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[0:03] And let's just take some deeper breaths.
[0:05] Let's breathe into the belly,
[0:08] stretch and expand,
[0:15] and exhale.
[0:21] Breathe into the belly.
[0:28] Exhale slower than the inhale.
[0:34] There we go. Okay, we're clicking in
[0:36] now. Breathe into the belly.
[0:43] Okay, all you're going to do is breathe
[0:44] and relax. I call upon the highest
[0:46] fifthdimensional Reiki frequencies of
[0:48] the universe to channel through this
[0:50] entire container to channel through
[0:52] today in the background offering us
[0:54] whatever we need when we need it. If in
[0:56] your mind's eye you would like to
[0:57] receive this healing energy, just say
[0:59] yes.
[1:01] Can also offer the intention I choose to
[1:04] receive
[1:05] that which is love and light for my
[1:07] highest good and leave the rest.
[1:12] We intend that this this group, this
[1:14] container is connected to divine light.
[1:18] We only allow loving and light, wisdom
[1:21] and codes and energy and goodies to come
[1:25] into this space
[1:27] by the grace of God. The rest gone. Bye
[1:29] bye bye.
[1:32] And we ground into the earth.
[1:38] We call our soul fully back to our body
[1:41] from all time and space and dimension.
[1:43] and that we we ask for, we intend for,
[1:46] we choose grace and mercy and miracles
[1:49] and healing.
[1:51] Bring us
[1:53] the resolution our
[1:56] heart came here to receive.
[2:02] In this space, we go beyond the known.
[2:07] I intend for the group to receive the
[2:10] healing that they need to remember the
[2:13] truth that they need to hear through
[2:14] this container.
[2:17] That it be quick, that it be easy, that
[2:19] this be a light, joyous experience.
[2:24] We release that which isn't ours to
[2:25] carry
[2:28] and we call ourselves back home.
[2:33] Just breathing into the belly. Long slow
[2:34] exhale.
[2:39] And now from this place, there's no
[2:42] right or wrong answer. There's no
[2:44] impressive answer.
[2:48] Why are you here? What do you want? What
[2:50] do you seek?
[2:53] And maybe you let it bubble up in your
[2:55] consciousness.
[2:57] Maybe it's a feeling, a little joy in
[3:00] your heart or relief,
[3:03] clarity.
[3:05] Maybe it's to manifest a house. Maybe
[3:07] you're just like, I don't know. I just
[3:09] was weirdly drawn in this direction. And
[3:11] I'm curious
[3:16] if if I gave you a magic wand and and
[3:19] said, "What do you want from this
[3:21] experience? What do you desire beyond
[3:23] what you think is possible?
[3:26] What would you like to receive or what
[3:27] would you like to release from your
[3:29] life?" I'm just going to give you a
[3:31] quiet minute here to see what comes. And
[3:33] I'm going to invite you to to jot it
[3:36] down because we're going to use that as
[3:39] our anchor.
[4:55] And I would love if you would like to
[4:57] share in the chat, you can always
[4:59] private message to me. I can just read
[5:01] it out as anonymous or you can share in
[5:04] the chat um your intention because I do
[5:08] believe when we hold them with each
[5:10] other for each other and they're set out
[5:11] loud they're very potent
[5:17] because what happens is when we set this
[5:19] new energy into our energetic GPS life
[5:21] can meet us. Oh, you want peace. Oh, you
[5:24] want relief. Oh, you want security in
[5:27] your relationship. Okay. You want
[5:29] healing in your body.
[5:42] I love that community.
[5:45] Well, yours got manifested fast. Just
[5:48] head on over to That's beautiful.
[5:58] I intend community for you.
[6:11] Intention is to feel more connected to
[6:13] herself and to honor her inner knowing
[6:15] more often.
[6:17] That's beautiful. I'm gonna anybody that
[6:19] shares I'm going to write these down so
[6:20] I can bring them in.
[6:23] Um, self-connection. Yeah. Oh, man. You
[6:27] are in the right container. We're going
[6:28] to do a lot of that.
[6:32] All right. Honor inner knowing.
[6:39] So, I intend for you to feel more
[6:41] connected to yourself and honor your
[6:43] inner knowing.
[6:47] And we got community,
[6:52] belonging, safety, and self-worth.
[6:58] Amazing.
[7:02] Also in the right space. Um, I intend
[7:05] for you belonging, safety, and
[7:07] selfworth.
[7:09] I heard blessings, joy, and healing. Oh,
[7:12] yeah. Go for the light, fizzy.
[7:15] [laughter]
[7:16] I intend for you blessings, joy, and
[7:18] healing.
[7:21] Blessings,
[7:23] joy,
[7:25] healing.
[7:29] Releasing grief and anxiety.
[7:32] Beautiful.
[7:34] Actually been working on releasing grief
[7:36] myself. So, um I'll have a lot of
[7:39] embodiment to share here.
[7:42] I intend for you releasing grief and
[7:45] anxiety.
[7:50] Good.
[7:53] And anyone else that wants to share
[7:54] their intention, feel free to pop it in
[7:56] at any point.
[7:59] So the next thing we're going to do,
[8:02] there's no judgment here. This is just
[8:04] kind of your own scale. Cuz what I love
[8:07] to do in these groups is for us on day
[8:09] one just to take a snapshot.
[8:13] How do you feel? Where are you at? It's
[8:15] like here's my intention and then this
[8:18] is the lack of my intention, right? Like
[8:20] the I'm dealing with a lot of physical
[8:22] stuff. I don't I'm feeling tired. I'm
[8:24] feeling grief. I'm unmotivated. Whatever
[8:27] it might be that you're experiencing.
[8:29] And we're just going to jot it down
[8:31] because I'm a Virgo moon and [laughter]
[8:34] if anyone else has Virgo in their chart,
[8:37] seeing like how far you've come and that
[8:40] you are changing and that you're healing
[8:42] is everything for the nervous systems
[8:43] because it's so easy for us in these
[8:45] journeys to be like nothing's happening.
[8:47] I'm not changing. And then when we see
[8:50] whoa like look where you were, look
[8:52] where you are. It's everything. Okay.
[8:55] So, we're going to take a couple minutes
[8:57] here. snapshot for yourself. How are you
[9:00] currently feeling? Maybe the distance
[9:03] between you and your intention.
[9:06] Just current like ickiness of challenges
[9:09] in your life. Okay? And we're just going
[9:11] to write it down and keep it in a safe
[9:13] place. This is written with compassion,
[9:18] just a neutral snapshot.
[10:00] And there's no rush, but when you feel
[10:01] like you've written, you know, few words
[10:04] or a few sentences of where you are as a
[10:06] snapshot, your current symptoms, life
[10:09] challenges, just a just a few. Um, just
[10:12] give me an emoji in the chat so I know
[10:15] when to move on.
[11:13] I'll wait till I got three emojis to
[11:16] move on.
[11:41] >> [laughter]
[11:43] >> I don't know why they're making me
[11:44] laugh. You never know what someone's
[11:46] gonna put.
[11:47] [laughter]
[11:49] [sighs and gasps]
[11:50] Give me a third.
[12:07] >> [laughter]
[12:08] >> My guys, these are wowza. [laughter]
[12:13] [gasps]
[12:15] Awesome.
[12:18] Okay.
[12:21] So, you've got your intention. I want
[12:23] you to keep these two things in a safe
[12:25] space. The medicine you are folder.
[12:29] You got your intention for the group. No
[12:31] right or wrong, just what your heart's
[12:33] here for. And if you haven't shared and
[12:35] you still want to share in the chat, you
[12:37] can.
[12:40] And a little snapshot. This is where I
[12:41] am right now. Maybe mentally,
[12:43] physically, whatever,
[12:46] cuz we're going to check back in and see
[12:48] how far you've come as we go further
[12:51] along.
[12:56] So, I'm not going to, unless you guys
[12:58] are interested, you can tell me and I
[13:00] can tell you for another time, go deep
[13:01] into my story. I just want to get right
[13:03] into the healing. This just is near and
[13:06] dear to my heart. I grew up with a ton
[13:08] of physical issues,
[13:10] mystery stuff. No one could figure out
[13:12] what was wrong with me. Good God.
[13:15] But I was a sweet little intuitive
[13:18] dealing with a lot of trauma. And so
[13:22] this has been a very personal like I am
[13:26] my own experiment. I have tried and
[13:28] tested everything I'm sharing with you
[13:32] and it's [clears throat] a bummer and
[13:34] it's you know it is what it is. But I
[13:36] believe we grow up in a world
[13:38] with a very strong broken fix it
[13:41] paradigm which brings me to the first
[13:43] medicine I want to share which is the
[13:46] medicine
[13:48] of wholeness and wisdom. the medicine of
[13:50] wholeness and wisdom.
[13:53] Your body is not broken.
[13:57] Your body and your life. So if the body
[13:59] isn't you're not dealing with a body
[14:00] thing, fill in the blank. Relationship,
[14:02] financial situation, boredom, just fill
[14:05] in the blank. Okay? If body isn't the
[14:08] thing you're here for.
[14:10] Your body isn't broken. It's wise.
[14:13] Listen. And even if you're here for a
[14:14] different reason in the body, I'm going
[14:15] to share with you how it's a portal
[14:18] to assist you in changing the other
[14:20] areas of your life because it's
[14:21] constantly whispering to us.
[14:24] So,
[14:26] you know, it was innocent. I had many of
[14:28] you have met my mama. I had a mama that
[14:30] loved me dearly um but also grew up in
[14:33] similar broken fix it paradigm. And so,
[14:36] it was constant just send her to the
[14:38] doctors, give her pills, which that's
[14:40] all we knew to do. So I am a advocate of
[14:44] balance. I believe in whatever medicine
[14:46] is appropriate for you is appropriate
[14:49] for you. Um of course we need it when
[14:51] it's acute. Like we got we got to do all
[14:54] that stuff. So I'm not saying don't do
[14:55] all that stuff. But my purpose here is I
[14:59] needed someone to come in at the same
[15:01] time and teach all the stuff I'm
[15:03] teaching to you guys. How are you
[15:04] feeling? What do you need? Are you
[15:08] afraid of something? you know, teaching
[15:10] me about boundaries, all of this stuff,
[15:12] intuitive, how do I trust my inner
[15:14] wisdom? Am I feeling my own energy? Am I
[15:16] feeling someone else's energy? [sighs]
[15:19] And so, my journey went from what the is
[15:23] wrong with me? Why can't I figure out
[15:25] what's going on? And this is not an easy
[15:27] path. So I have so much compassion and
[15:30] empathy for you
[15:33] to
[15:34] when there's a symptom, when there's a
[15:37] sensation, when there's a block anywhere
[15:39] in your life, I get curious now
[15:43] because I so deeply believe in wholeness
[15:46] and wisdom
[15:49] that everything
[15:52] is expanding us, everything is
[15:54] whispering to us. So go to the doctor,
[15:58] deal with the thing, use your inner
[16:00] wisdom, and don't stop there. What are
[16:04] you trying to tell me, body? What are
[16:05] you, what's going on? So some examples I
[16:09] wrote down recently, I do these
[16:10] practices. I'm going to take you through
[16:12] these practices where I put my hands on
[16:14] my body and I'll ask it questions. What
[16:16] do you feel?
[16:18] What do you need? What are you trying to
[16:21] tell me? I didn't grow up with that. I
[16:24] grew up with
[16:26] somebody very afraid of my symptoms
[16:28] trying to shut them down,
[16:31] you know, and I'm sure you guys probably
[16:33] had similar experiences too and then we
[16:35] treat oursel like that.
[16:39] So my symptoms and I'm sharing this with
[16:41] you so that
[16:43] hopefully you can begin to try this
[16:45] perspective on for size because it's
[16:47] served me greatly
[16:51] recently. Any symptoms or sensations I
[16:54] experience are helping me see myself
[16:57] more, hear myself more, and love myself
[17:00] more. Anytime I feel unloved, unseen, or
[17:04] unheard shows up in my body. I'm
[17:08] gripping. I'm squeezing. I'm pissed. My
[17:11] throat gets really tight.
[17:14] My chest gets really tight. I can't
[17:16] breathe.
[17:20] And I I get quiet. I'm like, "What is
[17:24] going on?" I feel the sensations that
[17:26] might be arising. I honor them as the
[17:28] work many of you guys know that I do.
[17:32] And I listen and I get curious and I
[17:35] explore all the stuff we're going to do
[17:36] here with me. by asking a million
[17:38] questions so we can unpack what's going
[17:40] on, what's the pattern, what's under the
[17:42] hood.
[17:45] And what I came to see is, and this is
[17:47] the other part of wholeness and wisdom.
[17:49] I'm I'm starting to see, and I well, I
[17:51] have been seeing this for about 10
[17:52] years, that life is a mirror.
[17:55] And you can use your partners and people
[17:57] closest to you if you don't. I didn't
[17:59] feel loved. I didn't feel seen. I didn't
[18:01] feel heard.
[18:04] That doesn't mean we can excuse bad
[18:06] behavior. That doesn't mean we're
[18:07] settling. So again, deal with life.
[18:12] And I know enough from being an inner
[18:14] seeker and a spiritual teacher and doing
[18:16] this work for so long, man. I am
[18:18] expanding. This rage in me is an
[18:22] opportunity for growth. I am not broken.
[18:24] I am wise. What is going on?
[18:29] And so I realized I wasn't hearing
[18:32] little me. I wasn't hearing myself.
[18:36] I and I sat with it and I journaled with
[18:38] it and I got curious with it and I
[18:39] listened to my intuition with it. Again,
[18:41] all things we're going to be doing here.
[18:45] And I heard that I was hearing myself
[18:49] and loving myself the way I was loved,
[18:51] which was with convenience.
[18:54] So, I had lots of people in my life that
[18:56] loved me conveniently and didn't go the
[18:58] little extra mile that didn't didn't
[19:00] offer effort. And so, I was loving
[19:02] myself that way. I was, oh, there's some
[19:05] people coming in. I was innocently
[19:09] hearing myself and loving myself going
[19:11] to the closest hike, but not the hike I
[19:13] really wanted to. Putting a keyboard
[19:17] bench because I want to play piano again
[19:19] on my Christmas list, but not going to
[19:20] to buy the keyboard bench now.
[19:25] And so if I had hi, if I had
[19:30] gone, let me suppress this. Let me not
[19:34] listen to this tension in my chest.
[19:37] I would have no idea that I deserved
[19:40] better from myself.
[19:43] And again, I understand which is why
[19:44] this is a container. This intimacy, this
[19:48] what I call the language of the soul of
[19:52] like depicting this. It's we have to get
[19:54] curious. We have to learn. And we're
[19:55] learning all of those channels together
[19:57] in this four months practicing together.
[20:01] But it's amazing to me. And it's hard.
[20:02] is cuz I want other people to just sit
[20:04] and hear me and love me and like you
[20:06] know make it easy and they do but
[20:09] genuinely I believe and I've seen
[20:12] like it really is a in here first
[20:16] and so my body isn't okay what's the
[20:19] medicine today the medicine of wholeness
[20:21] and wisdom your body is not broken it's
[20:23] wise listen
[20:26] this is saying honey you deserve effort
[20:30] go to buy the
[20:33] Honey, listen. Listen, listen listen to
[20:35] what she needs. See yourself,
[20:40] which is I realize cuz I was like, I'm
[20:43] telling myself I I see you. I see you.
[20:44] And it's not doing anything. And I just
[20:46] taught a class in meditation this last
[20:48] week
[20:50] where seeing myself I'm learning is a
[20:52] just self-witnessing. And then I started
[20:55] to feel seen when I just was looking. I
[20:57] was watching myself in my day.
[21:00] Again, the pain in my body, I didn't
[21:02] know that there was an opportunity for
[21:04] more. Seeing that there was an
[21:06] opportunity for more pissed my partner
[21:09] wasn't loving me the way I wanted to be
[21:11] loved.
[21:12] So, I did it myself and it all showed up
[21:16] in my body. What does that look like? I
[21:18] was like, "God, I really wish you would
[21:20] come over and kiss my forehead right
[21:21] now." Well, you know what I did? Might
[21:23] look dumb, but I took my hand and I
[21:25] pressed it like this on my forehead
[21:27] because that's what I wanted. And I
[21:28] wanted that sensation and I took my
[21:31] power back. So my journey from of
[21:33] healing the last 1015 years has been
[21:35] putting everything outside of me, which
[21:37] is why I'm all about empowerment to
[21:39] calling it all back. That doesn't mean
[21:41] independent,
[21:43] you know, no interdependence,
[21:45] tough guy, tough girl, we don't need
[21:47] nobody else. Self-love is the way. No,
[21:51] it's the first thing though, right? And
[21:54] so your bank account, your grief, your
[21:59] um relationships, your physical health,
[22:03] I know it's bad. I know it's painful
[22:06] sometimes, or at least it was for me,
[22:08] debilitatingly so at times,
[22:12] but maybe through this sacred medicine
[22:15] that I'm opening up and we're going to
[22:16] talk about here in a second, you can at
[22:19] least say, "Oh, hand on the heart. Here
[22:21] it comes. We're going to you're going to
[22:22] repeat out loud after me. We're going to
[22:23] do a lot of this. You're going to say,
[22:24] "Could I open to the possibility
[22:29] that maybe the way I've seen my body in
[22:31] my life
[22:34] is not helpful
[22:37] and I was taught wrong?" We're going to
[22:40] hold that word loosely.
[22:44] And could I open to the possibility that
[22:47] maybe it contains wisdom?
[22:52] And I just need to learn to listen
[22:56] to my life and my body. Body is just a
[22:58] reflection of my life.
[23:04] And could I open to the possibility this
[23:05] is going to be messy and weird and
[23:07] imperfect.
[23:11] But that even through pain, it's on my
[23:13] side.
[23:16] Let's just breathe in, breathe out. Why?
[23:19] You're like, why would pain why are
[23:22] symptoms on my side?
[23:25] Well, when we touch a hot pot on the
[23:27] stove, our hand goes.
[23:30] It's a It tells us stop.
[23:33] So, I'm using myself as an example right
[23:35] now. If I'm perpetually, right, 30 years
[23:38] old, 32 years old, 33, 40, 42, if I'm
[23:42] perpetually
[23:44] living not in my soul's truth, not
[23:46] seeing myself, not hearing myself, not
[23:48] loving myself, and that's what my soul
[23:49] wants for my expansion, it's going to
[23:52] scream louder, more symptoms just to
[23:55] say, "Honey, you're working against
[23:56] yourself. You're not hearing me.
[23:59] You're believing the lies. You're
[24:01] believing the illusions. You're
[24:02] believing you're not worthy of being
[24:03] seen. So, you're living in that
[24:04] self-fulfilling prophecy. You're
[24:06] believing that love lives outside of
[24:07] yourself. Ow, ow, ow, ow, ow, ow, ow,
[24:12] louder, louder, louder, louder, louder.
[24:16] I said this for years.
[24:19] I don't know where I got it. Actually, I
[24:20] went I don't really go to church, but I
[24:22] went to church with a friend. This was
[24:24] years ago, and I was listening to a
[24:26] sermon, and he said, "God does not let
[24:30] you run with scissors."
[24:33] And this is what I believe about the
[24:35] body. And I'm saying this to you from
[24:37] somebody who's been in severe pain times
[24:39] in her life.
[24:42] But if you run in with scissors, if you
[24:45] are
[24:47] living against the truth your soul's
[24:49] here for, and it's all innocent, angel
[24:51] friends, it's all innocent what we're
[24:52] doing. We can't see it. It's why we're
[24:53] having this container.
[24:56] But if we're running with scissors,
[24:58] meaning we're innocently hurting
[24:59] ourselves, it's going to show up in the
[25:01] body or in our life as an opportunity
[25:04] for more love, more expansion, more
[25:07] truth. What an amazing perspective.
[25:12] Like
[25:14] how cool if they taught us this. Deal
[25:17] with acute pain. Deal with whatever is
[25:19] going on. Tend to the wound. Nurture
[25:21] yourself. Take the Adavville if you have
[25:24] period pain or hurt ankle or whatever
[25:27] that and then talk to the body. Ask it
[25:29] what's going on.
[25:31] I know you're just trying to tell me
[25:32] something. Sometimes it's as simple as
[25:35] there's a suppressed emotion and the
[25:38] body's holding it because you're not
[25:40] giving it a place to go. And so the the
[25:42] the
[25:44] skin issues that are going on is the
[25:46] anger saying, "Honey, don't be afraid of
[25:48] me. Feel me. Let me burn through your
[25:50] body. You're not too much.
[25:58] I'm going to pause there." Okay. So that
[26:02] is the
[26:04] medicine of wholeness and wisdom. Life
[26:06] is a mirror. Our body is a mirror. It's
[26:09] not here to hurt us. Yes, it can hurt.
[26:11] Like there's wisdom in it. We must move
[26:14] beyond our brain. We must open to at
[26:17] least knowing, okay, I know that my
[26:20] emptier bank account and my struggling
[26:22] relationship and my physical symptoms
[26:24] look like I'm a broken piece of but
[26:28] this is this is God not letting me run
[26:30] with scissors and and an oper and I'm
[26:32] holding it must be holding a hot pot.
[26:34] There's something I can't see. So, let
[26:35] me work with somebody who's got eyes for
[26:37] the unseen and translating
[26:41] the language of the body and the soul.
[26:43] So it's not exact.
[26:46] It's a it's an inner knowing that will
[26:48] arise. It's a patterning that we'll see.
[26:51] The messages come from within. We'll
[26:53] talk about this because we have a whole
[26:56] medicine on your inner guidance. So I'm
[26:57] going to teach you guys how the you even
[26:59] hear the body. What does it sound like?
[27:01] So all of this these pieces are going to
[27:03] go together.
[27:06] But I hope that this perspective on your
[27:08] hard days or your physical sensations at
[27:10] least help help you go, okay, this isn't
[27:14] brokenness. They taught me wrong.
[27:17] This is something that just needs an
[27:19] ear. And just because it's not
[27:21] brokenness might doesn't mean it doesn't
[27:24] need tending to. You might need to wrap
[27:26] it in a sling or put cream on it or
[27:29] whatever your ch your wisdom is guiding
[27:31] you to do. But I'm asking if you can
[27:34] hold both at once for an opportunity for
[27:36] your healing. Okay.