

[28:32] >> Even more. I can hardly breathe.

[28:39] >> Fine.

[28:39] >> Okay, let's go back to the beginning.

[28:41] >> Yeah. Yeah, I understand. I from the

[28:44] little bit you're telling about your

[28:45] history and what your life, I can see

[28:47] there's been a lot of hard times

[28:50] >> and you're you're looking for some

[28:54] some friends really, right?

[28:57] >> I just I want a home.

[28:59] >> Well,

[28:59] >> I want a spiritual home.

[29:01] >> You have that. That's you.

[29:04] You know, it's not out there. What

[29:06] you're looking for is some support and

[29:09] that's available in many different ways,

[29:11] many from many different teachings and

[29:15] there are many teachers out there with

[29:17] groups and different places. But if

[29:19] you're not comfortable, would you trust

[29:20] yourself for Christ's sake? What's wrong

[29:22] with you? You got to trust yourself.

[29:24] You're everything you're you know, you

[29:26] don't seem to you believe what your what

[29:28] your your experience is, but then you

[29:30] kind of you want to step on them.

[29:33] You're telling me this, they won't come

[29:34] to my house because I have a dog.

[29:37] You could say that from now until like

[29:39] the next yuga and that's not going to

[29:42] change as long as your dog lives that

[29:44] long

[29:46] to the next yoga. So you have to deal

[29:49] with reality, right? What you're looking

[29:52] for is good. You need that. So look

[29:55] somewhere where you could find it.

[29:58] You're not finding it where you're

[30:00] looking. there's that's not an incorrect

[30:04] uh assessment of the situation,

[30:07] right? So,

[30:10] you know,

[30:12] try to be a little patient with

[30:15] yourself, which is not easy, right?

[30:17] Yeah. But that's that's the key to it

[30:20] all. Let life come to you a little bit.

[30:23] Don't be so afraid.

[30:25] Not doing sometimes is better than doing

[30:28] as you know

[30:30] >> on every level, right?

[30:32] >> Yeah.

[30:34] >> Once you've done all you can do, then

[30:36] you can't do anymore. So, you just have

[30:38] to wait. But waiting is also being, you

[30:41] know, I mean, don't it's better than

[30:42] banging your head against a wall that

[30:44] that's not going to give in,

[30:47] >> right?

[30:47] >> I'm not criticizing Iskan. I'm just

[30:50] saying that they do things a certain way

[30:52] and they're not going to change. So

[30:54] either you're a part of that or you're

[30:55] not. And uh

[30:59] some of my closest friends are Iskan

[31:01] Swamies you know and they're fantastic

[31:04] really I do have very close friends in

[31:06] Iskan and and the devotion is wonderful

[31:08] but it's it's a particular way of doing

[31:11] it and even in Bindavan there's many

[31:14] many ways of doing it and Bindavan is

[31:17] Krishna's place there's guys who go

[31:18] around going J Sri Krishna there's guys

[31:21] who go around J Sri Rad and then guys

[31:23] going Rad Rad Krishna Krishna you har

[31:26] Krishna Sri Ram Jram everybody everybody

[31:29] you know sometimes feel like a nut

[31:32] sometimes you don't

[31:36] [laughter]

[31:40] you're

[31:42] what you looking for is real. It's good.

[31:46] It's wholesome. It's fantastic. You know

[31:48] what it is. So trust that and look for

[31:51] that. Don't don't look where it isn't.

[31:53] When you don't find it, that means it's

[31:55] not there. Actually,

[31:58] can you imagine that that you could

[31:59] trust yourself?

[32:02] >> The

[32:04] It's hard to imagine, isn't it?

[32:05] >> Yeah.

[32:06] >> Cuz we're not we're not trained to trust

[32:08] ourselves. Not from day one. We're not

[32:11] trained to trust.

[32:13] >> So,

[32:14] >> but that's the that's the whole thing

[32:16] cuz when you really trust yourself,

[32:19] then you know what who you are. So the

[32:25] whole path is about removing

[32:28] the non-rusting yourself, your true

[32:30] nature, your real self, which you

[32:33] already have. And all you're doing is

[32:36] clearing away the And that's

[32:38] what's going to be there cuz it's

[32:40] already there. You don't need anything.

[32:43] You want something. I understand because

[32:45] you feel that it will help and it could

[32:47] if it comes to you. If it doesn't, what

[32:49] are you going to do?

[32:51] >> You're not going to get rid of the dog.

[32:52] That's for sure.

[32:54] So be you.

[32:57] Be you with the dog.

[32:59] You know there's a great story of uh uh

[33:02] Udistra who is the king of the pondas.

[33:05] Arjuna was his brother. Beimma you know

[33:07] the five brothers and Udistra was

[33:10] supposed to be the incarnation of dharma

[33:13] of righteousness.

[33:18] So,

[33:20] um,

[33:25] I probably get this story wrong, but I

[33:27] usually do, but I'll get close. So,

[33:30] after he left the body, uh, it's it's

[33:33] decreed that all kings u must go to

[33:36] visit hell, right?

[33:39] But uh anyway,

[33:42] so everywhere he went through his as he

[33:44] left the body, the different spheres and

[33:47] worlds that he passed through, there was

[33:49] this little dog with him. He didn't know

[33:52] where the dog came from, you know, but

[33:54] the dog was with him everywhere he went.

[33:56] So,

[33:58] um

[34:02] let's see now. There's a couple of

[34:04] things that happened. One thing that

[34:06] happened, he gets to heaven and uh he

[34:09] looks around for his brothers and his

[34:12] family and they're not there. And uh

[34:17] and uh [clears throat] he says, "Well, I

[34:20] don't want to be in heaven if uh my my

[34:22] brothers aren't here. Where are they?"

[34:25] And uh his guide says, "Well, I don't

[34:27] think you really want to know." Said,

[34:28] "No, I want to know. Tell me." He says,

[34:30] "Well, okay. Come with me."

[34:34] And there they are. They're sitting in

[34:36] hell and there's his brothers. And your

[34:38] sister says, "This is where I want to

[34:40] be. I don't care what it's like." And of

[34:42] course, immediately the scene changes

[34:44] and they're back in heaven. Cuz that was

[34:46] just a test, right? So then

[34:50] as he's about to enter into heaven with

[34:52] his brothers, the the the gatekeeper

[34:54] says, "You can come in, but

[34:58] not the dog. I I wonder what group he

[35:01] was in.

[35:04] I know

[35:06] >> you can come in but not the dog and say

[35:08] oh no this dog has followed me through

[35:11] you know thick and thin the everything

[35:13] I'm not going to to abandon this dog.

[35:17] So at that moment the dog turns into his

[35:20] father Dharma the you know the king of

[35:23] dharma and they all enter the heaven

[35:26] worlds together.

[35:27] >> So you have to trust yourself and do

[35:29] what's right for you. That's the best

[35:32] thing you could ever do and that's the

[35:35] way everything will come to you

[35:37] because you're allowing it to by your

[35:40] trust of yourself by you know I'm not

[35:43] saying you have to love every little bit

[35:44] of part of yourself but if something's

[35:46] not working

[35:48] okay it's not working it's not that

[35:50] there's anything wrong with you

[35:53] it's just that it's not working for

[35:55] better whatever right next right when I

[35:59] started to chant

[36:01] Uh

[36:02] there wasn't a lot of chanting going on,

[36:05] nor was there anybody to tell me how I

[36:07] should do it in America. Right.

[36:10] >> Right.

[36:10] >> I mean, you know,

[36:13] so I did what I thought I should do,

[36:15] which was to sing what I like. Why would

[36:18] I sing what I don't like? And that's

[36:21] what I still do. And if I didn't sing

[36:24] what I like, I doubt you'd be here, you

[36:27] know, because you tell I you could tell

[36:30] I didn't really like it. So, I'm

[36:32] actually singing ex I'm doing exactly

[36:34] what I want to do. Like, give or take,

[36:37] you know, a few other things, you know,

[36:39] like I can't eat ice cream anymore, you

[36:41] know, but there's good coconut ice

[36:42] cream. That's good.

[36:45] So through following that part of you

[36:49] that knows,

[36:51] right? That's how you get stronger and

[36:55] stronger and you attract to yourself the

[36:57] things that you need. They'll come to

[37:00] you. A little patience, but you got your

[37:03] dog to keep you company. What's the big

[37:04] deal?

[37:05] >> Yes, I do. Thank you.

[37:06] >> You're welcome.

[37:19] Can you speak a little bit about where

[37:21] the melodies come from? I know they're

[37:23] traditional melodies, but do they come

[37:25] to you? Do you h how do you receive them

[37:28] or how do you how does that happen?

[37:30] What's that process like for you?

[37:32] >> Uh

[37:34] I don't know, you know, I really don't

[37:36] know. I I've almost never sit down to

[37:39] write a kan. I'm usually driving and I'm

[37:43] singing something and I go, "Wow, I

[37:45] never heard that before." And then

[37:47] that's another kon. Sometimes I actually

[37:50] on the the last CD kan one of the one of

[37:54] the melodies I was actually singing in

[37:56] my dream when I woke up. So I got I

[37:59] quickly got the tape recorder cuz I know

[38:01] I don't have a brain and I recorded it

[38:04] at like 4 in the morning and I went back

[38:05] to sleep. Of course, I didn't remember

[38:06] it in the morning, but I had the

[38:08] recorder.

[38:10] That's how Keith wrote the uh Keith

[38:12] Richards wrote the beginning to

[38:13] satisfaction.

[38:15] So, me and Keith have a lot of common.

[38:19] >> Yeah.

[38:22] I once s I once saw an interview with

[38:26] Keith. I mean, and he was saying

[38:28] somebody asked him how they Oh man, you

[38:30] just kind of like open up to the

[38:31] universe and just comes through you.

[38:36] Keith.

[38:37] So there you go. Me and Keith.

[38:43] But uh if you listen carefully like for

[38:46] instance this is what is this

[38:48] confessional like I wrote after Mr.

[38:51] Toari died. Mr. Tari was my best friend

[38:54] my teacher and old devotey of Maharaji.

[38:58] That's what right after that he dropped

[39:00] Namashibaya on me. I mean, I just knew

[39:03] the whole song just boom, right? It just

[39:05] came through one day. It was many years

[39:07] later that somebody said to me or I

[39:10] recognized it myself and said, "Geez,

[39:12] that's the chord to be the chords to be

[39:14] because the night." You know that song,

[39:16] Because the Night, same song.

[39:19] Springsteen ripped me off.

[39:22] He must have had a time machine, gone

[39:24] ahead in time, and heard my chant, and

[39:26] then gone back and written Because the

[39:28] night.

[39:29] >> Can you believe that?

[39:33] So it happens like that. But you know

[39:35] the thing is that there's a mixture of

[39:38] of

[39:40] a emotion is is a very powerful force

[39:43] and emotional

[39:45] uh

[39:48] the emotions that we felt growing up. A

[39:51] lot of us growing up in the 60s and 70s

[39:54] it it

[39:56] 50s

[39:58] a lot of the emotion is caught with

[40:00] music you know music really brought out

[40:02] a lot of emotion and uh so I've noticed

[40:07] that some of the chants really have

[40:09] those same core changes that

[40:12] but instead of saying oh my baby left me

[40:14] I felt so bad 20 million times you know

[40:18] and then having a nervous breakdown

[40:19] you're saying shri I'm ja and you go up

[40:21] to heaven and have a cup of tea with

[40:23] God.

[40:25] So, it's kind of like that.

[40:32] But, um yeah,

[40:35] there was one chant the uh what is it?

[40:37] The um what do we call the

[40:40] mount the mountain Hari Krishna from

[40:42] Pilgrim Heart.

[40:45] There's a chant you might have even

[40:47] heard it last night. Every night we play

[40:50] uh this beautiful, incredible Tibetan

[40:53] llama, Llama Germe, who lives in Paris.

[40:56] He made a CD called The Llama's Chant

[40:58] about 20 years ago. And I've been

[41:01] listening to it since then. I must have

[41:03] listened to it 40 million times. And I

[41:06] actually there was one melody I was

[41:08] stuck on for like months and months. And

[41:11] I said, "That's it. I'm going to write a

[41:12] Hari Krishna to this melody because I

[41:14] can't stop singing it." And I didn't

[41:16] know the Tibetan words which are

[41:18] beautiful and all the very deep

[41:20] invocation of the deities and and the

[41:22] guru and so that the har that one

[41:26] harrishna

[41:29] harrishna

[41:30] see that one that one was a ripoff of

[41:33] the Tibetan chant.

[41:36] Now I've borrowed. Thank you. Thank you.

[41:39] I'm not guilty.

[41:42] But otherwise, they just come through as

[41:43] they come through and

[41:46] I don't really

[41:48] I don't edit them that much.

[41:52] I just sing what I like, you know? Can

[41:54] you imagine?

[41:56] So nice.

[41:59] So,

[42:02] and it was it was hard at first, you I

[42:04] got a lot of flack from people that

[42:06] you're not doing this the right way.

[42:09] Okay, that's I'm glad to hear that

[42:13] cuz no, somebody else's right way is not

[42:15] my right way. You know, I have to do

[42:17] what works for me. If I wasn't doing

[42:19] what works for me when you come to sing,

[42:22] when we come to sing together,

[42:25] it wouldn't feel the way it feels. So,

[42:28] I'm doing my practice.

[42:31] I'm doing what help, what frees me, what

[42:33] gets me, what straightens me out, what,

[42:36] you know, what opens my heart, brings me

[42:38] into that presence, that openness. And

[42:42] so, cuz that's what I'm doing. We get

[42:46] together, we help each other to do that

[42:50] because I you know I was

[42:54] Maharaji left the body in 1973

[42:58] and I didn't really start singing to

[43:00] people this way until 1994.

[43:06] Stubborn,

[43:08] stubborn and very unhappy for a long

[43:10] time. And then I was standing in my room

[43:12] in New York and uh at the time and

[43:16] literally I was struck with the

[43:19] understanding that if I did not chant

[43:22] with people and it was very much with

[43:24] people I would never never be able to

[43:28] clean out the dark corners in my own

[43:30] heart. And I knew that that's where all

[43:33] the problems were coming from. all the

[43:36] suffering was coming from my own stuff

[43:39] that I could not see and couldn't deal

[43:42] with and that the only thing that had

[43:46] been given to me that I could do for

[43:48] myself was to start chanting with

[43:50] people.

[43:53] It took a while actually. It was hard

[43:54] for me for a lot of reasons.

[43:59] And that's why I sing today. Nothing's

[44:02] changed. I keep that's why why I do what

[44:05] I do.

[44:09] Yeah, somebody over there. Where's the

[44:10] mic?

[44:12] >> Okay, we'll get to you next. Okay.

[44:14] >> Uh that big poster straight behind you.

[44:18] Uh

[44:18] >> that's

[44:21] >> that's Da Vindasin Duradei.

[44:25] >> Okay. I was just going to say I've been

[44:27] hanging out with Rondaos off and on for

[44:29] decades but and I know all about Hanuman

[44:33] and Buddha and Maharishi but

[44:35] >> Maharaji

[44:36] >> Maharaji

[44:37] >> Maharishi was

[44:37] >> but the uh the picture behind you is

[44:39] like uh don't identify with it one bit

[44:42] then

[44:43] >> that's the Morty in Kenshi that's a new

[44:47] a new Da temple that Maharaji built in

[44:49] 1972

[44:51] about a year before he left the body

[44:53] right in the courtyard in Kenshi

[44:55] It's called Vindia Vasini Dura Dvi.

[44:58] There's a form of the goddess.

[45:02] If you go back in time, one of the early

[45:05] stories is how uh

[45:11] Shiva was his first wife was named Sati

[45:14] Sati. And her father was the king was

[45:17] the king of the Himalayas. And her

[45:20] father didn't like Shiva because he was

[45:24] smoked hash all the time, wandered

[45:26] around with goblins and ghosts and was

[45:29] you know

[45:31] just a total basket case kind of you

[45:33] know and so when he gave this big

[45:36] ceremony this big fire ceremony he

[45:39] invited all the deities but he didn't

[45:41] invite Shiva and his daughter Sati was

[45:44] very angry about that and she went to

[45:47] confront her father and he wouldn't

[45:49] listen to her. So she threw herself in

[45:51] the fire

[45:54] and Shiva

[45:56] shows up on the scene, grabs her body

[45:58] and he starts flying around the universe

[46:00] in grief and he was the he was going to

[46:04] destroy the universe in his grief. So

[46:07] the gods appealed to Vishnu. Vishnu

[46:09] sends out his weapon which is the chakra

[46:12] and he cuts up the body of Sati who's

[46:14] already dead obviously you know cuts her

[46:16] up into 10 pieces and those pieces fell

[46:20] in various places in India and each of

[46:23] those places is called the shaktip a a

[46:26] center of extraordinarily of power

[46:30] of of the goddess.

[46:33] One of those places is the Vindia Hills.

[46:36] Vindia Hills. Vishnavi Dvi in the Vindia

[46:39] Hills. And this is a form of that

[46:41] goddess who lives in the Vindia Hills.

[46:44] The other another form another

[46:47] is Nanal because the goddess's eyes fell

[46:50] there in the lake and there's a very

[46:52] ancient Dura temple in Nanal which is

[46:55] right near Keni which is where KK lives

[46:58] in Nanal.

[47:00] So this is part of the Indian

[47:03] side of stuff.

[47:07] Uh so she's a form of dura the goddess

[47:10] who destroys all difficulties and takes

[47:13] us across the ocean of samsara the ocean

[47:16] of this world

[47:19] and

[47:20] Maharaji being Maharaji in the hills

[47:24] kali is worshiped very in many places

[47:26] and one of the ways kali's worship

[47:28] traditionally is to slaughter a goat or

[47:30] a chicken so Maharaji said I'll build a

[47:34] temple to the goddess but we'll build to

[47:37] Vishnavi Dvi the shakti of Vishnu

[47:40] because she doesn't accept any

[47:42] sacrifices otherwise these miserable

[47:45] villages will be dragging their goats in

[47:46] here he said

[47:50] [laughter]

[47:53] so so that's what's there

[47:56] and then you were at you you got to wait

[47:59] for the mic where's the mic you can pass

[48:02] it back raise your hand you pass it back

[48:10] That's the temple. By the way, this is

[48:12] the Davyi. When Maharaji made me the

[48:16] pujari or the priest of the Durga

[48:19] temple, it was this temple.

[48:22] And the reason he made me the priest was

[48:24] because uh they brought in a Brahman

[48:27] priest and um after a few days they

[48:31] caught him stealing the money out of the

[48:32] donation box.

[48:34] So they sent him home and they brought

[48:36] in a second one and after a few days

[48:39] they found him stealing the money. So

[48:42] they sent him home and they brought in a

[48:44] third one

[48:46] and then after they caught him and sent

[48:48] him home the temple trust came to

[48:50] Maharaji and they said Baba we can't

[48:52] find a priest that won't steal. What are

[48:55] we going to do? Maharaji goes my priest

[48:58] won't steal.

[49:00] Your priest? Who's your priest?

[49:04] Krishna Das.

[49:08] So I was summoned from uh inner darkness

[49:11] the back of the temple where everybody

[49:13] spent their time

[49:16] and asked to sit out there and be the

[49:17] the pujari. And uh just want you to know

[49:20] I am qualified for this. You see

[49:25] >> okay I'll try I'll try and do this. Um

[49:28] I'm struck by the you say power last

[49:33] night was ultimately the true surrender

[49:35] like you need power to fully surrender

[49:37] to who you really are and that we know

[49:41] who we truly are deep inside ourselves

[49:44] like all the other stuff is excess and

[49:46] can just be lost let go of

[49:48] >> exterior

[49:49] >> exterior can be let go of.

[49:50] >> Yeah. Yet on the other side which to me

[49:53] feels very much about individual not

[49:56] individuality of ego but just a personal

[49:59] inward journey. Mhm.

[50:01] >> And then on the other side, I have this

[50:04] notion of community and belonging and

[50:07] the love and the support that,

[50:11] you know, you just said a few minutes

[50:12] ago, I had to sing with other people.

[50:16] >> And we have other people who said, I

[50:17] needed to be, you know, I want to be

[50:19] belong. I want to be in community.

[50:22] >> And um Trudy talked about a man who was

[50:25] full of hatred. And it wasn't until he

[50:27] got that sense of belonging that he was

[50:30] able to then

[50:33] >> find his own love.

[50:35] >> So I'm just wanted you to speak a little

[50:37] bit about that tension of um

[50:41] our human need to belong and to be in

[50:44] community and our need to then do the

[50:48] personal work internally.

[50:51] >> You know someone asked the Buddha what's

[50:52] the most important? No, the Buddha asked

[50:55] uh Ananda I think or Sar Puta one of

[50:58] those guys which what what is the most

[51:00] important thing in uh

[51:03] on the path you know there there's three

[51:05] jewels the dharma the Buddha the dharma

[51:08] and the sa which is the most important

[51:10] and they all said the Buddha and he said

[51:12] oh no the most important thing is the sa

[51:16] the satsang the company

[51:20] the community of seekers

[51:22] you Now uh ultimately of course

[51:25] everything happens inside of you. If if

[51:27] you will be liberated, if you will be

[51:29] happy, where is it going to happen next

[51:31] door? You know it's going to happen to

[51:33] you inside of you. How that happens and

[51:36] how we can create the the circumstances

[51:39] for that to arise

[51:41] is different for everybody. But one

[51:44] thing's for sure uh community makes it

[51:48] very possible and much more probable

[51:51] that we can get the strength to go

[51:53] through the difficult times without

[51:56] being completely destroyed by them. You

[51:59] know, people to talk to, people to get

[52:01] advice from, people who might know

[52:02] something,

[52:04] friends, people to commiserate with.

[52:07] This is all important stuff. Very few of

[52:09] us are really qualified to be hermits,

[52:11] you know. Uh

[52:15] so

[52:16] >> so it's just you know when you think

[52:18] about groups like the KKK or you know

[52:21] truly horrific groups

[52:22] >> is KK and the KKK

[52:23] >> no thank goodness

[52:25] >> that's a different KKK

[52:26] >> KK different K but so there's the you

[52:28] know and so I guess it's somehow

[52:31] nurturing

[52:33] >> well

[52:33] >> the ability to know when the community

[52:35] or the group where you're seeking

[52:37] belonging

[52:39] um is righteous. Well, yeah, that's but

[52:43] how will you know? You'll know that

[52:44] inside yourself. And if you find out

[52:46] that you're wrong, then you leave. You

[52:48] know, that's the thing. Uh

[52:53] groups can go in any direction, of

[52:55] course, and as human beings, we tend to

[52:58] go to the lowest common denominator, you

[53:00] know. Uh it's just the way we are. We're

[53:04] trained to be stupid, you know, and we

[53:08] practice it with great intensity

[53:10] [laughter]

[53:11] at every chance we get. So, but in the

[53:15] case of the satsang or the you know, the

[53:17] the the friends on the path, you know,

[53:20] you're these are people who you you've

[53:23] got some trust for that they're doing

[53:26] the right thing for themselves and

[53:28] they're sharing that with you. But if

[53:30] you get enter, if you get with a group

[53:32] that doesn't work, you know, it's not

[53:34] feeling right to you. Why would you

[53:36] stay?

[53:38] You know,

[53:39] I'm not one of those people. You know,

[53:41] some people say, uh, I was told that you

[53:44] you should, uh, only repeat one mantra.

[53:46] You should pick one deity to be, you

[53:48] know. I said, okay.

[53:51] Yeah. So, you were told that.

[53:55] Good. Does it work for you? I don't

[53:58] think so. Why would you do it then? Do

[54:00] what works for you. Yeah. As westerners,

[54:02] we don't have the

[54:06] We're coming from We We grew up with

[54:08] Mickey Mouse for Christ's sake,

[54:11] you know? I mean, it's a long way from

[54:13] Mickey Mouse to Rom.

[54:15] Long way.

[54:19] A long way. So, you got to start from

[54:22] where you're at. You got to be who you

[54:24] are. Got to find something that you like

[54:26] to do or you'll never do it. You know, I

[54:29] mean, come on. It's just let's not let's

[54:31] just get to the day. That's the main

[54:33] thing, you know.

[54:39] >> It's a long way from Mickey Mouse

[54:43] to

[54:45] J.

[54:48] Well, there you go. You see where the

[54:49] chance come from. [laughter]

[54:52] Another one of the greatest hits of the

[54:54] Kaliuga. Okay.

[54:58] Where are you? Somebody. Hi.

[55:02] >> Um, I would love to hear more about Mr.

[55:04] Tari and your relationship with him and

[55:08] his relationship with Maharaji and

[55:09] anything you'd like to tell us about

[55:11] about that. Ah,

[55:20] you know,

[55:22] Tari was uh when he was a young when he

[55:26] was young, his parents died. And he was

[55:28] raised by raised by an aunt and then she

[55:30] died and uh he had taken a vow not to

[55:35] marry

[55:38] and uh so he was doing severe yoga

[55:42] practices pranam. He used [snorts] to

[55:44] tell me he would tie himself up certain

[55:46] ways and try to get the energy to get an

[55:49] inch off the ground, you know, and do

[55:51] these really intense practices. And uh

[55:56] so but Maharaji finally they one day

[55:58] they were traveling together and they

[56:00] went to this house where uh the father

[56:03] of the house had died. The mother had

[56:05] died long before and everyone was being

[56:08] taken care of by the youngest daughter

[56:09] who was about 20 I think at the time.

[56:13] And uh so Maharaji and Tawari arrived

[56:16] and they sit in the living room and this

[56:19] woman young woman's going back and forth

[56:21] bringing them food and water and

[56:24] Maharaji goes to Tawari. Hey, she's kind

[56:27] of cute, huh?

[56:30] And Maharaji starts working on it. Look

[56:32] how she's serving. How beautiful she is.

[56:35] How beautiful she serves. She's taking

[56:37] care of everybody,

[56:39] you know.

[56:45] He said, "You know, she's actually Joan

[56:48] of Arc."

[56:54] And then finally he says to her, "You

[56:57] should marry her. You know, I'm I've

[56:59] vowed not to marry." Yeah, I know. I

[57:01] know. But you should marry her. No, I

[57:02] won't do it. I should do it. Three days

[57:05] they stayed in that room arguing about

[57:08] whether he was going to marry this young

[57:10] woman

[57:12] and finally Tai says okay you want me to

[57:15] marry her I'll do so under one condition

[57:18] only this is he's fighting with his guru

[57:21] for Christ's sake here you know what's

[57:23] that I said if you write in golden

[57:26] letters on the marriage certificate

[57:28] itself that I nim karoli baba take full

[57:31] responsibility for all issue of this

[57:33] marriage and sign it. Then I'll marry. I

[57:36] won't do that. Good. Then I won't marry.

[57:38] Well, we're not leaving until you agree.

[57:40] Well, then we're not leaving cuz we're

[57:41] staying on. Finally, Maharaji said,

[57:45] "Okay, I'll do it. I have seen the piece

[57:48] of paper."

[57:51] Tari carried it with him wherever he

[57:53] went. He had a little thing where he had

[57:54] some mantras and yantras and everything.

[57:56] And he had the wedding, the marriage

[57:59] certificate with Maharaji's handwriting

[58:01] in golden letters.

[58:04] And uh so even so on the day of the

[58:06] marriage, Maharaji shows up and Tari was

[58:10] living at the the um top of the hill at

[58:13] the there's a school teacher at the

[58:15] school and the wedding party was getting

[58:19] ready to leave and Maharaji shows up

[58:20] about halfway up the hill. So Toari runs

[58:23] down and they're just sitting there

[58:26] talking and hanging out and finally

[58:27] somebody says, "Baba, this guy's

[58:29] supposed to get married and you're

[58:30] letting him sit around down here. the

[58:31] party's waiting for him. So, Maharaji

[58:33] looks at me and he said, "Jiao, go." So,

[58:38] Tari,

[58:39] they got married. So, I don't know why

[58:42] I'm telling you the story, but one day

[58:44] Tari looked at me, we were talking about

[58:46] meditation and samadei and all this, and

[58:48] he says to me, "You know, I didn't have

[58:53] my first samadei until after I got

[58:56] married.

[59:03] Ah yeah

[59:06] this this woman Mrs. Terari Ma was so

[59:09] great. Oh my god.

[59:11] You know she she lived in agony. She had

[59:15] to pain all the time from neuropathy

[59:18] from diabetes

[59:21] and the she had diabetes and she

[59:24] couldn't treat it because

[59:27] Tari had one day Tari was well it's a

[59:29] long story but Maharaji saved him from

[59:31] tuberculosis

[59:33] and told him that he had to be a

[59:36] falahari palahari which means fruit

[59:38] eater the rest of his life couldn't eat

[59:41] any grains and stuff like that milk and

[59:43] food and so being a good Indian wife she

[59:47] also stopped eating grains and when you

[59:50] don't eat food you can't take the

[59:51] certain medicines uh to control the

[59:54] blood sugar so and you couldn't convince

[59:56] her I mean you you know one time she was

[59:59] writhing in pain and I went up I said ma

[1:00:02] are you okay and she goes

[1:00:06] machine broken inside okay

[1:00:09] >> but she really meant it you know I mean

[1:00:12] it's hard for for us to understand she

[1:00:15] had it was okay. It wasn't she just

[1:00:17] wasn't making it okay inside she was

[1:00:21] good and dealing with that without a

[1:00:24] problem. It was quite extraordinary and

[1:00:28] to see her smile was like to see the

[1:00:30] lights gone in the whole universe. You

[1:00:32] couldn't I would do anything to to make

[1:00:35] her smile a little bit. It was so

[1:00:36] beautiful. Toari would explain things to

[1:00:39] me. He seemed to understand everything.

[1:00:41] You know he had studied all the

[1:00:43] scriptures he had learned his first guru

[1:00:45] was also a great guru of KKK's name

[1:00:49] Brahmachari Maharaj and he had taught

[1:00:51] him his pujas and prayers and

[1:00:55] and he would explain things to me a

[1:00:57] great you know things really intense

[1:00:59] questions he explained them perfectly

[1:01:01] and then within a few words of few

[1:01:04] seconds of finishing a few words out of

[1:01:06] my mouth he could see I didn't

[1:01:08] understand a word he said and he would

[1:01:10] look at me and go, "My boy, is there

[1:01:13] something wrong with your brain?"

[1:01:18] Yeah,

[1:01:21] he was extraordinary.

[1:01:24] Quite extraordinary.

[1:01:27] We brought him to America a few times

[1:01:31] and he went through this period where he

[1:01:32] would go into samati. I mean, he he

[1:01:36] would enter into samati very easily

[1:01:37] every day. I would sleep in the bed with

[1:01:40] him and ma would sleep with the kids

[1:01:41] when I was there and he would wake up at

[1:01:43] 3:30 in the morning, go pee, come back,

[1:01:46] sit up, boom, and be gone until tea time

[1:01:50] about 7 or 8:00. He'd just be gone. I

[1:01:53] would wake up, look at him, roll over,

[1:01:55] and go back to sleep. And not once in

[1:01:59] all those years did he ever kind of say

[1:02:01] like, "Hey, uh, you want to meditate?"

[1:02:05] He never He just let me be me. I wish he

[1:02:08] would have done something else, but he

[1:02:10] did not.

[1:02:13] And uh so he went through this period

[1:02:14] where actually he would we would be

[1:02:16] walking down the street in Berkeley and

[1:02:18] he'd just go and he'd like he almost

[1:02:22] fall over. He would go into samati. He

[1:02:24] was in these extraordinarily blissful

[1:02:27] states and be gone. I mean not

[1:02:29] breathing. You understand?

[1:02:32] Like one time I was sitting with him in

[1:02:34] the living room and we were having tea.

[1:02:38] I think he was still drinking tea at

[1:02:39] that time and I had heard a little bit

[1:02:42] of a prayer with the words not

[1:02:47] and it really got me right. So I asked

[1:02:50] him, "Have you ever heard this?" And he

[1:02:51] said, "Oh yes." I said, "Would you teach

[1:02:54] it to me?" "Oh, sure." So I got my book

[1:02:56] out and he started reciting it very

[1:02:58] slowly and I was writing it.

[1:03:02] Then in after a couple of minutes he

[1:03:04] just started going faster and faster and

[1:03:07] you know I put the book down you know

[1:03:09] and he did he knew the whole prayer. It

[1:03:11] turned out he did this prayer every day

[1:03:13] of his life for the last 50 years.

[1:03:15] Right. And he just he just kind of got

[1:03:18] lost in it and by the end he goes

[1:03:22] Oh,

[1:03:28] he went into samati

[1:03:32] 2 feet from my face.

[1:03:34] He wasn't breathing.

[1:03:37] It really pissed me off.

[1:03:41] I There I was. I couldn't get a I

[1:03:43] couldn't get a taste of this stuff to

[1:03:45] save my miserable ass. And this guy

[1:03:47] couldn't stay out of it long enough to

[1:03:49] teach me one prayer.

[1:03:51] >> [laughter]

[1:03:57] >> And he wasn't trying. Tears were pouring

[1:03:59] down his face. He was just lost. He was

[1:04:03] just immersed, you know.

[1:04:05] So Ma comes in the living room to get

[1:04:07] the teacups. And I said, "Ma, look what

[1:04:12] look at Baba. When is he going to come

[1:04:14] back?" And as she picked up the cups,

[1:04:17] she just looked at me. She said, "Don't

[1:04:19] know." went back to the kitchen,

[1:04:21] [laughter]

[1:04:24] leaving me with this crying corpse,

[1:04:26] right?

[1:04:34] That family, you know, we were talking

[1:04:35] about families before. Oh, did they

[1:04:38] fight and yell and scream? It was

[1:04:41] incredible. And I was living in the

[1:04:43] living room on the couch. I was in the

[1:04:45] middle of all of it in my house. Don't

[1:04:48] talk to me that way. Don't raise your

[1:04:50] voice to me. Don't look at me like that.

[1:04:52] In this house, there were no rules. They

[1:04:55] were screaming and yelling and

[1:04:56] everything, but the thing was there was

[1:05:00] never the slightest fear

[1:05:04] that anybody in that family would throw

[1:05:07] another person out of their heart.

[1:05:10] So, it was open game, right? It was

[1:05:14] free, whatever. And Tawari used to love

[1:05:17] to fight. He would say things that would

[1:05:19] really piss me off and I and then he

[1:05:21] would look at me like, "You will fire

[1:05:23] upon me now,

[1:05:25] [laughter]

[1:05:26] you know,

[1:05:28] you know,

[1:05:30] and we'd be I'd be yelling at him. He'd

[1:05:32] be yelling at me. We'd be eye to eye,

[1:05:34] nose tonse, and we both looking at each

[1:05:36] other like, "Wow, this is great." You

[1:05:40] know, and it was amazing. It was It was

[1:05:43] so liberating for me. This is part of

[1:05:46] what KK was talking about with the

[1:05:47] family. I was I was the eldest brother.

[1:05:50] I was accepted fully even to this day. I

[1:05:54] am the eldest brother in that family.

[1:05:56] The grandchildren bow and touch my feet.

[1:05:59] I'm the I'm the I'm just the oldest

[1:06:00] brother. And it was so wonderful. I

[1:06:03] can't tell you how much it meant to me.

[1:06:06] That kind of

[1:06:09] to be accepted like that, you know,

[1:06:13] is really powerful

[1:06:15] and loved like that and shared with like

[1:06:18] that

[1:06:20] and um

[1:06:25] trusted like that. I used to I would

[1:06:30] they were they were piece of work. This

[1:06:32] Mr. and Mrs.

[1:06:34] She had such bad bad diabetes she

[1:06:36] sometimes she could hardly walk. But we

[1:06:38] were in Rishiash and she wanted to go

[1:06:40] for her Gunga bath, a bath in the Gunga

[1:06:42] at 4 in the morning. And there's no way

[1:06:43] I'm getting up at 4 in the morning. And

[1:06:46] she's and I locked them in their room

[1:06:49] [laughter]

[1:06:51] and she comes but the room the door

[1:06:53] between the two rooms. I was sleeping

[1:06:55] with the grandson, one of her grandson.

[1:06:57] The door between the two rooms was open.

[1:06:58] So she comes in 4 in the morning. Kitty,

[1:07:01] kitty, gungab, gungab bath. I say,

[1:07:06] kitty, kitty, gunga bath. So I take the

[1:07:09] key to the room out and I hand it to the

[1:07:10] grandson. I said, you watch her.

[1:07:14] And sure enough, she fell down the

[1:07:16] stairs and ripped, you know. So there I

[1:07:19] am. I'm walking around with this little

[1:07:22] old lady, taking her to the doctor. And

[1:07:24] there's big white monkeys walking around

[1:07:26] with this little Indian woman. And

[1:07:28] everybody's looking at like, what is

[1:07:29] this about? you know, I was so proud to

[1:07:32] be helping her. It was such a great

[1:07:34] feeling. And um I took her to the

[1:07:37] doctor. She got her earrings, her ears

[1:07:39] stitched back up cuz her big hoop

[1:07:42] earrings got, you know, got caught when

[1:07:44] she fell and ripped her ears. And I

[1:07:47] yelled at her and she just went

[1:07:50] next morning 4:00, "Kitty,

[1:07:53] gnome, ganda."

[1:07:56] I couldn't say no. Right.

[1:08:01] >> [sighs]

[1:08:06] >> You know, I remember

[1:08:09] when I was living in the temple with

[1:08:10] Maharaji,

[1:08:12] I would keep thinking, you know, there's

[1:08:14] a town like, you know, Nanal is just 30

[1:08:17] minutes away.

[1:08:19] Where are the devotees?

[1:08:22] They don't come to see him. I don't

[1:08:24] understand that. And I was like, these

[1:08:27] people are weird. What's wrong with

[1:08:28] these people? And I realized later,

[1:08:30] there's nothing wrong with them.

[1:08:33] What was wrong with me? They have him

[1:08:36] wherever they are.

[1:08:39] They have him. They're doing their duty.

[1:08:43] They're living their lives as he wants

[1:08:45] them to live their lives. They're taking

[1:08:47] care of their families. They're working

[1:08:49] in their shops. They're doing what they

[1:08:51] have to do. And they are in his presence

[1:08:54] all the time. in that loving presence

[1:08:56] all the time and it was me who wasn't in

[1:08:59] it and I was judging them. You know it

[1:09:03] was very interesting when I noticed that

[1:09:14] Tari we used to go places we used to

[1:09:16] travel together and we went to uh

[1:09:18] Chitrakoot which is this place that's

[1:09:20] very sacred to Ram and we were staying

[1:09:22] in this ashram and it happened to be

[1:09:24] Shivatri

[1:09:25] and Tari was a great devotey of Shiva

[1:09:29] and he actually worshiped Maharaj I as

[1:09:32] Shiva guru is Shiva and Shivatri is the

[1:09:36] night that you you usually do a long

[1:09:40] puja almost all night long you do a puja

[1:09:42] and they used to do she Mr. and Mrs.

[1:09:45] used to stay up all night. He would belt

[1:09:48] the mantras out at the top of his lungs

[1:09:50] because that's how his guru told him to

[1:09:52] do it. He told him that when you do your

[1:09:54] puja, you must do it at the top of your

[1:09:55] lungs. No matter where you are. And once

[1:09:58] you start doing the puja, you cannot

[1:10:00] stop until it's finished. No matter what

[1:10:02] happens,

[1:10:05] interesting. So this night we were in

[1:10:07] Chakuda and they went from like 8 in the

[1:10:10] morning till about 8 at night till about

[1:10:12] 6:00 in the morning at the top of his

[1:10:13] lungs.

[1:10:14] Ma's making all the offerings and

[1:10:16] ringing the bell and doing all this and

[1:10:17] Baba is Mr. Tori is yelling and

[1:10:22] so we opened the door of this little

[1:10:23] room we were in and all the Babas in the

[1:10:26] ashram were standing in the courtyard

[1:10:28] like this. They had never heard anything

[1:10:31] like this before.

[1:10:34] You know you being a baba can be like a

[1:10:36] being a

[1:10:40] it's it's like a profession you know you

[1:10:42] walk around you beg a little bit here

[1:10:44] you stay in in this rash you do some

[1:10:46] meditation if you feel like it it's kind

[1:10:49] of like when they heard the real thing

[1:10:52] they were they just like this it was

[1:10:55] amazing I walked out of the room what

[1:10:59] and they you know and the head of that

[1:11:01] asham said to me you're really lucky to

[1:11:03] know him but he was a school teacher and

[1:11:06] then he was a headmaster of a school. He

[1:11:08] didn't leave. He didn't disappear. You

[1:11:10] know, he was right in the world and

[1:11:14] inside the world he did whatever he had

[1:11:16] to do. It's quite extraordinary.

[1:11:26] And he would argue with Maharaji. One

[1:11:28] time he came to the temple in Kenshi

[1:11:31] from Nanal and he starts yelling at

[1:11:33] Maharaji from across the courtyard. Why

[1:11:36] did you drag me here? I was happy at

[1:11:38] home. I had no intention to come like

[1:11:40] this. You know, imagine you talk to your

[1:11:41] guru like this. That's kind of love. The

[1:11:44] that's kind of the fearlessness. There

[1:11:47] was no fear in this relationship. You

[1:11:48] know, Maharaji says, "I drag no one, but

[1:11:52] for 83 lives we've been together. It had

[1:11:55] to happen."

[1:11:56] [laughter]

[1:11:59] I mean, what do you do with that?

[1:12:12] Yeah. Anybody else?

[1:12:18] All right. Where's the mic?

[1:12:28] Hi.

[1:12:31] I sit here and I have Maharaji envy.

[1:12:35] Um you know the

[1:12:39] >> thanks if you got it. Yeah. Okay. Go

[1:12:41] ahead.

[1:12:43] >> The stories are so ex exotic compared to

[1:12:47] the western lives we live and I know

[1:12:49] that you I mean you answered my question

[1:12:51] but I guess I'm looking for something

[1:12:53] back from you and that is yes we live in

[1:12:56] our lives and keep you know Maharaji

[1:12:58] ever present but the yearning is kind of

[1:13:01] intense sometimes. Um, you know, you

[1:13:04] guys were on the bus and we sit here and

[1:13:07] love to hear the stories, but there's

[1:13:09] [clears throat] a part of me that feels

[1:13:10] like, how is it how is it that you have

[1:13:13] all this physical time with him

[1:13:15] >> and I'm still the same schmuck I always

[1:13:17] was.

[1:13:17] >> Oh, I think you're a really great guy.

[1:13:19] >> Oh, thank you.

[1:13:21] >> But what's it I mean, what's it like?

[1:13:23] It's just so I don't know.

[1:13:26] >> I guess I just I wish I'd been there.

[1:13:28] >> No, you don't.

[1:13:30] >> Well, yeah, I do. dissent pooping your

[1:13:34] pants off all day long. What do you

[1:13:36] Well, I hate to tell you, girl, but

[1:13:38] yearning is what saves your ass.

[1:13:42] Without that, you have nothing.

[1:13:46] And it's work. It's designed like that.

[1:13:51] um

[1:13:53] that longing to be in the love is the

[1:13:56] only thing

[1:13:59] that that's our sense of direction.

[1:14:03] We think it's a mistake, but it's

[1:14:05] actually the one thing that saves us

[1:14:08] and it ruins your life

[1:14:12] until it doesn't

[1:14:15] until when which side of that are you

[1:14:16] on? You know, takes a long time to

[1:14:19] overcome like the the gravity of earth,

[1:14:23] so to speak, and

[1:14:26] embody that longing and recognize what

[1:14:28] it is. You know,

[1:14:32] it's it's the connection. It's already

[1:14:34] the connection

[1:14:36] because what do you the thing you're

[1:14:38] longing for? You already know what it

[1:14:39] is. You may not know here, but your

[1:14:42] heart is longing for it. It knows.

[1:14:45] And it makes sure that everything

[1:14:49] falls apart and what's left is that. And

[1:14:53] that's what saves you. Saves us. All of

[1:14:56] us.

[1:15:00] You know,

[1:15:03] that's my only qualification

[1:15:06] period for anything is the longing.

[1:15:10] Yeah, I've been to shrinks. They call it

[1:15:12] something else.

[1:15:16] Too bad for them.

[1:15:20] But that's the thing that that keeps

[1:15:23] it's the first noble truth. It's the

[1:15:26] truth of of suffering. The fact that

[1:15:28] stuff isn't enough. However beautiful it

[1:15:31] is at this moment, it's not going to be

[1:15:32] that beautiful 10 moments from now. But

[1:15:35] what will be and is already that

[1:15:37] beautiful is what you're learning for.

[1:15:41] And you know that.

[1:15:44] So

[1:15:46] those thoughts that you have that you

[1:15:49] expressed for instance when you sit when

[1:15:52] you chant

[1:15:55] Ram Ram

[1:15:58] they caught you they continue to catch

[1:16:00] you. The more practice you do the more

[1:16:02] you align yourself with

[1:16:05] the yearning

[1:16:07] the less those thoughts will uh find a

[1:16:10] place to land.

[1:16:14] and then there won't be a problem.

[1:16:24] Of course, there's the other side of it.

[1:16:29] I had learned this beautiful budgeon,

[1:16:31] this devotional song of Miraabai

[1:16:35] and I dreamed of singing it to Maharaji,

[1:16:37] right? And I learned it and one day I

[1:16:39] was alone with him or maybe there was

[1:16:42] one other Indian guy there and and I

[1:16:45] asked him can I sing this song? Huh? So

[1:16:49] I started singing this mira and I was

[1:16:51] weeping and crying and singing and and I

[1:16:55] finish and he leans over to me and says

[1:16:57] why are you crying?

[1:17:04] And I said Maharaji's love

[1:17:07] which was I was crying because

[1:17:10] I had dreamed of being a person who

[1:17:11] sings and cries and there I was doing

[1:17:14] it.

[1:17:15] Next. It was so funny. I couldn't

[1:17:18] believe it. But he wasn't fooled. You

[1:17:21] know why you crying?

[1:17:25] [laughter]

[1:17:27] So you can kind of do a trip about it

[1:17:30] too, you know.

[1:17:31] You don't want to go too much to this

[1:17:32] side, you know, and start wandering

[1:17:34] around, you know, starving yourself to

[1:17:37] death. And you don't want to go too far

[1:17:39] this side. The [snorts] longing is in

[1:17:41] you right now as you are. It's not

[1:17:43] somebody else. It's not wrong. It's not,

[1:17:46] you know, it's actually that's the path.

[1:17:52] and what you have to do to stabilize in

[1:17:55] that.

[1:17:58] You'll find out what that is.

[1:18:10] You know, I I don't want to even attempt

[1:18:13] to, but I will remind you of this roomie

[1:18:16] poem, you know, called uh

[1:18:20] love dogs.

[1:18:23] It's a beautiful poem. He says uh a man

[1:18:26] was crying Allah Allah and a voice came

[1:18:29] to him and said why are you crying out

[1:18:31] do you ever get an answer and the guy

[1:18:34] thought right I don't so he stopped

[1:18:37] praying and he fell into a confused

[1:18:40] sleep and the the guide of souls came to

[1:18:42] him and said why did you stop praying

[1:18:44] the guy says I never got an answer and

[1:18:47] the guy says the calling out is the

[1:18:50] answer you hear the dog howling in the

[1:18:54] night for his master. That's the

[1:18:57] connection.

[1:18:59] And he says,

[1:19:04] "There are dogs that no one knows the

[1:19:07] name of.

[1:19:09] Give your life to be one of them.

[1:19:20] [snorts]

[1:19:20] Room is too much.

[1:19:47] somebody. No. Yeah.

[1:19:50] I had read Katie that uh recently you

[1:19:52] had done a keron in prison in Vermont

[1:19:55] >> by in invitation.

[1:19:57] >> Yeah, I understand. Luckily, [laughter]

[1:20:01] >> could you could you share a little bit

[1:20:03] about that experience and and and how it

[1:20:05] was? Please

[1:20:08] >> say please again.

[1:20:09] >> Please again.

[1:20:11] >> Okay. No, it was actually beautiful.

[1:20:14] Really? Uh it was in a very minimum

[1:20:16] minimum security prison, a women's

[1:20:18] prison outside of Burlington. And most

[1:20:21] of the inmates were there for drug

[1:20:24] offenses. mostly nobody stayed longer

[1:20:27] than six months. It was just a kind of a

[1:20:30] halfway house almost, but it was a

[1:20:32] prison.

[1:20:35] And [clears throat] uh this uh

[1:20:39] foundation called the Call and Response

[1:20:41] Foundation uh sponsored us in there.

[1:20:44] Somebody an inmate who had read my book,

[1:20:47] Chance of a Lifetime, had and had it in

[1:20:50] prison. It was stolen from her in

[1:20:51] prison.

[1:20:54] She asked them to invite us and so they

[1:20:57] did and we went there and uh [snorts]

[1:21:00] you know it was just me and Arjun

[1:21:05] and uh [clears throat] some of the other

[1:21:07] people from the foundation and stuff and

[1:21:10] and apparently there were maybe

[1:21:13] [clears throat] 30 or 40 prisoners who

[1:21:16] were going to come

[1:21:18] but the day before somebody in the

[1:21:21] prison whether it's a prisoner or a

[1:21:22] guard or Somebody had started talking

[1:21:24] about demon worship

[1:21:28] and scared a lot of the the people about

[1:21:31] I mean you know

[1:21:34] monkeys and all that stuff you know.

[1:21:37] So about 20 of the women came and maybe

[1:21:40] there were 30 people in the room and a

[1:21:42] lot of them were these young girls like

[1:21:44] 20, 21, 22 and they kind of came in like

[1:21:47] this chewing gum

[1:21:50] you know

[1:21:52] and you know I wrote the words up on the

[1:21:55] little blackboard kind of

[1:21:58] and I just started talking and we

[1:22:00] started singing and by the end it was a

[1:22:03] love fest. It was incredible. Except at

[1:22:06] one point, one of the guards, a couple

[1:22:08] of guards came in the room and to take

[1:22:11] role, make sure everybody who was

[1:22:12] supposed to be there was there. So, we

[1:22:14] just sat there like this. They were the

[1:22:15] only uptight people I met for the

[1:22:17] guards.

[1:22:19] And uh it was really sweet. It was just

[1:22:22] uh

[1:22:24] really sweet.

[1:22:33] Yeah.

[1:22:37] For me it was the same you know whether

[1:22:40] it's here there or anywhere makes by his

[1:22:43] grace it really doesn't change me the

[1:22:46] way I do what I do but

[1:22:51] I do find myself in some strange places

[1:22:59] but um it was very beautiful. Nobody

[1:23:01] wanted to leave, you know. Everybody

[1:23:03] wanted to hang out. It was really

[1:23:07] very nice.

[1:23:20] Um, how would you say that your practice

[1:23:22] has impacted you being a grandfather?

[1:23:35] I don't know.

[1:23:38] I think I started that ball rolling a

[1:23:40] long time ago, so to speak.

[1:23:46] It's just kind of manifesting now.

[1:23:49] Um,

[1:23:54] chanting makes me a better grandfather.

[1:24:04] My my grandson Bod loves to play tabla.

[1:24:07] So I'll go over to the house and we'll

[1:24:09] sing together and he'll he'll play taba.

[1:24:11] Then he'll go running around and he'll

[1:24:12] come back to the table and he'll come,

[1:24:14] you know,

[1:24:15] um

[1:24:17] it's sweet. It's very sweet.

[1:24:20] Very sweet.

[1:24:23] And it's, you know,

[1:24:25] it's also tough to see uh the uh

[1:24:32] the conditioning going in, you know. Oh,

[1:24:36] you know, you know, and

[1:24:40] I know where my daughter got her stuff

[1:24:41] from. There's no mystery there,

[1:24:45] you know. And now I'm seeing my grandson

[1:24:46] get the same stuff. generation later,

[1:24:50] maybe a little bit less here, maybe a

[1:24:52] little bit more of that. It's pretty

[1:24:54] interesting. It's you got to kind of

[1:24:55] have to let it be and

[1:24:58] love it all, you know, and uh

[1:25:14] so

[1:25:16] you know, let's be serious. You know,

[1:25:18] practice helps everything. You know the

[1:25:22] more the more you live in your own heart

[1:25:24] the better everything is the better the

[1:25:26] more everything around you becomes part

[1:25:29] of your practice as well. You know it's

[1:25:31] not just practice while you're sitting

[1:25:33] down like this. You know

[1:25:37] we do practices to become

[1:25:40] good human beings to to get the strength

[1:25:43] to be a good fullon human being.

[1:25:48] Someone who cares about other people

[1:25:52] a little bit, you know, not always me

[1:25:54] me.

[1:25:56] Somebody who has the the strength to

[1:25:58] help other people and

[1:26:00] develop some compassion and kindness in

[1:26:03] life. And someone who's trying not to be

[1:26:06] the same jerk that they were last week

[1:26:07] or last month.

[1:26:10] you know, somebody who's not working on

[1:26:13] giving up fear and and

[1:26:16] not isolating our hearts from everybody

[1:26:18] all the time. You know, this is a human

[1:26:21] being. This is not a deity. We're trying

[1:26:24] to become good human beings. That takes

[1:26:26] a lot of strength, inner strength or

[1:26:29] inner power or whatever you want to

[1:26:30] call.

[1:26:34] And uh it's not it's it's a full-time

[1:26:36] job. It's a lifetime job.

[1:26:55] >> As a segue, sorry, just right next door.

[1:26:58] That was easy. Right.

[1:27:00] >> As a segue from that, um, as a

[1:27:03] grandparent looking back, if you could

[1:27:06] give advice to a parent, maybe you as a

[1:27:08] parent to help your child find Yeah,

[1:27:11] this is a good one, huh? [laughter]

[1:27:14] But you spoke about um trusting yourself

[1:27:17] or knowing your true nature.

[1:27:19] >> Yeah.

[1:27:20] >> What could you help a child do or say to

[1:27:23] help them trust and know their true

[1:27:26] nature?

[1:27:29] So they don't have to do all the stuff

[1:27:31] that we've done.

[1:27:34] >> Well,

[1:27:35] >> I know karma and all that stuff.

[1:27:37] >> I mean, all I can say is you, the more

[1:27:39] love you have, the more you love

[1:27:41] yourself, the more you accept yourself,

[1:27:43] the more you can accept other people as

[1:27:46] they are and love them as they are.

[1:27:49] And certainly with a child, you know,

[1:27:51] that's the main thing you want to let

[1:27:53] them know is that they're loved

[1:27:54] regardless of whether they up or do

[1:27:56] well or do this or do that.

[1:27:59] You know, you don't want to get caught

[1:28:02] always being reactive. You know, you

[1:28:05] want to

[1:28:07] support that love, that acceptance, give

[1:28:09] them that strength.

[1:28:12] You do the best you can, you know. So,

[1:28:15] what else can you do? We're all doing

[1:28:18] the best we can. You know,

[1:28:21] we could be doing better maybe, but

[1:28:23] still the best we can at the moment.

[1:28:26] That's that's good enough for now.

[1:28:30] It's a it's, you know, I watched Bodie.

[1:28:33] I watched my grandson, you know, and I

[1:28:35] saw that, you know, he didn't come in a

[1:28:38] blank slate. There was a lot of stuff

[1:28:40] going on in there right from day one,

[1:28:44] you know, and he's got a personality

[1:28:46] that

[1:28:47] I don't know where the hell it came

[1:28:48] from. There's nobody I ever saw before.

[1:28:52] It's very interesting. So, there's a lot

[1:28:55] of love that you have to an acceptance

[1:28:58] and letting that person be who they are,

[1:29:01] you know.

[1:29:03] But if we if we don't have that for

[1:29:06] ourselves, if we don't feel good about

[1:29:07] ourselves, that's what we're

[1:29:09] transmitting whether we want to or not.

[1:29:11] You can't fool anybody in this world for

[1:29:14] long.

[1:29:16] So

[1:29:20] being honest with ourselves is really

[1:29:22] it's not easy but it's it's a big step.

[1:29:27] Then you can maybe be honest with other

[1:29:29] people

[1:29:31] maybe.

[1:29:34] Okay. So I see it's time for Johnny.

[1:29:40] [laughter]

[1:29:41] Yeah. So it's 3:30. We got to go.

[1:29:44] Um,

[1:29:47] I don't know. We'll sing every night,

[1:29:50] but if somebody has questions or

[1:29:51] something, I suppose we could take a few

[1:29:53] minutes. The thing about the night is

[1:29:54] that we have to be finished by 9:30

[1:29:57] because there are people who would

[1:29:58] rather be watching television

[1:30:02] right here in River City.

[1:30:04] So, uh, we can spend some time talking

[1:30:07] or not. It's up to you really. So, you

[1:30:09] let me know.

[1:30:11] Namaste. [applause]

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He describes the mantra, in this case 'Hare Krishna,' as a steady place to return to while thoughts keep arriving. Rather than trying to stop the thoughts, he leans back into the chant and relaxes into it, letting the thoughts pass through without grabbing him the way they used to.
No. He says that during heavy states of mind, chanting can feel like it is doing nothing at all, and that negative moods still arise. What he reports is that they come less often, last less long, and no longer grip him as tightly after years of practice.
In his words, 'We don't get much vote about what thoughts pass through our consciousness. The only vote we get is that moment when we become aware that something's got us.' At that moment we can choose to let go, even briefly, and with practice those choices become easier.
He says faith 'is based on experience' and 'It's not blind faith,' which he calls useless and even dangerous. His own faith came from a direct recognition when he met Ram Dass in America, before he had been to India, and from the ongoing change he sees in his daily life.
According to his account, Neem Karoli Baba sent about twenty Indian singers away after one of them made advances toward a Western woman in the satsang. Krishna Das, who barely knew the melodies, was left to sing for eight to twelve hours a day with no end point, and over a couple of weeks he began to notice thoughts passing through without him thinking them.
The video description says the recording is from a workshop given during a Ram Dass Legacy Retreat in Maui, Hawaii, in 2022. The video itself was published on the Krishna Das Music channel on October 8, 2026.
No. He says he still considers himself a beginner and that he still has moping days, though he says he does it less often. He presents the practice as an ongoing process of training the mind rather than a finished state.

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