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[3:40] for
[4:10] foreign
[4:49] for
[5:19] forch.
[5:49] foreign.
[6:19] Doctor
[6:48] foreign.
[7:16] for
[7:45] speech. forchech.
[8:15] foreign.
[8:44] for
[8:53] energy
[8:55] for
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[9:41] a lot. for
[10:12] for
[10:38] speech.
[10:50] for
[11:19] Lord. forch.
[11:50] for
[12:18] the man of
[12:38] for
[13:08] came
[13:10] Lord,
[13:41] Tension, tension.
[13:53] foreign.
[14:26] Fore speech.
[14:36] Foreign
[14:41] speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
[15:01] for
[15:30] supermarket.
[15:40] foreign.
[16:05] for
[16:17] ice cream.
[16:19] Ice cream.
[16:44] for the year.
[17:04] Foreign speech. Foreign speech. Foreign
[17:05] speech.
[17:09] forch.
[17:39] for
[18:08] the future.
[18:11] Home
[18:27] for
[18:48] forchech.
[19:18] forchech.
[19:48] for
[20:15] chocolate.
[20:17] for
[20:36] cityw forchech.
[21:06] forchech.
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[22:10] astonished.
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[24:54] forchech.
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[29:00] So,
[29:18] foreign
[29:47] speech. for
[30:10] speech.
[30:16] I am
[30:24] beautiful.
[30:35] for
[30:58] marriage.
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[31:32] Fore speech.
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[32:20] forchech.
[32:50] forchech.
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[34:23] speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
[34:33] forchech.
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[35:52] foreign.
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[37:08] forchech.
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[38:37] for
[38:59] doctor.
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[39:35] very
[39:49] Okay.
[40:14] Prophet
[40:25] foregree.
[40:54] All right.
[41:14] foreign
[41:36] speech.
[41:43] Foreign speech. Foreign speech. Foreign
[41:44] speech.
[41:54] forention
[42:23] stumble.
[42:33] forchech.
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[43:23] over there.
[43:28] for
[1:55:15] Anybody?
[1:59:39] Ohara,
[1:59:45] let us meditate for some time in Ama's
[1:59:48] divine presence.
[1:59:51] Sit erect keeping your spine straight.
[1:59:57] Close your eyes.
[2:00:01] Be focused
[2:00:03] deep within yourselves.
[2:00:06] Experience the inner silence,
[2:00:09] the inner stillness.
[2:00:24] Let go all the stress and strain of the
[2:00:27] body and the mind. Feel
[2:00:31] totally relaxed
[2:00:33] physically and mentally.
[2:00:40] Remain present here
[2:00:42] in this very moment.
[2:01:05] We will now together chant
[2:01:08] the prrenava mantra
[2:01:11] the sacred syllable three times
[2:01:16] as you chant.
[2:01:18] Feel the sound
[2:01:20] arising from deep within you.
[2:01:27] Take a deep breath.
[2:01:42] Oh.
[2:01:54] Oh.
[2:02:08] Oh.
[2:02:18] Oh.
[2:02:35] Feel
[2:02:42] the reverberations of the syllable
[2:02:46] spreading to each and every cell of the
[2:02:49] body.
[2:03:08] Slowly
[2:03:11] focus your attention on your breathing.
[2:03:17] Breathe in a normal,
[2:03:19] relaxed, rhythmic way.
[2:03:24] Be aware of every inhalation
[2:03:28] and every exhalation.
[2:03:34] Just watch each and every breath of
[2:03:38] yours.
[2:04:09] Now as you breathe in,
[2:04:13] feel the vibrations of the sound
[2:04:16] more
[2:04:19] with the inhaled air.
[2:04:22] And as you breathe out, feel the
[2:04:25] vibrations of the sound
[2:04:30] with the exhaled air.
[2:04:36] As you breathe in more,
[2:04:38] feel the vibrations of this sound
[2:04:41] ascending through your body,
[2:04:45] finally reaching the top of your head.
[2:04:48] And as you breathe out,
[2:04:51] feel the vibrations of this sound
[2:04:54] descending through your being.
[2:04:58] Ma represents divine love.
[2:05:01] Om represents divine light.
[2:05:05] We need love and light inside and
[2:05:07] outside for this journey of life to be
[2:05:10] peaceful, harmonious and blissful.
[2:05:16] synchronize every breath, the inhalation
[2:05:20] with the vibrations of ma
[2:05:23] and the exhalation with the vibrations
[2:05:27] of oh
[2:05:32] moo
[2:05:43] Ah!
[2:05:49] Ooh!
[2:05:54] Mom!
[2:06:00] Ooh!
[2:06:06] Let the flow of these sounds be
[2:06:08] continuous in your breathing.
[2:16:09] Slowly
[2:16:12] feel the sounds m and dome
[2:16:18] fading away from your breath,
[2:16:21] taking you into a state of profound
[2:16:24] peace and silence.
[2:16:40] Like a bud blossoming into a flower,
[2:16:45] experience your heart blossoming
[2:16:49] and becoming one with the supreme
[2:16:51] consciousness.
[2:16:54] Feel
[2:17:00] it getting filled with divine love
[2:17:04] and experience this love overflowing
[2:17:07] from within towards the whole of
[2:17:10] creation.
[2:17:52] Foreign
[2:18:07] speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
[2:18:31] Let us meditate for world peace and
[2:18:33] harmony as perma's instructions.
[2:18:38] Visualize white flowers of peace
[2:18:42] incessently shoving from the entire sky
[2:18:46] onto the entire earth.
[2:18:49] Our minds being limited, it is difficult
[2:18:52] to visualize the entire earth and the
[2:18:54] sky. You may visualize to the extent
[2:18:58] that your mind permits.
[2:19:01] Those who are new to this meditation,
[2:19:04] please have a look at the visual on the
[2:19:06] screen that demonstrates the
[2:19:08] visualization
[2:19:09] and meditate accordingly.
[2:20:15] Now visualize the white flowers of peace
[2:20:19] falling into the oceans.
[2:20:45] into the rivers.
[2:20:59] >> Visualize them falling on the mountains.
[2:21:16] on the forest.
[2:21:39] on every bird and animal.
[2:21:52] >> And now visualize the white flowers of
[2:21:54] peace falling on your head as well.
[2:22:19] forchech.
[2:22:49] for
[2:23:23] always reminds us that our bodies are
[2:23:25] made up of millions of cells and each
[2:23:28] cell is significant.
[2:23:32] When the cells lining the inner ear
[2:23:34] canal are damaged, it leads to an
[2:23:37] imbalance in the body as we try to walk.
[2:23:40] When the cells of a muscle start
[2:23:42] degenerating,
[2:23:44] it affects the functioning of the whole
[2:23:46] muscle. Feel every cell right from your
[2:23:50] toes to the top of your head awakening,
[2:23:55] getting purified
[2:23:57] and dancing in divine bliss
[2:24:00] like the sparks emitted by a sparkler.
[2:24:04] Feel the sparks of golden light
[2:24:06] permeating every cell.
[2:24:09] Experience the dance of millions of
[2:24:11] cells within, illuminated with the
[2:24:14] golden light. Experience the bliss
[2:24:17] within.
[2:24:18] Let us be alert and aware as we take
[2:24:21] part in this meditation.
[2:24:23] Let us not allow our minds to run after
[2:24:27] the shimmer of worldly distractions.
[2:24:30] Those who are new to this meditation,
[2:24:33] please have a look at the visual on the
[2:24:35] screen that demonstrates the
[2:24:37] visualization and meditate accordingly.
[2:27:15] Lord. Foreign
[2:27:22] speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
[2:27:32] for
[2:28:02] for
[2:28:41] for
[2:28:53] second.
[2:29:07] for
[2:29:21] those who meditate on a form.
[2:29:24] You may visualize the form of your
[2:29:27] beloved deity
[2:29:29] or of the divine mother within you.
[2:29:33] Imagine that you're doing the ceremonial
[2:29:36] worship, the ceremonial washing of the
[2:29:38] lotus feet of the beloved one.
[2:29:42] Pray within.
[2:29:44] Oh divine mother, never leave this child
[2:29:47] of yours. Without you, my life is
[2:29:51] softened. Your lap is my one and only
[2:29:54] refuge. The moments I sit on your lap
[2:29:57] are the moments I feel safe and secure.
[2:30:01] Never abandon this child of yours. Never
[2:30:04] leave me alone.
[2:30:06] Oh mother, as I take this journey of
[2:30:09] life, hold on to me tightly.
[2:30:13] If I hold on to you, there are chances
[2:30:16] that after a while I get distracted by
[2:30:19] the sights and attractions around me and
[2:30:22] I might go running behind these toys and
[2:30:25] I may eventually land in a pit out of
[2:30:29] which I may never be able to come out in
[2:30:32] this lifetime. But if you hold on to me,
[2:30:35] this will never happen. I will reach my
[2:30:39] goal safe and secure.
[2:30:42] Oh compassionate mother, like a newborn
[2:30:45] infant, I am helplessly blind. I have no
[2:30:49] knowledge of the world and its objects.
[2:30:52] I reside in your sweet arms. But due to
[2:30:55] my ego, I may become restless and start
[2:30:58] jumping and easily slip and fall. To
[2:31:02] prevent me from falling, please hold on
[2:31:04] to me ever so tightly.
[2:31:07] Please guide me forever.
[2:31:12] Like a fish on the shore yearns to get
[2:31:14] back to the waters.
[2:31:17] In a similar way, let us invoke the
[2:31:19] longing for our beloved deity or for the
[2:31:23] divine mother within.
[2:31:25] Those who meditate on the formless.
[2:31:28] You may imagine that you are drawing a
[2:31:30] triangle
[2:31:32] starting from the point between your
[2:31:34] eyebrows to the middle of your forehead.
[2:31:38] Visualize a self-luminous
[2:31:41] glittering white pearl at the center of
[2:31:44] this triangle.
[2:31:46] Like a firefly glowing, visualize this
[2:31:49] pearl glowing in all brilliance.
[2:31:53] Be totally focused on this glow for a
[2:31:56] while.
[2:31:59] After some time, imagine this glow
[2:32:03] taking the form of a flame.
[2:32:05] See it come out of the triangle, descend
[2:32:08] downwards
[2:32:10] and become bigger and brighter.
[2:32:13] Visualize it encircling your body right
[2:32:17] from your feet to the top of your head.
[2:32:20] Feel this light spreading all around.
[2:32:24] Imagine yourselves becoming one with
[2:32:26] this light.
[2:32:29] Those who are new to this meditation,
[2:32:32] please have a look at the visual on the
[2:32:33] screen that demonstrates the
[2:32:35] visualization and meditate accordingly.
[2:35:22] foreign
[2:35:41] loan.
[2:35:51] for
[2:36:09] shore.
[2:36:15] I hear you.
[2:37:45] My humble pron's lotus feet
[2:37:49] showing us the path
[2:37:52] and salutations to all of Amma's darling
[2:37:55] John
[2:38:00] During Ammitri Vashini's first year we
[2:38:03] were here in Amritapuri.
[2:38:06] Then we went back to France living in
[2:38:09] the countryside
[2:38:11] surrounded by magnificent nature
[2:38:15] next to a small river with space to grow
[2:38:18] vegetables and flowers.
[2:38:22] We were hosting monthly satsang and were
[2:38:26] singing pajans twice a month with local
[2:38:28] devotees.
[2:38:31] Those moments were rays of sun but too
[2:38:35] sporadic
[2:38:38] and we lacked funds to travel to the
[2:38:40] French ashram or to Amritapuri.
[2:38:44] We were deeply missing Amma's physical
[2:38:48] presence,
[2:38:49] the Kali temple and the gallery.
[2:38:53] And I was longing for an uplifting
[2:38:55] environment for my daughter.
[2:39:00] In 2017 during the Europe tour, I told
[2:39:04] Amma that I was scared to get lost in
[2:39:07] the word and Amma replied,
[2:39:12] "See God in the word."
[2:39:16] Well, Amma reminds us that when we go to
[2:39:20] a charcoal factory,
[2:39:22] no matter how careful we are, we still
[2:39:26] get stains on our shirt.
[2:39:29] So, how was I supposed to see God in the
[2:39:32] word? In our neighbors who smoked all
[2:39:36] day, drunk alcohol,
[2:39:40] and had barbecues every weekend.
[2:39:45] I still tried my best to apply Emma's
[2:39:48] advice.
[2:39:49] So, despite their habits, there was
[2:39:52] solidarity among them.
[2:39:55] The mother shouted at her son often, but
[2:39:59] her love was palpable whenever he fell
[2:40:01] down or got sick.
[2:40:05] Cigarettes, alcohol, and yelling were
[2:40:09] just gray clouds
[2:40:11] covering the sun of love.
[2:40:15] Amma says, "Don't hate the person, hate
[2:40:19] the bad behavior."
[2:40:23] Actually with the house surrounded by
[2:40:26] nature, Amma had granted our desires.
[2:40:30] Yet something was deeply missing.
[2:40:35] Was it her divine Maya to make us
[2:40:38] realize what was most important?
[2:40:44] As the Bajan says,
[2:41:01] in the
[2:41:08] I had everything
[2:41:11] but my life felt empty without you.
[2:41:17] Are you a leader?
[2:41:37] Okay.
[2:41:54] A year later in 2018, Amma told us
[2:41:57] several times, Amita Puri, Amritapuri,
[2:42:02] Amitapuri, Amitapuri,
[2:42:05] Ammitri Puri.
[2:42:07] And then come to Asham.
[2:42:11] So Amita Varini and I spent two months
[2:42:14] in Amritapuri
[2:42:15] and then we all moved to the south
[2:42:18] French ashram.
[2:42:20] I felt as if I was leaving the charcoal
[2:42:23] factory of the world to reach the
[2:42:26] perfume factory of Amma Ashram.
[2:42:30] But there it was as is the beautiful
[2:42:33] waterfall of the ashram
[2:42:37] who was pouring into the inner vessel of
[2:42:39] my mind to make all the dirt come up.
[2:42:44] So in the perfume factory of the French
[2:42:46] asham I met my inner charcoal factory.
[2:42:59] I faced my own negativities.
[2:43:03] I realized I had not been able to accept
[2:43:05] my previous neighbors because I had not
[2:43:08] accepted my own imperfections.
[2:43:12] They were a difficult mirror.
[2:43:14] To see God in the word, we need purity
[2:43:17] of mind.
[2:43:20] In the Bhagavad Gita Shloka 29 chapter
[2:43:23] 6, Sri Krishna says,
[2:43:40] One whose mind is united in yoga sees
[2:43:44] the self residing in all beings and all
[2:43:48] beings in the self.
[2:43:52] Amma also says
[2:43:54] devotion for the Lord and compassion for
[2:43:58] the word are two sides of the same coin.
[2:44:02] We must learn to love everyone equally
[2:44:06] because in essence we are all one atman.
[2:44:12] Seeing God in the world is a goal and a
[2:44:15] path.
[2:44:17] The Brahmacharini who trained us before
[2:44:20] we were married by Amma in France told
[2:44:23] us the goal of marriage is to see God in
[2:44:27] at least one person
[2:44:37] even if if we can't see God in everyone.
[2:44:41] Amma looked so happy when she married us
[2:44:44] and now I understand that she was
[2:44:47] rejoicing at the opportunity given to us
[2:44:50] to work on our ego.
[2:44:54] We probably started our relationship as
[2:44:57] two beggars expecting each other's love
[2:45:01] and we are now trying
[2:45:07] trying to become givers.
[2:45:10] There's still a long way to love
[2:45:11] unconditionally and see the divine in
[2:45:14] each other. However, I'm very grateful
[2:45:17] that we are both Amma's children.
[2:45:22] Like many nuclear families in the West,
[2:45:24] living without the support of a joint
[2:45:27] family. My husband and I felt
[2:45:30] overwhelmed when our daughter was born.
[2:45:35] By Amma's grace, we reached Amritapuri
[2:45:38] when she was two months old.
[2:45:41] Amma was our emotional support and far
[2:45:44] beyond.
[2:45:46] Yet, it was not easy.
[2:45:49] Before becoming a mother, I used to
[2:45:52] connect with Amma through SA and Bajans.
[2:45:56] The baby had interest the baby Amma had
[2:46:00] entrusted to us was quite intense and
[2:46:03] restless.
[2:46:10] I'm going to do it.
[2:46:20] Hence doing CA was difficult.
[2:46:23] To give you an idea, Laabes were of no
[2:46:26] help to put her to sleep. Only the
[2:46:30] Mahisha surinist
[2:46:38] used to calm her down
[2:46:44] during sunset and pageant time. She used
[2:46:47] to cry endlessly. So we were not able to
[2:46:50] attend pageantss.
[2:46:53] This created an inner struggle.
[2:46:56] It seems choosing the householders path
[2:46:59] is pulling me away from Amma. Did I make
[2:47:03] a mistake?
[2:47:07] One evening during Darian, I desperately
[2:47:09] wanted to give Prasad. The line was long
[2:47:13] and knowing my tiny baby could not wait,
[2:47:16] I skipped it. So, as you can imagine, I
[2:47:20] faced a few disapproving glances.
[2:47:31] When I reached the pitham, in Amma's
[2:47:34] soft face, I saw my baby's face
[2:47:38] and the message was clear. When you take
[2:47:40] care of your child,
[2:47:43] imagine you're taking care of me.
[2:47:48] When you take care of your child with
[2:47:49] love, you are taking care of me. Think
[2:47:52] you are with the divine.
[2:47:55] This moment helped me to surrender.
[2:47:58] My way to connect with God. My dharma
[2:48:02] was no caring for my baby.
[2:48:05] The situation remained the same but my
[2:48:08] mindset transformed.
[2:48:10] And now Amita Varini deeply loves Bajans
[2:48:14] and Sava.
[2:48:17] I feel
[2:48:20] so grateful to be able to live my dharma
[2:48:22] as a mother
[2:48:28] in this secret place.
[2:48:31] In Amma's presence, motherhood became
[2:48:33] meaningful and my heart feels deep
[2:48:36] gratitude to raise my daughter in such a
[2:48:38] blessed environment.
[2:48:45] I used to feel bitter about my own
[2:48:47] childhood. I grew up with the sole
[2:48:49] purpose of doing well at school to make
[2:48:52] my parents proud and maybe get a good
[2:48:55] job.
[2:48:56] Without spiritual guidance, I felt lost
[2:48:59] during my teenage years.
[2:49:02] I met Amma in my early 20s.
[2:49:06] Seeing Ayude youth expressing their
[2:49:09] talents with a sense of purpose and the
[2:49:12] desire to serve, I wondered why was I
[2:49:16] born in a non-spiritual family? Why did
[2:49:19] I lose so much time?
[2:49:23] Once someone told me there was no
[2:49:25] mistake because you are with Amma now
[2:49:29] everything happened in the exact right
[2:49:32] way.
[2:49:35] My wounds in a materialistic
[2:49:37] environment, my karma led me to search
[2:49:41] for deeper meaning, guiding me to amma.
[2:49:46] Looking back, your presence amma was
[2:49:49] always there, covered by layers of
[2:49:52] vasanas.
[2:49:54] It took a long time, but now I clearly
[2:49:57] see what gave me, what God gave me
[2:49:59] through my parents, the love for nature
[2:50:02] from my father, the love for music for
[2:50:05] my mother.
[2:50:07] They both did their best with their own
[2:50:10] difficult childhoods.
[2:50:14] Thanks to Amma's presence in my life
[2:50:16] now, I carry fewer expectations towards
[2:50:18] my birth family and I can connect with
[2:50:21] them peacefully, even if it's not very
[2:50:24] often.
[2:50:27] I no longer see karma as a punishment,
[2:50:30] but as an opportunity to grow and refine
[2:50:33] ourselves.
[2:51:07] When will I re when will I realize that
[2:51:09] you and You alone are everything that
[2:51:13] exists.
[2:51:14] When will I gain the secret vision to
[2:51:17] behold this entire creation as you?
[2:51:22] Reveal it to me. Oh goddess also
[2:51:25] pregnant of the universe.
[2:51:29] Amma may I see everyone as your darling
[2:51:33] child.
[2:51:35] Amma, may I always feel your divine hand
[2:51:38] guiding each step.
[2:51:42] If I need to go through difficult karma,
[2:51:45] may it bring me closer to you and never
[2:51:50] let me go astray again.
[2:51:56] Keep us near to you always. Offering
[2:51:58] these words at Amaz.
[2:52:09] Thank you.
[2:52:40] Foreign
[2:52:43] speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
[2:53:05] Great child.
[2:53:15] forchech.
[2:53:55] for
[2:54:24] ache. for
[2:54:55] forchech.
[2:55:24] forchech.
[2:55:54] Foreign
[2:55:58] speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
[2:56:08] for
[2:56:37] speech.
[2:56:48] for
[2:57:16] energy. forchech.
[2:57:47] forch.
[2:58:16] forchech.
[2:58:46] forchech.
[2:59:16] forchech.
[2:59:46] for
[3:00:14] forchech.
[3:00:44] Foreign
[3:00:52] speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
[3:01:02] Understand?
[3:01:32] for
[3:02:01] forchech.
[3:02:31] for
[3:03:01] for
[3:03:28] omites in the maha.
[3:03:32] said she is very happy to hear
[3:03:36] our sister's
[3:03:38] account of her experiences and the way
[3:03:41] she developed her attitude in the right
[3:03:45] way to see things in a proper light.
[3:03:49] Amma says that
[3:03:53] she could bring Amit Amitni to this
[3:03:57] world and is praying that may Amritney
[3:04:01] be a role model you know helping the
[3:04:04] people in the world and also it's such a
[3:04:06] blessing to have a child who is so
[3:04:09] interested in spirituality at her young
[3:04:13] age and Nama says we need such such
[3:04:17] souls in in plenty to give the world the
[3:04:23] light of dharma and uh I is praying that
[3:04:27] may this interest in spirituality
[3:04:31] be there in all of you and uh may it
[3:04:34] grow leaps and bounds as you progress
[3:04:37] ahead
[3:04:39] I was mentioning that uh you had the
[3:04:43] innocent desire to be with tama to be in
[3:04:48] a spiritual atmosphere
[3:04:50] and uh when the desire is innocent and
[3:04:54] selfless then surely the universe has to
[3:04:58] find ways to fulfill it and so finally
[3:05:01] you could reach Amita Puri and you are
[3:05:03] now staying here with your daughter you
[3:05:07] mentioned about how difficult it was to
[3:05:10] see everything as God
[3:05:15] develop this kind of a vision right from
[3:05:17] the start it takes a while. First we may
[3:05:21] not have the strength to see everything
[3:05:24] as the divine. We will see a lot of
[3:05:26] imperfections in people. But as we grow
[3:05:30] in our spiritual pro in our or grow on
[3:05:33] the spiritual path then slowly we will
[3:05:36] be able to see God in everything. It is
[3:05:41] an advanced state and it may seem
[3:05:43] difficult initially but it is a state
[3:05:46] that we can surely reach through this
[3:05:49] through this path. I was narrating an
[3:05:52] anecdote to explain this point. Once uh
[3:05:56] Udhava
[3:05:58] set out from Matura to visit Vindavan he
[3:06:02] had heard a lot about the devotion of
[3:06:04] the gopies. So he he sought you know he
[3:06:08] sought Krishna's permission to go and
[3:06:11] meet the gopies. So as he entered
[3:06:14] Vindavan he did not know where the house
[3:06:17] of the of the lord was. So he saw two
[3:06:21] gopies there and he asked them as to
[3:06:28] can you tell me the directions to to
[3:06:30] Krishna's abboard
[3:06:32] and these gopies they looked at each
[3:06:35] other and started giggling they started
[3:06:38] giggling you know looking at each other
[3:06:40] and Udhava felt very bad he thought that
[3:06:44] they were mocking at him so he said you
[3:06:46] know I am a newcomer to this place and
[3:06:49] never been here before that's why I I
[3:06:51] was asking you you know where is the
[3:06:53] lord's abode I don't think you should be
[3:06:56] mocking me like this and the gopies
[3:06:58] replied they said you know forgive us we
[3:07:01] were not mocking you
[3:07:04] Sri Krishna the supreme lord is present
[3:07:08] in every single grain of sand in this
[3:07:11] reindav
[3:07:12] resides in every plant every flower in
[3:07:15] every blade of grass here he completely
[3:07:19] fills the entire atmosphere. He of
[3:07:22] course has a special place in the hearts
[3:07:24] of his devotees.
[3:07:27] It would be more accurate to ask where
[3:07:30] the lord is not present rather than
[3:07:33] asking where is the lord's abode or
[3:07:36] where is the lord present.
[3:07:38] It was hearing this question where is
[3:07:40] the lord's abboard in such a place that
[3:07:43] made us smile. Hearing this reply
[3:07:46] brimming with wisdom born from the
[3:07:49] innocent devotion of the gopies Udhava
[3:07:53] was left completely stunned and
[3:07:55] speechless. So Amma was mentioning that
[3:07:59] once you advance on this path then
[3:08:03] slowly you are able to see everything as
[3:08:07] the as the divine alone. It's not easy
[3:08:10] straight away. It takes time but one can
[3:08:13] slowly reach there.
[3:08:15] says that you mentioned that at least uh
[3:08:20] you put an effort to see your husband as
[3:08:22] God uh at least one person as God. It's
[3:08:26] a it's a good start. I must says that
[3:08:29] even that is difficult but at least it's
[3:08:31] a good start because we don't see the
[3:08:35] other as divine that easily because all
[3:08:38] our past experiences our perceptions our
[3:08:42] bringing up our culture everything comes
[3:08:44] on the way of seeing the other person.
[3:08:47] So when we see a person it is through
[3:08:50] all these colored glasses of our past
[3:08:53] experiences and perceptions and uh
[3:08:56] preconceived notions. So it is not easy
[3:08:59] for us to see divinity in a person that
[3:09:03] easily. But at the same time says when
[3:09:06] we learn spirituality we understand that
[3:09:08] there is a divine there is divinity in
[3:09:11] each and every person. Even the most
[3:09:14] dreaded criminal or terrorist says there
[3:09:18] is divinity because when such a person
[3:09:21] who might have killed say 10 people when
[3:09:24] such a person sees his own child there
[3:09:27] is a spark of compassion of love and
[3:09:30] compassion that that arises within that
[3:09:32] sometimes can be seen in the eyes of the
[3:09:35] person. So even in such a dreaded
[3:09:37] criminal you will find some spark of
[3:09:41] goodness. uh says uh remember who
[3:09:43] Walmiki was well the great Rishi Walmiki
[3:09:46] who authored the Ramayana he was a
[3:09:48] highway robber before he became such a
[3:09:51] great rishi and when he met the seven
[3:09:54] sages the sapar rishies they accepted
[3:09:57] him without looking into his past and it
[3:10:00] was that acceptance that completely
[3:10:03] changed Walmiki and made him this great
[3:10:06] rishi so amma says that even such a
[3:10:10] person could rise up to such an elev
[3:10:13] such an elevated state. So we all have
[3:10:16] the potential within. We just need to
[3:10:19] realize it. We just need to be aware of
[3:10:22] it. Gives the example if you have 100
[3:10:25] pots of water kept in sunlight. You see
[3:10:27] the reflection of the sun in each and
[3:10:29] every pot that does not mean that there
[3:10:32] are 100 suns. The sun is only one. In a
[3:10:35] similar way, there is only one self that
[3:10:37] is there in each and every being in the
[3:10:40] whole of creation. Just like when our
[3:10:43] left hand is in pain, the right hand
[3:10:45] goes over to caress it. Knowing that the
[3:10:48] left and right are a part of the one.
[3:10:50] Just like when our finger pokes the eye,
[3:10:53] we don't punish the finger. We use the
[3:10:55] same finger to rub the eye knowing that
[3:10:58] the finger and the eye are a part of the
[3:11:00] one. When you see that oneness in
[3:11:02] everything then you will be able to to
[3:11:05] love the whole of creation. Says the
[3:11:10] knowledge of the scriptures they help us
[3:11:12] lot to develop this vision of oneness.
[3:11:17] Initially it is difficult but as we grow
[3:11:21] in knowledge it is possible to develop
[3:11:24] this vision. Initially we may not be
[3:11:26] able to love everybody but Tama says at
[3:11:29] least let us try not to be angry at
[3:11:32] anybody that's that itself is a very
[3:11:34] good start. We may not have been brought
[3:11:38] up that way of uh you know being in a we
[3:11:41] may not have been in a spiritual
[3:11:43] atmosphere when we were young. The way
[3:11:45] may the parents brought us up may not be
[3:11:48] in a very congenial atmosphere. So all
[3:11:51] this has an effect and it takes a while
[3:11:54] to really come out of all these these
[3:11:58] preconditionings
[3:11:59] and to be able to see divinity in
[3:12:02] everything. Abama says that as we learn
[3:12:05] the scriptures we learn that this human
[3:12:08] life needs to be used for a higher goal.
[3:12:10] If this human birth is just used for
[3:12:14] eating, drinking, sleeping and
[3:12:16] procreating, there is no difference
[3:12:18] between an earthworm and a human being.
[3:12:21] An earthworm also does all these
[3:12:24] functions. But at the same time, the
[3:12:26] earthworm it does not it does not
[3:12:29] destroy nature in any way. Amma says uh
[3:12:33] it adds to the fertility of the soil.
[3:12:35] But we human beings we keep taking from
[3:12:38] nature all the time and even after death
[3:12:41] we cause some or the other harm to
[3:12:43] nature. When the body is cremated there
[3:12:46] are greenhouse emissions being added. I
[3:12:48] must say when the body is buried again a
[3:12:50] lot of chemicals are added that that
[3:12:53] pollutes the earth. So in one way or the
[3:12:56] other we keep taking from the world we
[3:13:00] keep uh adding to the to the
[3:13:03] destruction. So we need to use this life
[3:13:06] for a higher purpose. Just like a turtle
[3:13:10] moving on the sands leaves a mark
[3:13:12] behind, we are expected to leave a mark
[3:13:15] behind that will inspire the coming
[3:13:17] generations. So we need to use our life
[3:13:21] in a way that we'll be able to reach a
[3:13:24] higher goal that will be beneficial for
[3:13:26] us and to society as well. Amma says
[3:13:29] that let us try to bring in the
[3:13:32] synthesis of all the three parts of bi
[3:13:35] of selfless service and knowledge. Just
[3:13:38] like a bird needs two wings and a tail
[3:13:41] to fly. M says for us to soar in the
[3:13:44] spiritual sky one of the wing has to be
[3:13:46] devotion the other wing has to be
[3:13:48] selfless service and the tail has to be
[3:13:52] has to be knowledge. Amma says if we
[3:13:56] don't have the right purity
[3:13:58] and we do our spiritual practices it
[3:14:01] will not take us ahead. People may do
[3:14:03] tapas but at the same time all the
[3:14:05] energy that they conserve may be
[3:14:08] dissipated by getting angry at others. M
[3:14:11] says it is of no use when we allow all
[3:14:15] this energy to be dissipated through all
[3:14:17] these negative emotions. We need to
[3:14:20] follow the path of moderation. Amma says
[3:14:23] we need to be moderate in our speech, in
[3:14:25] our food, in all the sensory indulgence
[3:14:28] that will slowly help us to conserve the
[3:14:31] energy and take us ahead. When we do
[3:14:34] sava again, it should be with the right
[3:14:37] attitude. Amma says that otherwise it
[3:14:39] just remains an action. It doesn't
[3:14:42] become real sava. It it needs to be done
[3:14:46] with the with the understanding that I
[3:14:48] am doing this action with the power of
[3:14:52] the supreme alone for my hands to move
[3:14:55] there is a power acting behind it which
[3:14:57] is which is making things happen. If
[3:14:59] that power stops acting I will not be
[3:15:02] able to do it. Gives the example when we
[3:15:04] yawn there is a power acting behind that
[3:15:07] action that makes our mouth open. If
[3:15:09] that power stops acting then the mouth
[3:15:12] will remain open. It will not close. So
[3:15:15] we need to understand that there is a
[3:15:17] power acting behind all our actions. So
[3:15:20] sava should be done with proper
[3:15:23] awareness otherwise it just remains an
[3:15:25] action. I was narrating an anecdote to
[3:15:28] explain this point.
[3:15:30] There was a a hermitage where a master
[3:15:33] was teaching shastra scriptures to the
[3:15:36] disciples. Once a disciple went to the
[3:15:38] master and said, "Oh master, I have made
[3:15:41] a big mistake and I am ready to accept
[3:15:44] any punishment for the mistake that I
[3:15:46] have committed." The master called all
[3:15:49] the other disciples and said that you
[3:15:51] know this person has committed a a
[3:15:54] mistake and he is ready to accept any
[3:15:56] punishment but I'm not going to decide
[3:15:58] what punishment I should give him. you
[3:16:01] know maybe we should you know discuss
[3:16:03] and decide what should be the punishment
[3:16:05] that we give this person. So at first
[3:16:09] the cook he raised his hand and said
[3:16:11] master you should make him chop
[3:16:14] vegetables for every meal for the rest
[3:16:17] of the year. The disciple who worked in
[3:16:21] the garden and he said no no no way you
[3:16:24] should make him weed the garden water
[3:16:26] the plants for the rest of the year. The
[3:16:29] one who worked in the cow shed say no
[3:16:31] that's not the right thing. Let him
[3:16:33] shovel cowunk for the rest of the year.
[3:16:35] Then he will understand. The person who
[3:16:38] gives the tokens he said no way. Let him
[3:16:41] give token all the time. He will
[3:16:44] understand how strenuous that job is.
[3:16:47] The person at the accommodation say no
[3:16:49] let him sit there. Then he will hear
[3:16:52] complaints from everybody. He will
[3:16:54] understand how difficult the job is. So
[3:16:57] hearing all these ideas from the
[3:17:00] disciples, the master was smiling. And
[3:17:04] after they all finished, the master
[3:17:06] said,
[3:17:08] "Have you realized that all these
[3:17:10] punishments that each one of you came up
[3:17:13] with are actually your own ashram sava?"
[3:17:18] So this is the way that you see your
[3:17:20] sava. You see it as a punishment. So
[3:17:24] this is the attitude that is preventing
[3:17:26] your actions from becoming karma yoga.
[3:17:29] If you were able to see your chores as
[3:17:32] worship, it would lead you straight to
[3:17:34] God. So says even when we do our sava,
[3:17:39] it has to be done with the right
[3:17:41] attitude because otherwise it remains a
[3:17:45] mere action. says when an action is done
[3:17:47] with an aspect of of surrender or as an
[3:17:51] offering that whatever be the action it
[3:17:53] turns into a puja says even cleaning the
[3:17:56] drain can become a puja to the lord if
[3:17:59] that cleaning is done with the right
[3:18:01] attitude at the same time one may be
[3:18:04] doing worship but if the attitude is not
[3:18:06] right it just remains an action says
[3:18:09] that through puja through all the
[3:18:11] practices that we do what we are
[3:18:14] achieving is the purity of mind. Amma
[3:18:17] says it's the antakarni that is being
[3:18:20] achieved if you do it with the right
[3:18:22] attitude. Ama says when we do our
[3:18:25] prayers, our worship, it should not be
[3:18:27] with the attitude that I am giving God
[3:18:29] something. Says God doesn't need
[3:18:32] anything from us. He's the giver of
[3:18:34] everything. Says he is even the strength
[3:18:37] behind our offerings. We forget that. So
[3:18:41] all this is being done for the for our
[3:18:45] own good for our own purification. We
[3:18:48] should be aware of that otherwise we are
[3:18:51] not going anywhere. So I was mentioning
[3:18:55] the importance of having this awareness
[3:18:58] when we do our practices. If we can keep
[3:19:02] up this awareness then slowly we arise
[3:19:05] into the into the realm of goodness
[3:19:08] where we see everything as as good as
[3:19:12] things that help us to move ahead. So
[3:19:15] Amma was uh to make this point clear
[3:19:19] Amma was narrating another anecdote to
[3:19:22] explain this point. uh in a master's
[3:19:25] ashram there were several disciples you
[3:19:28] know who were very devoted to spiritual
[3:19:31] practice and the master trained them
[3:19:34] thoroughly along the path of sacrifice
[3:19:37] and austerity and as they would attain
[3:19:40] spiritual maturity he would send them
[3:19:42] out to the world
[3:19:45] eventually the master found that one
[3:19:47] disciple was ready he was mature enough
[3:19:49] so the day of departure arrived for this
[3:19:52] disciple to leave. So the disciple came
[3:19:55] and bowed down in front of the master
[3:19:57] asking for the master's grace. And uh
[3:20:00] the master blessed the disciple and
[3:20:02] said, "My son, set out joyfully on your
[3:20:05] mission to serve the world. May you
[3:20:08] always dwell in palaces and mansions.
[3:20:11] May you always be blessed with delicious
[3:20:14] food. And may you always get to sleep on
[3:20:18] a soft bed of flowers."
[3:20:21] Now hearing these words of blessing, the
[3:20:24] disciple was a bit astonished. He said
[3:20:26] to the master, "Master, all these years
[3:20:29] you taught us the virtue of renunciation
[3:20:32] today as I step out in the world, why
[3:20:35] are you blessing me like this? Aren't
[3:20:37] living in palaces, eating delicacies
[3:20:40] every day, and sleeping on beds of
[3:20:42] flowers completely contrary to spiritual
[3:20:45] life?" Hearing
[3:20:47] his question, the guru smiled and
[3:20:49] replied, "My child, think about it
[3:20:52] deeply. The true meaning of my words is
[3:20:54] that you should advance further along
[3:20:58] the path of sacrifice." Let me explain.
[3:21:01] During your service to the world, the
[3:21:04] places you find shelter may often lack
[3:21:06] even basic comforts. At times, you may
[3:21:09] have to sleep on the roadside or the
[3:21:11] veranda of a shop. But if your attitude
[3:21:14] is positive and adaptable, you will
[3:21:16] gladly embrace those modest conditions.
[3:21:20] Staying in such places will feel to you
[3:21:22] like you are living in a palace.
[3:21:25] Furthermore, eat only when you are truly
[3:21:27] hungry. Then whatever food you receive
[3:21:30] will taste utterly delicious. Sleep only
[3:21:34] when you are genuinely exhausted. If so,
[3:21:38] wherever you lie down, even on a bare
[3:21:40] rock, you will enjoy deep sound sleep.
[3:21:43] That is what I meant when I wish that
[3:21:46] you always sleep on a bed of flowers.
[3:21:50] Grasping the profound vision, the the
[3:21:52] profound wisdom hidden in within the
[3:21:54] guru's words, the disciples set forth
[3:21:57] with great devotion onto the path of
[3:21:59] selfless service. So Amma is saying that
[3:22:02] we all have experienced it during the
[3:22:05] North India tour you know or during the
[3:22:07] different tours that we have gone with
[3:22:09] when you are so tired you don't realize
[3:22:11] where you you know you laid down to
[3:22:13] sleep it next morning you may realize oh
[3:22:16] it was the bathroom so we just we just
[3:22:19] sleep wherever you you get the space
[3:22:21] because you are so tired even that
[3:22:23] bathroom feels like a palace of course
[3:22:25] to reach there it will take time but Ama
[3:22:28] says that we have to you know have the
[3:22:31] right attitude to grow. Ma says for a
[3:22:33] sapling to grow and give shade, it needs
[3:22:37] time. It cannot give shade when it's a
[3:22:39] sapling. It has to grow. It has to
[3:22:41] become a tree. Then only can it give us
[3:22:44] give us shade. So we need to be ready to
[3:22:48] undergo the process. Ama says this
[3:22:51] readiness or this surrender is like
[3:22:54] bleaching powder that will remove all
[3:22:57] the stains of selfishness from within
[3:23:00] and make us perfect. M says when we
[3:23:02] interact with people at times there will
[3:23:05] be negativities that come up but we need
[3:23:07] to understand that they are all mirrors
[3:23:10] showing us our imperfections. When
[3:23:12] somebody is angry at you, there is a
[3:23:14] lesson in it that when I am angry
[3:23:17] towards others, they are going to feel
[3:23:19] the same. When somebody shows love to
[3:23:21] you and you feel so happy, there is a
[3:23:24] lesson in it. When you show love towards
[3:23:26] others, they are feeling the same.
[3:23:29] Sometimes we think showing anger is a
[3:23:31] great show of strength. They may the
[3:23:33] other person who is at the receiving end
[3:23:35] may keep quiet, but inside that person
[3:23:38] we have really fallen down in their
[3:23:40] eyes. That person is really laughing
[3:23:42] within seeing our imperfections. So let
[3:23:45] us be ready to see ourselves clearly and
[3:23:49] move forward. Says let us be ready to
[3:23:51] embrace all the mess within. Ma says one
[3:23:54] who cannot cross a small pond can never
[3:23:57] cross the ocean. So in a similar way we
[3:24:01] need to have the readiness to work on
[3:24:03] these negativities on these uh
[3:24:06] conditioning so that we can finally
[3:24:09] reach that state where we know who we
[3:24:12] are in reality.
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[3:26:15] the bread.
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[3:26:27] They could get
[3:26:38] a little
[3:26:50] good job.
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[3:27:09] gy.
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[3:27:17] John
[3:27:29] down.
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[3:27:49] he
[3:28:09] me Now
[3:28:12] the king
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[3:28:59] is
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[3:29:49] Gy
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[3:30:19] My
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[3:30:49] so
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[3:31:17] the Quran.
[3:31:19] We need the
[3:31:22] Quran.
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[3:31:30] would have
[3:31:31] in the house.
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[3:31:41] to
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[3:32:12] Gy.
[3:32:16] Let the Gy
[3:32:21] Gy
[3:32:23] Let it down.
[3:32:48] Great.
[3:33:04] and Amen.
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[3:33:17] very
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[3:33:47] let me
[3:33:53] let me
[3:34:06] give
[3:34:07] Ty
[3:34:17] ty.
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[3:34:32] Gy.
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[3:35:02] Let the bey
[3:35:31] Down. Let me put it down. Let the baby
[3:35:38] down. Let the baby put it down.
[3:35:43] Let the Gy
[3:36:13] Heat. Heat. Heat.
[3:36:23] Heat. Heat. Heat.
[3:36:33] Heat. Heat.
[3:36:45] Heat. Heat.
[3:37:02] Baby,
[3:37:14] let it be.
[3:37:27] Heat. Heat.
[3:37:39] Let the king
[3:37:50] let the gy
[3:38:02] Mary
[3:38:07] give
[3:38:10] Let it be.
[3:38:20] Let the
[3:38:30] Heat. Heat. Heat.
[3:38:40] Heat. Heat. Heat.
[3:38:50] Heat. Heat.
[3:39:00] Heat. Heat.
[3:39:12] Let me
[3:39:16] give you
[3:39:27] the gy. Let it down.
[3:39:31] Let it get it down.
[3:39:45] Let me get it. Let it down.
[3:39:59] Heat.
[3:40:03] Heat.
[3:40:18] Heat. Heat.
[3:40:30] Heat. Heat.
[3:40:40] Heat. Heat. N.
[3:40:51] Oh,
[3:40:53] let it
[3:40:56] get
[3:40:58] it down. Let the Gy
[3:41:31] Little kitty kitty
[3:41:34] kitty kitty kitty
[3:41:38] kitty kitty kitty
[3:41:41] kitty kitty kitty.
[3:44:48] Hello.
[3:44:59] Hallelujah.
[3:45:03] My
[3:45:04] goodn.
[3:45:30] You
[3:45:32] must be
[3:45:35] seeing.
[3:46:09] indeed
[3:46:14] Godl.
[3:46:26] Oh yes.
[3:46:38] Oh
[3:46:46] sh
[3:47:06] Yes.
[3:47:08] Nons.
[3:47:09] of the love
[3:47:12] seest.
[3:47:40] More
[3:48:06] Sun
[3:48:31] in our show.
[3:48:34] Sh.
[3:49:01] that shall be
[3:49:06] shana.
[3:49:28] is your
[3:49:32] bless
[3:49:44] not by my Lord
[3:49:58] Oh, the sun.
[3:50:25] Come my heavy Ball.
[3:50:34] My heart
[3:50:36] my
[3:50:49] Morning
[3:51:01] us.
[3:51:29] When could I
[3:51:35] not
[3:51:43] to
[3:51:45] one day.
[3:51:52] Forever
[3:52:04] brother.
[3:52:34] on the
[3:52:38] world.
[3:52:45] Yep. Pray all the summer.
[3:53:02] each and all your
[3:53:08] shore.
[3:53:30] There was some
[3:53:34] soo.
[3:54:00] She
[3:54:07] be delivering.
[3:54:28] Here
[3:54:35] my angel.
[3:55:21] My heart and your
[3:55:24] Yes.
[3:55:26] Lord
[3:55:35] Sh.
[3:56:11] Sh
[3:56:22] Sh
[3:56:30] the mighty
[3:56:45] Baby
[3:57:12] want Don't
[3:57:23] shy.
[3:57:52] Goodbye.
[3:58:09] was
[3:58:12] set.
[3:58:18] Set the
[3:58:22] show.
[3:58:38] Mommy,
[3:58:46] you
[3:58:49] surely march.
[4:01:12] Nothing.
[4:01:22] Not
[4:01:25] a good day.
[4:01:28] What the
[4:01:39] Hey,
[4:01:49] again
[4:02:08] the
[4:02:11] Lord,
[4:02:18] not
[4:02:42] on my birthday.
[4:02:45] Oh
[4:02:47] my
[4:02:57] Nobody.
[4:03:32] I
[4:03:35] never
[4:03:57] We all
[4:04:02] I
[4:04:05] Who might
[4:04:27] be
[4:04:31] on the
[4:04:45] Oh, I am
[4:05:01] on I don't
[4:05:25] get
[4:05:27] in the Baby
[4:05:52] say in the
[4:06:05] We do
[4:06:08] the
[4:06:17] We do
[4:06:34] the
[4:06:46] We do
[4:06:49] the
[4:06:58] We know
[4:07:03] I desert.
[4:07:06] We do our Oh,
[4:07:19] I
[4:07:46] So I
[4:07:48] be with
[4:08:06] You are even
[4:08:33] with me.
[4:08:35] Do we do
[4:08:45] not
[4:09:08] I don't give a name.
[4:09:24] We can hurt the lady.
[4:09:34] She is so
[4:09:39] she will
[4:09:41] be
[4:09:44] see
[4:10:05] can
[4:10:14] she
[4:10:24] see your
[4:10:33] Mother
[4:10:54] and
[4:10:56] God
[4:11:05] for
[4:11:11] me.
[4:11:26] Oh Mother.
[4:11:56] In the moon,
[4:12:02] She
[4:12:15] in the
[4:12:20] she
[4:12:29] was she was she She might
[4:12:42] I see.
[4:12:46] She
[4:12:59] hy
[4:13:04] in the moon. She
[4:13:09] higher.
[4:13:13] She
[4:13:19] mighty.
[4:13:25] H.
[4:13:27] She
[4:13:33] might
[4:13:55] hurry. I might
[4:14:08] She
[4:14:12] might
[4:14:39] How much she
[4:15:09] God
[4:15:16] amnesur.
[4:15:37] I bow down to Amma without whom life
[4:15:40] would be completely meaningless.
[4:15:43] My greetings to Amma's children
[4:15:46] everywhere.
[4:15:49] I grew up in a mansion in the heart of
[4:15:52] the land of the bogeies, Los Angeles,
[4:15:55] California, USA. One of the most
[4:15:57] materialistic places on the planet.
[4:16:01] I never imagined I would I would still
[4:16:03] be here living in the ashram after 20
[4:16:06] years. It's only because of infinite
[4:16:10] compassion and the samscaras of my
[4:16:12] parents that I sit here before you.
[4:16:17] Although I grew up in the land of the
[4:16:19] bogeies, those who enjoy material
[4:16:22] pleasures, paradoxically, I had very
[4:16:25] spiritual parents.
[4:16:27] They're both gone now, but their values
[4:16:30] and spiritual lessons left a deep
[4:16:32] impression on me.
[4:16:34] They had deep faith in their guru, a
[4:16:38] spiritual guide from the Sufi tradition.
[4:16:41] From a young age, I saw my parents
[4:16:44] always giving, giving shelter, food,
[4:16:48] emotional support, and spiritual advice
[4:16:51] to members of the community.
[4:16:54] I remember my mother often cooking food
[4:16:56] for less fortunate families and taking
[4:16:59] us with her to their homes, which were
[4:17:02] often small, cramped apartments.
[4:17:06] I was very lucky. My parents gave me the
[4:17:10] values Emma talks about so often.
[4:17:13] Even though they could give me anything
[4:17:15] I wanted, they didn't.
[4:17:18] My parents gave me what I needed. And if
[4:17:21] I wanted more, I had to work for it. So,
[4:17:24] I did. And I learned so much from those
[4:17:27] work experiences early in my life.
[4:17:31] My parents also gave me ample freedom
[4:17:33] and opportunities to grow and learn.
[4:17:37] I was not restricted like some of my
[4:17:39] friends. If I wanted to go out on a
[4:17:42] Saturday night, I would ask and they
[4:17:45] would usually give me permission along
[4:17:47] with the curfew. Time to be back home.
[4:17:51] My friends, on the other hand, had to
[4:17:53] climb out of the windows of their homes
[4:17:55] to get out.
[4:17:59] Although I grew up with a guru and
[4:18:01] decent values, I never imagined that I
[4:18:03] was fit or qualified for spiritual life.
[4:18:07] When I met Uma, I was lost and confused.
[4:18:11] But somehow Uma saw something in me. The
[4:18:14] deep spiritual samscaras that I didn't
[4:18:16] even realize were there. And she
[4:18:19] skillfully caught hold of me and has
[4:18:21] kept me near her for so many years.
[4:18:24] I have no idea what I did to deserve
[4:18:28] this grace. So many times I have wanted
[4:18:31] to run away.
[4:18:35] Um talks about three types of disciples.
[4:18:38] The kitten, monkey, and eagle. The
[4:18:42] kitten is gently held by the mother by
[4:18:44] the neck because she knows if she
[4:18:47] doesn't do that, the little kitten will
[4:18:49] run away and hurt herself. The monkey
[4:18:52] has such an attachment to the mother
[4:18:54] that it won't let go of her. And the
[4:18:57] baby eagle stays in the nest,
[4:18:59] comfortably waiting until one day the
[4:19:02] mother pushes her out.
[4:19:05] I always thought of myself as the eagle
[4:19:08] but I'm definitely a kitten.
[4:19:13] In our scripture class, Brahmachari Atma
[4:19:16] Praash GI says that you need a satguru
[4:19:19] to transform yourself to become fit for
[4:19:22] realization.
[4:19:23] And in this Kali Yuga, it is only by her
[4:19:26] grace that she catches us and holds us
[4:19:30] long enough to make some change.
[4:19:33] I can see it in myself.
[4:19:36] When I met Emma, I had everything
[4:19:38] material. A nice house, a car, a good
[4:19:42] job. But I was not very happy.
[4:19:45] I had a group of friends from the
[4:19:47] Paramahansa Yoga Nanda tradition with
[4:19:50] whom I would do yoga, meditation,
[4:19:53] budgeons. But I knew I still had not
[4:19:56] found my true home.
[4:19:59] I thought that true home was with a
[4:20:01] partner. But none of those relationships
[4:20:03] gave me the thing I was searching for
[4:20:06] until I met Uma. From my first Dan until
[4:20:11] now, the relationship with Uma has been
[4:20:14] full, complete, and yet constantly a
[4:20:17] mystery.
[4:20:19] I knew right after my first darian in
[4:20:22] the temple in San Ramon that Ama was a
[4:20:25] satguru, a real guru who knows the truth
[4:20:28] of everything.
[4:20:31] Amma slowly extricated me from that land
[4:20:34] of bogis and brought me here to the land
[4:20:37] of yogis.
[4:20:39] This blessed and sacred land of
[4:20:41] Armatapuri where Amma was born and still
[4:20:44] lives with all of her thousands of
[4:20:46] children.
[4:20:48] It's still so unbelievable to me how she
[4:20:52] knows each and every one of us so well
[4:20:55] and what we need physically,
[4:20:57] emotionally, and spiritually.
[4:21:00] She wants to take all of her children to
[4:21:03] that place of pure love and unending
[4:21:06] bliss where she resides.
[4:21:09] And in order to do that, Uma first needs
[4:21:12] to purify us.
[4:21:14] We don't even realize when we meet Amma
[4:21:16] that we need purification.
[4:21:21] One time in London during Amma's program
[4:21:24] at Alexandra Palace, I was at the Prasad
[4:21:27] table where we sell offerings for Amma,
[4:21:31] my regular tour sava.
[4:21:33] Someone had brought these beautiful
[4:21:35] jasmine garlands for Amma. They smelled
[4:21:39] so good. You didn't even have to touch
[4:21:41] them. You could smell them from far
[4:21:44] away.
[4:21:46] But almost everyone who came to the
[4:21:48] table would not only touch the malas,
[4:21:52] but then pick them up and put their nose
[4:21:54] right into the mala. I was horrified.
[4:22:00] First, I would try to tell them
[4:22:02] politely, they're form, thinking the
[4:22:04] person would understand, but that never
[4:22:07] worked. I was at a loss for what to do
[4:22:10] and went to Emma during the program.
[4:22:14] She was so sweet and said the most
[4:22:17] profound thing that I have never
[4:22:19] forgotten.
[4:22:20] What is the point of having a pure mala
[4:22:23] when we are full of dirt inside?
[4:22:28] I didn't understand what meant at that
[4:22:30] time. But now after living in the ashram
[4:22:34] and listening to Amma's nectarine words
[4:22:37] for so many years, I finally understand.
[4:22:42] The dirt inside of us is the feeling of
[4:22:44] me, I, mine, the egocentric notions.
[4:22:50] We are actually embodiment of pure love
[4:22:53] and the supreme consciousness, but we
[4:22:56] don't realize it.
[4:22:58] Um tries to awaken us to this truth
[4:23:01] every time she enters a hall and starts
[4:23:03] a satsang by saying I bow down to all my
[4:23:07] children who are embodiment of pure love
[4:23:10] and the supreme consciousness.
[4:23:13] The first time I heard a say this I
[4:23:15] thought who me? No.
[4:23:19] The love we are all seeking outside of
[4:23:21] ourselves is actually within each and
[4:23:24] every one of us.
[4:23:27] Um's purification process is like
[4:23:29] peeling an onion.
[4:23:32] First, she starts on a physical level,
[4:23:35] carefully removing the gross external
[4:23:38] dirt.
[4:23:39] You find yourself facing various types
[4:23:41] of physical challenges such as a leaky
[4:23:44] roof, challenging roommates, noisy
[4:23:47] neighbors, a broken leg.
[4:23:51] You are then confronted with a choice to
[4:23:54] accept the situation and adjust or
[4:23:57] complain and make a bad situation worse.
[4:24:01] Until you gain some patience and
[4:24:04] understanding, the challenges keep
[4:24:06] coming.
[4:24:08] It's the physical purification.
[4:24:11] After some time, this passes and the
[4:24:13] purification gets more and more subtle.
[4:24:17] In retrospect, I can see this
[4:24:19] transformation very clearly with Archa.
[4:24:23] In my early days in the ashram, I would
[4:24:26] get up and go to Archa and almost always
[4:24:30] fall asleep somewhere in the middle of
[4:24:32] the archum.
[4:24:34] At some point, I would wake up and get
[4:24:36] through the end of it, but then I would
[4:24:39] head right back to my bed and sleep.
[4:24:43] I needed a lot more physical stuff in
[4:24:46] those days. Food, friends, sleep,
[4:24:49] material support.
[4:24:52] Now I am at my peak if I sleep 4 to 5
[4:24:55] hours. I love going to Archa and
[4:24:58] sleeping after is not even something
[4:25:00] that crosses my mind.
[4:25:02] I am not able to go every day. But when
[4:25:05] I do go, everything feels so much
[4:25:08] better. both on a gross and subtle level
[4:25:11] I can't even understand.
[4:25:14] Once the purification on the physical
[4:25:17] level was sufficient, Amma started
[4:25:19] working on my subtle vas.
[4:25:22] I remember when I came to the ashram, I
[4:25:24] thought I'm done with relationships.
[4:25:28] But then after living in the ashram for
[4:25:30] a few years, Amma created situations to
[4:25:33] show me how much lust was still left
[4:25:36] inside of me. It scared me because I
[4:25:39] thought it was gone. At first, I didn't
[4:25:42] know what to do, how to respond. I was
[4:25:45] really scared because it's such a strong
[4:25:48] basa.
[4:25:50] One can get pulled in that direction so
[4:25:52] easily.
[4:25:54] Then I started to pray intensely to
[4:25:56] please take this away and that is what
[4:25:59] really helped me. But every time I
[4:26:02] thought the vasa was gone and I got
[4:26:04] relaxed and comfortable, amma would show
[4:26:07] me that I was still very much there if
[4:26:10] triggered and I would again go through
[4:26:12] some serious inner turmoil.
[4:26:16] But as soon as I reached the stage
[4:26:18] praying to please help me come out of
[4:26:20] this in her infinite compassion, she
[4:26:23] would help me.
[4:26:25] Now I know the vasana is there but has
[4:26:28] her thumb on it and that gives me the
[4:26:31] confidence to move on.
[4:26:34] You may wonder what's the big deal with
[4:26:36] a little lust.
[4:26:38] But these bas
[4:26:41] real goal the realization of the self
[4:26:45] which is way beyond body mind and
[4:26:48] intellect.
[4:26:50] We need to reach a stage where we drop
[4:26:52] identification with the body, mind, and
[4:26:55] intellect.
[4:26:56] Okay, I'm definitely not there, but I
[4:27:00] know what Emma is doing. And with her
[4:27:02] infinite grace and compassion, each day
[4:27:05] I feel I come a little closer.
[4:27:10] Emma has done the real work within me
[4:27:12] with SA karma yoga. It's such an immense
[4:27:16] battle. Sometimes we are told to do our
[4:27:19] sava with puja manobavam a worshipful
[4:27:22] attitude and accept the results with
[4:27:25] prasada buddhi receiving them as a gift
[4:27:28] from god
[4:27:30] but we all know how difficult that is
[4:27:33] you go to veggie chopping and you're
[4:27:35] happily chopping the veggies and
[4:27:37] chanting your mantra thinking how
[4:27:39] amazing and divine you are and then the
[4:27:42] supervisor comes and tells you it's all
[4:27:44] wrong.
[4:27:46] How do you react? How do you feel? Do
[4:27:49] you think, "What's wrong with this
[4:27:50] person? They're vegetables. They all
[4:27:52] come out the same way. What does it
[4:27:54] matter?" Blah, blah, blah. Or do you
[4:27:57] feel, "Oh, thank you for showing me. I
[4:28:00] really want to do this sava properly and
[4:28:02] for the devotees to be able to enjoy and
[4:28:05] digest the food." This is a small simple
[4:28:09] example, but we all experience this
[4:28:11] every day.
[4:28:14] If you can watch your reactions, see how
[4:28:17] you are reacting internally and then
[4:28:20] control the reaction, that is a huge
[4:28:22] victory.
[4:28:24] You may still react internally, but
[4:28:27] externally you have exerted a level of
[4:28:30] control that you didn't think you had
[4:28:33] and slowly over time the internal
[4:28:36] reaction subsides because you are able
[4:28:39] to nip it in the bud.
[4:28:41] Amma's I am integrated Amita meditation
[4:28:45] technique has really helped me in this
[4:28:47] respect. The whole practice is about
[4:28:50] watching yourself first externally and
[4:28:54] then internally.
[4:28:56] The whole practice puts you in Sakshi
[4:28:58] Baba which is your true self, your true
[4:29:02] home as the witness, not as the doer.
[4:29:06] After many years of this practice, you
[4:29:09] find yourself watching your reactions,
[4:29:12] your words and thoughts all the time.
[4:29:16] And then once you see the negativities,
[4:29:19] you can start not only to control them
[4:29:22] but transform the negativities.
[4:29:25] You see yourself getting angry and then
[4:29:27] you ask yourself why am I getting angry?
[4:29:30] Who is getting angry with whom?
[4:29:34] And that reflection helps you to control
[4:29:36] the anger and transform it into humor,
[4:29:40] love and compassion.
[4:29:42] You are able to see the lesson Uma is
[4:29:45] trying to show you through that person,
[4:29:47] the veggie supervisor.
[4:29:51] As Uma continues to peel the onion, the
[4:29:54] most difficult part is when she starts
[4:29:57] to work on the subtle aspects of our
[4:29:59] mind. For so long, we have believed that
[4:30:03] the mind is real and our true guide.
[4:30:07] Amma has some proven techniques to tear
[4:30:09] apart this belief.
[4:30:11] Sometimes she will give us specific
[4:30:14] instructions and we will start following
[4:30:16] those instructions. But then later Emma
[4:30:19] will ask, "Who told you to do that?"
[4:30:22] Immediately we begin to question
[4:30:24] ourselves. Did I misunderstand Emma? I'm
[4:30:27] sure told me to do this. or we will
[4:30:30] start to question. Why is doing this to
[4:30:33] me? Our mind begins to go on a roller
[4:30:37] coaster ride.
[4:30:39] We become confused and perplexed.
[4:30:44] If we are able to hold on to during the
[4:30:47] roller coaster ride, we realize that Uma
[4:30:50] is trying to loosen the grip of the mind
[4:30:52] on us from the very root.
[4:30:55] We have trusted the mind for so many
[4:30:57] years without question. But now we begin
[4:31:01] to see that it is the mind that has been
[4:31:03] covering our real identity
[4:31:06] as the supreme consciousness.
[4:31:09] We are not the small identity
[4:31:11] personality the mind has led us to
[4:31:13] believe.
[4:31:15] If we want to realize who we really are,
[4:31:18] we need to let go of who we think we
[4:31:21] are. As Uma says, everything is created
[4:31:25] by God except our egos. And we are
[4:31:29] holding on to the ego so closely, we
[4:31:32] can't even loosen our grip a little.
[4:31:36] We are not individual personalities. We
[4:31:39] are expressions of the divine which
[4:31:42] operates within us every single moment.
[4:31:46] Nothing belongs to this small identity.
[4:31:49] Not even our name which somebody gave to
[4:31:52] us.
[4:31:55] Dropping the identification with this
[4:31:57] individuality is extremely difficult and
[4:32:00] I would say impossible with a sguru
[4:32:03] without a sguru like amma. Our minds can
[4:32:07] so easily fool us. We need amma to guide
[4:32:11] us and show us the way and she is doing
[4:32:14] that every single moment.
[4:32:18] We just need to observe, listen, and
[4:32:21] reflect on each of Amma's words and
[4:32:23] teachings to figure out the course. It's
[4:32:26] like a board game. You get clues along
[4:32:29] the way, but you need to decide which
[4:32:32] path to take to win, which for us is
[4:32:35] reaching the goal.
[4:32:37] Amma is a perfect master. She will give
[4:32:40] us hints, pointers, but we need to do
[4:32:43] the work using the tools of shravenam,
[4:32:46] mananum and nidity.
[4:32:49] Listening, reflection and assimilation.
[4:32:53] The scriptures tell us this is the path
[4:32:56] to realization.
[4:32:58] Every day we need to listen to satsang,
[4:33:01] reflect on what we have heard and
[4:33:03] contemplate the words of our beloved
[4:33:05] guru if we want to realize that we are
[4:33:08] embodiment of pure love and the supreme
[4:33:11] consciousness and not these limited
[4:33:14] individual personalities.
[4:33:17] Praying to help each and every one of us
[4:33:20] on this sacred journey.
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[5:36:20] We don't get to do
[5:36:27] shift.
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[5:36:40] good
[5:36:54] day.
[5:37:03] Jesus.
[5:37:28] It's a deep
[5:38:47] Living here
[5:38:51] my love.
[5:38:56] Oh,
[5:39:01] I might go.
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[5:40:39] Mother. Anybody?
[5:41:11] my
[5:41:33] music.
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[5:42:00] happy morning. Happy morning. Happy
[5:42:05] morning. Heat. Heat.
[5:42:17] Happy morning.
[5:42:28] Heat. Heat.
[5:42:38] Heat. Heat.
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[5:43:08] I want you morning.
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[5:45:04] Oh, you're not even ready
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[5:46:41] you.
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[5:46:47] you.
[5:46:52] Would you not?
[5:47:27] Oh
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[5:48:53] Oh my god.
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[5:49:42] I lay down.
[5:49:49] I lay you down.
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[5:51:31] are you? My dignity
[5:51:35] are yours.
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[5:52:02] Happy
[5:52:34] Hallelujah.
[5:52:41] beautiful.
[5:53:10] Morning.
[5:53:21] We are
[5:53:31] glory.
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[5:53:42] all
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[5:54:00] Holy are you
[5:54:03] are you
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[5:56:07] you.
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[5:57:16] of God.
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[5:58:06] my
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[6:00:10] Wonderful Lord.
[6:00:18] Wonderful.
[6:00:26] Wonderful.
[6:00:39] and the
[6:00:41] single
[6:00:51] and sing
[6:00:53] again.
[6:01:06] Sing
[6:01:09] again.
[6:01:13] Morning.
[6:01:15] When the morning
[6:01:45] Dway.
[6:01:59] Made
[6:02:04] away.
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[6:02:12] away
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[6:02:21] away.
[6:02:23] She fall
[6:02:29] away.
[6:02:36] You
[6:02:37] Lord
[6:02:48] happy birthday.
[6:03:04] birthday morning.
[6:03:16] And she
[6:03:23] She We are
[6:03:28] One day
[6:03:31] she might
[6:03:34] be more.
[6:03:59] Tell me
[6:04:13] the
[6:04:18] Baby,
[6:04:36] sing the glory.
[6:04:44] Singlor.
[6:04:53] We are
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[6:05:22] I am
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[6:06:24] singing
[6:06:49] mighty
[6:06:56] mighty.
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[6:07:22] might
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[6:07:46] Your heart
[6:07:50] might
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[6:08:01] real.
[6:09:37] God
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[6:09:52] we are
[6:09:55] in God
[6:09:59] we are
[6:10:03] foreign.
[6:10:33] One morning
[6:10:55] I Oh,
[6:11:01] your name
[6:11:07] was
[6:11:11] I am motherless.
[6:11:30] I believe
[6:11:35] God
[6:11:54] in I
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[6:12:21] Are you
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[6:12:31] my
[6:12:48] Oh
[6:12:50] my children
[6:13:15] in Father
[6:13:46] And
[6:13:49] my
[6:13:56] welcome.
[6:13:59] Your I need
[6:14:30] God,
[6:14:36] God
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[6:14:58] you.
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[6:15:56] God to
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[6:16:15] In God
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[6:18:49] The endom.
[6:18:52] by the way.
[6:19:02] the
[6:19:04] Lord
[6:19:28] My mother
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[6:20:17] victory. John.
[6:20:47] Lord
[6:20:50] my
[6:20:52] Ever
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[6:21:44] I am
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[6:21:57] for
[6:22:00] the
[6:22:03] you
[6:22:22] Jes.
[6:22:38] Sh.
[6:22:54] better than me.
[6:23:01] I am
[6:23:42] Yeah, I'm
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[6:24:36] like
[6:24:37] of my king.
[6:24:51] of my king.
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[6:25:17] Give me
[6:25:19] the king.
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[6:26:09] called you.
[6:26:11] I
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[6:26:21] The People come to Jesus.
[6:26:27] The people
[6:26:44] Oh
[6:26:48] my
[6:26:51] god.
[6:27:24] mighty
[6:27:37] Oh my
[6:27:39] god.
[6:28:01] Oh,
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[6:28:27] come.
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[6:29:45] Keep
[6:29:48] the king
[6:29:56] of the king.
[6:30:13] mighty
[6:30:15] God of
[6:30:18] King
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[6:30:27] Keep it
[6:30:35] up.
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[6:32:25] God,
[6:32:29] I never
[6:32:54] even
[6:32:57] gone.
[6:33:01] My
[6:33:13] God.
[6:33:29] Hallelujah.
[6:33:31] I am
[6:33:37] who you Oh
[6:33:40] Christ
[6:34:06] Oh,
[6:34:17] God.
[6:34:19] Lord and God.
[6:34:33] Hallelujah.
[6:34:37] Why you
[6:34:45] I
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[6:35:09] King
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[6:35:37] me.
[6:35:59] I am all
[6:36:18] glory.
[6:36:28] Yeah.
[6:36:44] Christ
[6:37:02] is love.
[6:37:04] Oh,
[6:37:15] come
[6:37:17] and
[6:37:30] hallelujah.
[6:37:34] Where you
[6:37:39] are
[6:37:43] Oh,
[6:37:44] I
[6:37:47] know.
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[6:38:26] Godlary.
[6:38:51] Oh, you
[6:38:58] Ever.
[6:39:28] Oh
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[6:39:49] Ah
[6:39:59] Christn.
[6:40:07] Love
[6:40:23] my
[6:40:30] brother.
[6:40:34] Hallelujah.
[6:40:48] Let it rain.
[6:40:55] May it rain.
[6:41:05] The Lord is the
[6:41:27] reach the Lord.
[6:42:25] What happened?
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[6:43:40] Foreign speech.
[6:44:26] Don't follow
[6:44:30] Oh my
[6:44:35] god.
[6:44:49] Victor.
[6:45:23] Wonderful.
[6:45:44] Baby,
[6:46:16] the morning.
[6:46:34] They go
[6:46:36] down.
[6:46:51] Ja
[6:46:53] de
[6:46:55] Ja.
[6:47:38] Hey, hey, hey.
[6:48:17] My name
[6:48:36] I live in
[6:48:55] the
[6:48:59] God
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[6:49:22] Oh,
[6:49:26] God.
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[6:49:52] it up.
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[6:50:41] to
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[6:50:59] in.
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[6:53:05] I need to
[6:53:08] go. You're a good girl. I
[6:53:12] feel
[6:53:23] Oh
[6:53:25] my
[6:53:31] god.
[6:53:54] Motherchech.
[6:54:22] Make your
[6:54:32] shore.
[6:55:02] Yes.
[6:55:10] Fore.
[6:56:45] down.
[6:57:02] worthy.
[6:57:31] You could
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[6:57:58] give
[6:58:00] Sunday morning.
[6:58:07] Holy
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[6:58:26] Shy glory glory
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[6:58:32] shy glory
[6:58:53] I
[6:58:55] worthy.
[6:59:18] Sweet.
[6:59:36] Ying
[6:59:51] glory. Those
[6:59:54] journey
[7:00:20] the
[7:00:23] Every nighting
[7:00:26] every nighting
[7:00:55] Open your kitchens
[7:01:10] to my divine lotus feet and to all her
[7:01:14] daring children
[7:01:16] to keep up with my yearly Krishna Jan
[7:01:19] Mashti tradition. This year again I fell
[7:01:22] sick with a viral infection and fever
[7:01:25] that kept you inside for more than a
[7:01:27] week. I was so sad and prayed to my
[7:01:30] mother to let me go for the celebrations
[7:01:33] but the doctor said it might be
[7:01:35] contagious. So it was not recommended to
[7:01:37] be near other children. But the good
[7:01:40] thing is that during this time we could
[7:01:42] finish a whole book about Lord Hanman's
[7:01:45] extraordinary life. The book is full of
[7:01:48] wonderful stories and today I would like
[7:01:51] to speak about one story in particular.
[7:01:54] This story was first told by sage
[7:01:56] Balmiki in the Sundarakanda chapter of
[7:01:59] the Raayana.
[7:02:01] In this chapter when Hanumanji took his
[7:02:03] great leap to Lanka in order to find
[7:02:06] Sitha Devi he met with three obstacles
[7:02:09] Mount Maka Surasa and Simhika. While the
[7:02:13] last two obstacles were horrible
[7:02:15] frightening raases that tried to devour
[7:02:18] and stop Hanumanji. The same can be said
[7:02:21] about Ma Manaka who was actually a
[7:02:24] friend a devotey of the Lord. He
[7:02:27] actually owned the great depth to
[7:02:29] Hanji's father Vayu Deva who in the past
[7:02:33] have saved him from Lord Indra's fury.
[7:02:36] He sincerely wanted to show his
[7:02:38] gratitude and help Hanumanji by offering
[7:02:41] him a place to rest and regain strength
[7:02:44] for his difficult journey ahead. But
[7:02:47] Hanumanji explaining the urgency of his
[7:02:49] mission politely denied the offer. Then
[7:02:52] you might ask why was Ma Manaka called
[7:02:55] an obstacle and why did Hanumanji refuse
[7:02:58] his offer? We can find the answer to
[7:03:01] this question in the in the Bhagavad
[7:03:03] Gita chapter 2 Shloka 67.
[7:03:16] Here Sri Krishna warns Ajuna Dash how a
[7:03:20] powerful wind sweeps away a boat from
[7:03:22] its course. Even a single uncontrolled
[7:03:25] sense Indria can carry away our
[7:03:28] intelligence and not allow us to reach
[7:03:30] our goal. Even in our daily lives, the
[7:03:34] biggest
[7:03:36] the big
[7:03:39] the biggest obstacles do not necessarily
[7:03:42] come in the form of ugly monsters or
[7:03:44] powerful rashas. They are usually
[7:03:47] disguised as innocent distractions and
[7:03:49] what looks like harmless desires.
[7:03:52] Just 10 more minutes of play after
[7:03:55] budgeons that turns into 1 hour and then
[7:03:58] again I go to sleep late and can't wake
[7:04:00] up the next day. Just five more minutes
[7:04:03] of sleep in the morning that turns into
[7:04:06] half an hour and then again I'm late for
[7:04:08] class. Just one more chocolate that
[7:04:11] turns into a sweet every day and then
[7:04:13] into another cavity.
[7:04:17] But unlike me, Hanumanji was very wise
[7:04:20] and knew all this. So he didn't allow
[7:04:23] himself to be tempted by the sweet
[7:04:25] fruits or fresh waters found on Mount
[7:04:28] Maka. His focus was only on his ultimate
[7:04:31] goal to find Sida Devi.
[7:04:34] His f he was Hanumanji was only
[7:04:37] motivated by his devotion to Sri Rama
[7:04:40] and depended only on his infinite grace.
[7:04:43] He needed no other support except for
[7:04:46] chanting the sacred name of Rama. He
[7:04:49] knew that even accepting a even
[7:04:51] accepting a kind and sincere offer like
[7:04:53] the one from Mount Maka could delay him
[7:04:56] from reaching in time and then the worst
[7:04:58] might happen.
[7:05:03] Here in the asham, people are always so
[7:05:05] kind and loving to me and often give me
[7:05:08] sweets and chocolates, and I'm very
[7:05:10] grateful for that. But if I were to
[7:05:12] accept and eat everything by myself, I
[7:05:15] would end up sick or have many cavities.
[7:05:18] Instead, I keep them in a box at home
[7:05:20] and when I collect enough, I keep I
[7:05:23] bring them to my class and share them
[7:05:24] with all my friends. Through this story
[7:05:27] we can see that Hanji's mind is always
[7:05:30] fixed on the ultimate goal and he did
[7:05:32] not let anything delay him in his
[7:05:34] mission. Neither the pleasant nor the
[7:05:37] unpleasant deadly raas or comforting
[7:05:40] friends were all the same to him. In our
[7:05:43] Gita class, Danas Swami Gi demonstrated
[7:05:46] an experiment with us just to show us
[7:05:48] how important it is to stay focused on
[7:05:51] our goal.
[7:05:55] Using a big pot full of water and a
[7:05:57] paper boat, we took turns to see if if
[7:06:01] you could reach Kalyama's picture, which
[7:06:03] was hung on the opposite side of the
[7:06:05] pot. Each of us took turns to see if you
[7:06:08] could steer the boat in the right
[7:06:10] direction without touching. just by
[7:06:12] using the power of our breath. And of
[7:06:15] course, while we are doing this,
[7:06:18] other children were also blowing the
[7:06:20] same time, causing the boat to go in all
[7:06:22] directions, sometimes even drowning
[7:06:24] fully.
[7:06:26] But despite this, but despite this, some
[7:06:30] children like Minachi and Ruda managed
[7:06:32] to reach Kalyama's picture and everyone
[7:06:35] was so happy. The water represented
[7:06:38] life. The boat our mind. The wind
[7:06:41] represented all the the desires that
[7:06:44] distract our mind. And Kalyama's picture
[7:06:47] was the ultimate goal.
[7:06:50] The lessons we learned from this is that
[7:06:52] to reach our goal, we need strength,
[7:06:54] discipline, and great focus. Just like
[7:06:56] Hanuman Gi had in Ramayana, we also need
[7:07:00] to be in good company. Saga. Otherwise,
[7:07:03] we saw from the experiment above, the
[7:07:05] wrong company can either delay us on
[7:07:07] reaching our goal or literally drown us.
[7:07:11] But when the goal is set and we have a
[7:07:13] clear plan of how to reach it, it is
[7:07:15] easier to say no to less important
[7:07:17] things and not get distracted from the
[7:07:20] path. Because a goal without a plan is
[7:07:22] just a dream and we need the necessary
[7:07:25] discipline travel.
[7:07:27] No matter what beautiful places we visit
[7:07:30] or what gate performances people have
[7:07:32] prepared or how many mosquitoes attack
[7:07:35] us is only always to be with kalyama.
[7:07:38] Kalyama always says this life is like a
[7:07:41] picnic and we should never forget our
[7:07:43] real home since we never know when we
[7:07:45] will get called back. Our mind should
[7:07:47] always be fixed on the ultimate goal our
[7:07:50] kalyama by come to less important
[7:07:52] things. Such conviction will help us
[7:07:55] become more disciplined and able to
[7:07:57] control our senses more. And when the
[7:08:00] senses are under our control,
[7:08:03] the intellect can no longer be be
[7:08:05] distracted from reaching to her and
[7:08:07] helps us reach the ultimate goal. I
[7:08:09] offer myself and this was my kalyama's
[7:08:12] div.
[7:08:26] Romania.
[7:08:28] Romania.
[7:08:49] Rummonia.
[7:08:55] Romania. Romania.
[7:08:59] Malaysia.
[7:09:07] Romania.
[7:09:43] There's the
[7:10:28] I don't
[7:10:54] Some of you might have the experience of
[7:10:56] procrastinating things that you don't
[7:10:58] like doing, I'm also that person and I
[7:11:02] simply cannot do everything with the
[7:11:04] same attitude.
[7:11:06] If it's something that I like or
[7:11:08] something that is easy to do, I will do
[7:11:10] it without delay. But if it's something
[7:11:13] that I don't like or something that is
[7:11:15] difficult and timeconsuming, I tend to
[7:11:18] avoid doing it. When I was little, I
[7:11:22] used to procrastinate doing my sadas
[7:11:24] because I wanted to play with my
[7:11:26] friends.
[7:11:28] But thanks to my grandmother, she would
[7:11:30] make me sit in the Kali temple and make
[7:11:33] me do my sadena.
[7:11:35] At that time, I didn't really understand
[7:11:38] why she was so strict about it. I just
[7:11:41] wanted to go and play. But now when I
[7:11:44] look back, I realized that she was
[7:11:46] teaching me something important.
[7:11:49] At that age, I thought that doing what I
[7:11:52] wanted was the same as being happy. I
[7:11:55] didn't understand the value of
[7:11:57] discipline or responsibility.
[7:12:00] But my grandmother understood that if I
[7:12:03] always allowed my likes and dislikes to
[7:12:06] control my actions, I would never learn
[7:12:08] to do things simply because they needed
[7:12:10] to be done.
[7:12:12] I remember one particular time when I
[7:12:15] had an important exam coming up. There
[7:12:18] was one subject that I really liked, so
[7:12:21] I had no problem studying it for hours.
[7:12:25] But there was another subject that I
[7:12:27] found extremely difficult and boring.
[7:12:31] Every time I sat down to study it, I
[7:12:34] would find some excuse to get up. I
[7:12:36] would check my phone, talk to someone,
[7:12:39] or suddenly find something else that
[7:12:41] needed to be done. Eventually, I reached
[7:12:45] a point where I was stressed because I
[7:12:47] had barely started studying. I became
[7:12:50] frustrated with myself. And that
[7:12:52] frustration even affected the way I
[7:12:55] spoke to the people around me.
[7:12:58] That experience made me realize that the
[7:13:00] problem was not really the subject
[7:13:02] itself. The problem was my attitude
[7:13:05] towards it.
[7:13:07] I was willing to put in effort when I
[7:13:09] enjoyed something, but when it became
[7:13:12] difficult, I wanted to run away from it.
[7:13:15] And even though the task itself was not
[7:13:17] a big problem, my attachment to comfort
[7:13:20] was making it much harder than it needed
[7:13:23] to be.
[7:13:25] And that made me think, if I only do
[7:13:27] something when I feel like doing it,
[7:13:29] then who is really in control? Am I
[7:13:33] controlling my mind or is my mind
[7:13:35] controlling me?
[7:13:38] Now, the thing that I procrastinate on
[7:13:40] is my studies. If it's a subject that I
[7:13:43] like, I can study for hours. But if it's
[7:13:45] a subject that I don't like, I won't
[7:13:47] even start studying.
[7:13:50] But is this the right attitude? Of
[7:13:52] course not. Bhagavan said to Arjuna,
[7:14:09] meaning fight for the sake of duty,
[7:14:12] treating alike happiness and distress,
[7:14:14] loss and gain, victory and defeat.
[7:14:18] Fulfilling your responsibility in this
[7:14:21] way, you will never incur sin.
[7:14:23] What I understand from this teaching is
[7:14:26] that our responsibilities should not
[7:14:28] depend on whether we enjoy them or
[7:14:31] whether we are guaranteed a good result.
[7:14:34] Happiness and distress, gain and loss,
[7:14:37] victory and defeat. These things are
[7:14:40] constantly changing. If our actions
[7:14:43] depend on them, our mind will also
[7:14:45] constantly change.
[7:14:48] At the moment, I'm doing the complete
[7:14:50] opposite. I'm not able to do everything
[7:14:53] with the same mindset. I let my likes
[7:14:56] and dislikes decide how much effort I'm
[7:14:58] willing to put into something.
[7:15:01] And sometimes when I'm stressed, I get
[7:15:03] tunnel vision. And I even become rude to
[7:15:06] the people around me. That is something
[7:15:09] that I wish to avoid.
[7:15:11] Because when I become too focused on
[7:15:13] what I want, whether it is getting good
[7:15:15] marks, finishing something quickly, or
[7:15:18] simply avoiding something difficult, I
[7:15:20] can forget about everything else around
[7:15:22] me. I may forget that the people around
[7:15:25] me also have their own feelings. I may
[7:15:28] become irritated over small things. And
[7:15:31] in the end, I realize that the stress
[7:15:34] caused by my own attachment is affecting
[7:15:36] not only me but also the people around
[7:15:39] me.
[7:15:41] I think this teaching from the Bhagavad
[7:15:43] Gita is something I can apply not just
[7:15:46] to my studies but to my everyday life. I
[7:15:50] may not always enjoy what I have to do
[7:15:52] and I may not always get the good result
[7:15:54] I want. But I can choose how I approach
[7:15:58] my responsibilities.
[7:16:00] Instead of asking myself, do I feel like
[7:16:02] doing this? I want to learn to ask is
[7:16:06] this my duty? But even then I might make
[7:16:09] lame excuses. I know myself well enough
[7:16:13] to know that I can find a hundred
[7:16:15] excuses when I really don't want to do
[7:16:17] something. So I have found an insurance
[7:16:21] from Allah and Bhagavan's words. Allah
[7:16:25] has said in one of her satsang do
[7:16:27] everything as an offering to God. And
[7:16:30] Bhagavan has said
[7:16:43] meaning fix your mind on me alone and
[7:16:47] surrender your intellect to me.
[7:16:50] Thereupon you will always live in me. Of
[7:16:53] this there is no doubt. When I connect
[7:16:56] these two teachings, I feel that they
[7:16:58] give me something more than just a way
[7:17:00] to force myself to work. I think of
[7:17:03] every action. If I think of every action
[7:17:06] as an offering to God, then even
[7:17:08] something I don't enjoy can have a
[7:17:10] different meaning.
[7:17:13] Studying a difficult subject is no
[7:17:14] longer just something I have to suffer
[7:17:16] through. It becomes an offering. Even
[7:17:20] small ordinary responsibilities can
[7:17:22] become meaningful when I change the
[7:17:24] attitude with which I perform them.
[7:17:28] I don't expect myself to completely stop
[7:17:30] procrastinating from tomorrow. I know
[7:17:33] that I will still have moments when I
[7:17:35] want to avoid difficult things. I will
[7:17:38] still have moments when I feel lazy,
[7:17:40] frustrated, or unmotivated.
[7:17:43] But perhaps the goal is not to never
[7:17:45] have those feelings. The goal is to not
[7:17:48] allow those feelings to control my
[7:17:50] actions.
[7:17:52] I don't know whether I will always be
[7:17:54] able to do this perfectly, but I want to
[7:17:56] keep trying.
[7:17:58] Ama, let me be able to surrender my all
[7:18:02] to you and be able to do each and every
[7:18:04] action with the mindset of doing it as
[7:18:06] an offering. Let me not be controlled by
[7:18:09] my likes, dislikes, comfort, or fear of
[7:18:13] failure.
[7:18:18] foreign.
[7:18:58] Look at these.
[7:19:28] Two minute. Two minute.
[7:19:40] Japan.
[7:19:56] Nice
[7:19:58] big baby.
[7:20:34] Okay. 2 minutes.
[7:20:37] Okay.
[7:20:47] Namaste.
[7:21:24] All
[7:21:40] right.
[7:21:52] Down.
[7:22:25] 1
[7:22:26] 2
[7:22:28] 3
[7:22:30] 4
[7:22:49] 1 2 3
[7:23:07] Foreign
[7:23:24] speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
[7:23:49] Let me see the world.
[7:23:52] I see the you
[7:24:02] see the
[7:24:04] wee.
[7:24:20] Bring
[7:24:26] us in
[7:24:34] changing
[7:24:38] songs.
[7:24:56] My eyes are
[7:24:59] blessed.
[7:25:05] You're never
[7:25:27] seeing
[7:25:32] must be
[7:25:39] born.
[7:25:51] God
[7:25:56] is
[7:26:02] the name of my God. Oh my God.
[7:26:13] How can we serve?
[7:26:48] bring
[7:27:00] me
[7:27:03] Let me see now.
[7:27:06] Let me see.
[7:27:12] Mercy.
[7:27:18] Mercy.
[7:27:35] We must see
[7:27:38] we
[7:27:50] singing.
[7:28:07] JJ
[7:28:15] Living
[7:28:26] you
[7:28:44] Heat. Heat.
[7:28:54] Heat. Heat.
[7:29:04] Yeah.
[7:29:11] Heat.
[7:29:28] Heat.
[7:29:35] Heat.
[7:29:45] Yeah.
[7:29:55] Heat.
[7:30:05] Heat.
[7:30:11] Heat.
[7:30:21] Heat. Heat.
[7:30:36] Heat. Heat.
[7:30:46] Yeah.
[7:30:50] Heat.
[7:31:06] Heat.
[7:31:11] Heat.
[7:31:21] Heat.
[7:31:34] Heat.
[7:31:42] Yeah. Heat.
[7:32:00] Day
[7:32:11] for you. Day
[7:32:14] for you.
[7:32:55] Where are the living light?
[7:33:12] Oh dear.
[7:33:17] One day
[7:33:22] heavenly
[7:33:29] king
[7:33:32] might
[7:33:34] be God
[7:33:36] and
[7:33:39] I
[7:33:42] God
[7:33:51] to guide me. I
[7:34:02] wonder
[7:34:13] Please
[7:34:31] on the power
[7:34:33] of my
[7:34:44] king.
[7:34:50] My God.
[7:35:00] My God.
[7:35:27] Oh
[7:35:29] my
[7:35:40] god.
[7:35:56] He go
[7:36:26] bye.
[7:36:34] I'm God.
[7:36:41] God
[7:37:05] mighty
[7:37:10] God.
[7:37:41] So
[7:37:50] my All
[7:37:54] the way.
[7:38:31] All
[7:38:35] the
[7:38:37] mother.
[7:38:51] Oh yeah.
[7:39:00] I'm
[7:39:11] mother.
[7:39:34] foreign.
[7:39:47] Oh
[7:40:01] shinoch.
[7:40:17] Foreign
